You were so extremely mean to me ! I couldn't believe it ... I broke down in the lecture room and on my bed ... In lessons too . Every single messages you sent to me for the past few days ... it was ... limited words , just replying to me . How could you do this to me ? I am not her ... I don't need such treatment ! I am different , I am you girlfriend ... not HER . I need you , I can't do without you ... that's why I can't have such treatment . I need your encouragement , your love , your faith to propel me forward . You distancing yourself from me will only affect me ... mentally , psychologically , emotionally ... I won't and cannot concentrate ! Well , it aren't my fault either . Like what I said , it's not like I have tried my best ... I never give up , why are you giving up on me ? That's my intelligence level , what can I do ? What AM I suppose to do ? You are just trying to change me ... to become like her . Well , if you really want me to be like her , why don't you go for her instead and save me form all these mental torture ? Like what I said , you can't have the cake and eat it ... So what if people are talking about it , so what if they are questioning you ? Your believe swayed ... you got beaten ... You lose faith and hope ... You wished to be denied ... If I were to believe what other people said ... our story would have ended ... You don't remember any single thing happened between you and me ... You are just showing me that the stuff between us don't mean anything at all , those magical moments between you and me .... I don't wish to state what excuse you gave me , because I have my own point of view too ... and it definitely don't support your excuse . I asked you , in my option , a very simple question , you got to think .... What does it mean ? What are you telling me ? That after all these 1 year and 11 months together ... I mean nothing to you , you are not sure of you feeling towards me , you are NOT confidence at all ... Which leads me to our promises in the beginning .... Yes , you've forgotten , and I've reminded you ... you forgotten again , I reminded you again ... The cycle just goes on and on and on ... Which further proves how much I mean to you then ....... And the promise ... if you really believe it , really commit to it , have faith in it , want to fulfill it , will you still be reminding me time and time again about you extremely limited time ? Yes , the limited time ... it all started with time ... If time can bring be back to before what had happened ... Everything would be alright . I never complain , I tried my best to understand , I really tried .... If it is still not enough , you can tell me , point out to me . To me , I never complain that you seldom date me ...I believe that you will date me when the time is right , when you have the time . Even if you don't have , somehow or rather , we managed it ... I don't know what to do . I love you . Maucks .