Was on extreme diet yesterday . Ate 2 pieces of cake , 2 cups of milk and some water , only . As for today ... the day came and pass in a blink of an eye ... Yes , tears , there were ... But I am going to hand on ... I will never give up . You just mean too much to me ... All those words you've told me ... all those arrows shot into my heart .... it was just a moment of anger , frustration , just to push me away . I am not as stupid as before to believe in all those hurtful words you said to me . Never give up on the things that make you smile ... Ai Hui messaged me that picture . Yes , it was a picture ... And it gave me confidence ... I am going to hang on . The only comfort I got for the whole day was being able to lie on my bed and talk to you ... You told me about those times together ... wonderful , precious , magical moment . Persistence , stubborn ... I know that ... Yet ... is there any other way ? You asked me why ... and now ... I ask you why too ... Why is it concrete ? Even if it is , I want to warm it ... warm it with my love ... piece up those broken pieces with honey , coat it with honey , fill it with honey ... Those broken pieces ... I was the one who did it . I am sorry ... You said you are in a dark lane with a damaged heart . I am telling you now that I want to be your light , to guide you back to the correct road , filled with warm and love ... I want to heal your wounded heart . You're pushing me to other guys , you said I don't deserve such treatment , you felt guilty ... then treat me the way I should be treated .... Please ... Even if you were to go University , go overseas for months , for years .... I've told you what I will do ... Who is the he in my blog ? It's you ... it's you . I still love you , very much . Why tell me such thing when , you don't mean it at all ? I don't know what you want to do . Just let me make it clear that , I still love you , very much . I can't do without you . Would you walk down the future , together with me , hands in hands ? I am willing , and I want , to walk down the road together with you , helping you to get back everything you had lost . I don't know how , but I want to give it a try . I am willing , and I want , to help you get back all your confidence , I don't know how , but I want to give it a try . Just bear in mind that , I am always there for you , and that you are a very nice guy . I never regret knowing you . I still love you , very much . Come back to me now . That was the poem I wrote during the first time ... and now ... Remember those times together , when I fell off from the bike during our first meeting , At the serene center , at Toa Payoh , Wild Wild Wet , Sentosa , your graduation night , whem you said that you know ... I will not leave you , and the very last neoprint we've took or any other places we've dated . Those times when you said , the 5 words to me before we dream of each other. How we wish to drift into the dreamland , lying in each other's arms , cuddling with each other . The way we wake each other up , almost every morning . If you never greet me good morning , I will be the one doing it . And the rest of the day , we will spent messaging to each other . All those mushy messages , all meant only from me , all sent from the bottom of your heart . And at the end of the day , I will be there waiting for you , waiting for your call . In the end , you were the one who got to wait for me . I love you .