So , I was complaining to Mia . Life sucks .

Next year , next year .... next month , it would be so much better , I hope . But it still sucks !

Competency checklist for visual acuity test , collection of hair / blood / urine / stool specimen and recruitment of healthy volunteers .

Anyway , sleeping day today , tomorrow day on call .

We were told to prepare the screening room for subject tomorrow .... well , I hope that whoever it is , does not pass .... unless on Monday , where I will be on night on call .

So I dragged myself back to the empty home , took my own sweet time . It was only 10.30am plus when I slept .

I woke up and saw the message . I was wild awake .

Yeah , leaving ?!

" When you were gone . "

NEVER COME BACK , just like the past .

How I went down during the night and the time points got reprinted , all duly sign - when it was all done by me . When asked , " oh , you went down " - and so I'm not coming back to sign what I've done with my own hands personally ?!

The workload may be paradise . But the standard ..... To add on , the management ....

I remembered those days , it's through mutual agreement . Well , incidents do happen , when people forgot about their shift , never turn up for shift and all .... then it became , both parties got to go inside the office .

Or maybe , because we are all a batch contractors . Do those dirty un - glam labor works , that's why .

So , I managed to catch him on Skype . It was about 4pm and he was about to rush out to get lunch or something , but he stayed all because I was crying ....

I miss him so so much . If only he was around , he would say the right words to make me better . To let me see the situation , see the world . To get to know the harsh realities .

So , he left . Mum went exercising ....

I indulge in the Lays potato chips .... I got it that time when I did nights with Shirley and Kan ... so long ago .

Then I dig out the yogurt ... ate from the tub till I'm happy .

Drank some drinks as well ....

Felt better .

Chatted with Kyreen at night .... all those stuffs .

Nice nice .

So , Shar suddenly messaged me . I was shocked . Anyway , I explained ... and we're cool about it . No hard feelings .

Shirley was nice . She took a snap shot of my roster on Monday ....

Messaged E Bay explaining as well . Since she commented on my status .

Clara .... she was busy with Christmas preparation and we both never go for Jo's concert !

I messaged Jo and apologies ....

And yeah !

Abby and Per !

Haha .

So , at night . Dad and Brother came home ....

Finally get to see them after my 4 nights ....

Skyped with him again .

I can be tough , I can be strong .

But with you , it's not like that at all .

Damn , damn , damn ,

What I'd do to have you here , here , here .

I wish you were here .

Damn , damn , damn

What I'd do to have you near near near .

I wish you were HERE !

I love the way you are .

It's who I am , don't have to try hard .

We always say , say it like it is .

And the truth is that I really miss .