I went to School early in the morning for English Common test . The questions were hard , hopefully I can pass the test ! ~ Pray hard ~ I hanged around in one of my School's Classroom after the test , then I went to the MacDonal's to buy some burger . I went for my Chineses Tution after that . It went alright . Well , of couse ! I left early ! I went to the garden near my block aand took part in a Lantern Festival , CIP .... I was in charge of one of the game store . It's quite strange . I am used to being a player , instead of a keeper . Well , I was dead beat by the time we were finished . Know why ? My store had attracted the most number of players ! While I was busy enterinating my " customers " , other store keepers were sitting on the chair shaking legs ! Ha Ha ...... too bad . I went back home after that and muggled till 3 am in the morning !

School went by in a breeze . I went home to change my School bag into a slim bag and took my Handphone out . I went to the Jurong East Library and managed to borrow some of my favourite author books . I went back to School after that . I saw Melody and Hui Min in the foyler and went to joined them to chat . Mr Goh walked by the floyer , he was on his way home ...... he saw me and gave me a smile . I return him with a smile . ARGH ....... Lucky at that time I was not wearing my Chinese Dance Costum . We went up to N4-04 and began to let Miss Ang to help me put on make up , hair - do .... etc ..... I went missing half way . I was actually with Ai Hui in the car park . Mr Ikmal saw me and took a photo of me with his Handphone . I went up on stage after that . Well , what's the big deal ? Provided that I was not the main lead ...... nothing much . India , Malay dance was next . Followed by my item - Cross Talk . Ai Hui and I did a very good job . We added a few lines in the morning and yet we were able to present it to the Primary 6 pupils like we knew our lines at the back of our hands ! There were no pause , no wrong words said . Expect that the PA crew were jealous of me and they made me loose face ! The mic they gave me was spoilt ! The volume was very low , and 1 of the prefect even hinted to me that I need to speak closer to the mic , when I was on stage ! I saw my Mum after that and she praised me . Mummy , thank you for your presence !

School day went by in a blink of an eye . I was home by 4 pm . Kai Xin came at 7.30 pm . The first thing she did was to make me CCCCCCCCCCCCCCRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYY !!!! Cry ! She came . Then began her leture . She said to me - Why did you lie ? Sometimes , I really wonder why must I cover for you . I might as well like you get scolded by your Mother . Know why I still come today ? It's because you are my Sister , you are from City Harvest Church too ! If you are not , I would just slam the door at you . One sentance ....... Sometimes , I really wonder what you are saying is true or not . She's refering to my absent in Church ! Sigh ...... I don't know . I started crying ever since she spoke her first word ..... So , know you know why my blog is Liew Mu Jie cried ....... If you had been reading my posts often , the last time I cried was yesterday , now I cried again ..... Crying just fit me perfectly .... Crying just goes hand in hand with Liew Mu Jie ........

It's the worst day I ever had ! I had asked Sok Ee to accompany me after School as I have things to tell her . Even though all the problems were over , I still felt quite heavy , so i decided to contect Sok Ee via Short Messange Servise and dated her . Early in the morning I got caught by Mr Goh . As usual , I got no badge pinned on my collar . I dug inside my skit pocket and produced a School Badge . First period was Math , it was inside Lab 2 . He was revising with us on the topic of Trigo . I was dreaming when he suddenly asked me " You know you cannot write like this ? " I asked Mr Goh some Math questions during Recess , and I took the chance to ask him - Can I ask you to help me mark the Math Ten Years Series ? He agreed , but warned me - Not so much . After recess was Math again , in the Lab 2 again . I was perpareing to go to my seat when Mr Goh asked me will will the class be after his period . I told him - in the classroom . I should not have told him ...... It's so bad !!! After Math was English . Followed by Acs . Mr Goh came to the class . There was no activity for us - expect for a worksheet . The title of the worksheet was - The Last Quarrel ...... Oh My ...... I wrote about the fight with Mum . I don't know why , but I was totally pissed off by the stupid , simple question ! The bell rang and the last period had ended . I went out of the classroom , then realized that I left my purse inside the class . I will be having Chinese Dance later , so I never bring my School bag down since I would be coming up later . I went inside the classroom and got my purse . When I was to leave the second time , Mr Goh , who was at the teacher's desk , asked me if I was alrigt or not . I assured him I was . He voiced out that I looked stress and asked me , out of concern if I got sleep at nigh or not . Once again , I assured him I did . I went with Sok Ee to the School Garden . I told her what happened , and I began crying . I even told her the time when my Mother believed in others more then her daughter . I cried ....... and Mr Goh walked by . He asked me if I have performances this coming Friday . I gave him a blur look . Performances ? Oh ! I told him yes . Hello ! Perple was there crying and you asked such a question out of a sudden ! When for Chinese Dance . It was still alright . I went back home . There was a blackout in the lift ...... just like my mood ! It was totaly darkness ! Well , what do you expect when you are underground ? I went home and have a looked at my Student Personal Orginser . 2004 . Thursday , 23/9/2004 - Kai Xin's tuition at 7.30 pm . Friday , 24/9/2004 - Vocabulary Builder M to R . Chemistry Mock Exam Paper 2 . Whole of Secondary 3 syllabus . I'm loaded ! I have not start revising my Chemisrty ! I planned to give up on the Vocabulary Builder . But , how am I suppose to study for Chemisrty when I have tuition on the night before ? I decided to change the tuition . Well , since Mum had told me last time that Kai Xin is for me to ask English and Humanities , I messaged Kai Xin and told her that " Mum don't allow me to have tuition as I will be having tests on Friday . " She called . As expected ! And she wanted to talk to my Mother ! So , in order to prevent her calling me again , I plucked the phone line . Yes ! I've plucked the phone line ! I told Mum during dinner that Kai Xin would not be coming towmorrow as I will be having a lot of papers on Friday . She insulted me by saying I got only 10 plus marks for Social Studies , and since I will be sitting for a lot of papers on Friday , then why don't I call Kai Xin to come ? It was so ...... Insulting ! Social Studies ! 10 plus marks ? Hey ! I am not that hopeless ! Worst come to worst , only 30 plus ! Where got 10 plus ? Why ? Want me to aim for that type of grade is it ? Sure ! No problem ! DEAL ! Mum found out that the phone line was plucked , but she thougth that it had dropped by itself . Kai Xin did called back , but it was Mum who answered the phone . Kai Xin spoked with Mum for a while before Mum asked me during her convasation with Kai Xin . Mum wanted to know what papers I have on Friday . I shouted to her - Chemistry ! Talked , talked , talked . When Mum hanged up the phone , she said to me - Kai Xin will be coming on Thursday to teach you CHemistry ! Mum ! What the F**K ! Last time when I asked Kai Xin to teach me math , I got scolded and even caned !!!!!! You said Kai Xin is for me to ask English and Humanities , and yet , you were asking her to come and teach me Chemistry ! Hey ! Can't I just study by meself ? I wanted to prove myself wrong .... and yet ........ MUM ! I HATE YOU ! Had you ever gave a thought about my feelings ? How would Kai Xin felt ? It's like ....... I lied ! Oh my ! Why must it always be like this ? ARGH !!!!

Nothing much to blog , nothing much happened ....... Just , maybe , a few sad things . Firstly , on the 5/10/2004 , there is going to be English Paper Two and Physics Paper Two . How can ?! How can there be papers on my Birthday ?! No way ! I complained the whole day ! Got back Chinese test paper , Sixty seven over Hundred .... not that bad , provided that I hardly pass any Chinese test before ....... let's not say about other subject .......... There was Grography Test on Weathering later in the day , a few periods after recess ...... Went to ask Mrs Grewal during recess , she was so kind , provided my mind with more then what I should know about the topic / subject ! Well , it kinds of helped me on some level ....... when I had bombarded her with all my questions , she still asked me if I have any more which I do not understand ! I struggled a little during the test , and I do not have enough time to complete the paper ! I was answering the very very last question when Mrs Grewal came to my desk and collect my paper . Hey ! I KNOW how to answer the question ! Do give me some presious time , preety please ............. Haiz , lost Four marks even before the teacher start marking the paper ......... Sigh , regined to faith ....... Hopefully I can pass this test ! It was easy , Ninteen MCQ questions and Two structured questions ! I think I am able to score , maybe get some marks from Section B , but the MCQ section should be able to pull up my overall marks of the test .... hopefully so ! After my Second recess , it was Chemistry period . Got back Chemistry test paper on Acid , Base and Salts ........ failed my just Two marks ! Eighteen out of Forty ! TWO MARKS ! If only my brain could remember that ........ Acid + Metal Oxide = Salt + Water And not ....... Acid + Metal Oxide = Salt + Hydrogen ! If I could recall that ........ Acid + Metal Hydroxide = Salt + Water Instead of writing .......... Acid + Metal Hydroxide= Salt + Hydrogen ! I would get two more marks already ! And I would get a C6 instead of a D7 ! I knew that .......... Metal + Acid = Salt + Hydrogen ! Since I was strucked at the two questions above , I just try my luck , I know it was wrong , it should NOT be Hydrogen ....... it should be something else ...... something which I had totally forgetten about it ....... I just went blank by looking at the test paper , just by touching the paper , just by having contect with the paper ! This test means a lot to me , you know ? Firstly , we had an Acid , Bases and Salt test in Term 3 , and I flunked it ...... This test was just like a re - test for me ........ I did tried very very hard to learn the concept , but I just went blank by looking at the test paper , just by touching the paper , just by having contect with the paper ! Even the SIMPLEST equation ....... Acid + Metal Oxide = Salt + Water and Acid + Metal Hydroxide = Salt + Water , I could forget ! Oh My God ! Got back Amath test on Circular Measure next ...... fail ! Eleven out of Thirty ! If only my brain could remember how to convert degree to radian , radian to drgree ! Please refer to the post on 14 / 09 / 04 ....... The total mark for the CURSED question is Four ! 11 + 4 = 15 ! 15 / 30 = PASSED ! I could have pass both Math and Chemistry if only my mind could work properly and recall all the concept ! Do NOT forget , I lost four marks for Geography today already ! I went home and managed to complete E math and Physics ..... some extra homework assigned by me myself ...... I felt so proud of my sucess !

Went for a trail with some of my classmates . Walked here , walked there , trying to fill in the questions . I was messageing to my Brother's friend half the time . I could not believe myslef ! Firstly , I was the person who started the chat , secondly , I asked him to contect me on my Birthday - 5/10/2004 . ARGH ! The trail ended at about 12 pm . Instead of going back to Jurong with my classmates after lucnch , I went to shop . Brough a number of pens . I wanted to go to the Jurong East Library , but it was closed when I reached there . So I went back home and slept . I tried in vain to message him when I was online . He never reply me my messages via MSN Messanger . Haiz ....... he's giving up on me too ?

It was such a boring day . Moring Maths period was alright , alright as in I don't understand a thing . Physics was next . I guess Mr Khor caught me daydreaming , thus , I was called to go up to the white board to do a question . Thanks Goodness I know how to do the question . Recess was next . I went to the School Garden and courched down , putting my head in between my leg . I saw Mr Goh walking by but I took no notice of him . Out of the sudden , I began to cry all alone , aginst my wish . I looked up for a while , I saw Mr Goh talking on his handphone . Haiz . I don't care . I bowed my head in between my legs and cried again . It was not a bad idea to " hugged " yourself in times of troubles . Ai Hui came . I don't know how much time she took to travel from my classroom to the Garden . She came , and asked me what happened . I never spoke , never reply her , instead , I beagn to cry harder , louder !!! Haiz ....... What was happening ? I cried and sobbed . Finally , when I clamed down for a while , I told her ...... " Viven's coming to my house today .... ~ Sob , Sob , Sob ~ ..... What should I do ? I don't want her to come ! What should I tell her ? WHat to tell her ? ..... ~ Sob , Sob , Sob ~ ..... " " Haiz .... " Ai Hui tried in vain to comfort me . I was so sad that my veins could not send messages from my ears to the mind . When I finally cooled down , I then realized form Ai Hui that Mr Goh was talking on his Handphone all the while . Haiz ...... Is he very rich ? Talked so much on his phone ! It was Maths period again after recess . Mr Goh was giving us those important questions from the Ten Years Series for revision . Worst ! Mr Goh called me up to the white board to do the sum !!! Lucky , I know how to do .... Ha Ha ? Attend Chinese Dance Practise . Oh My God ! I was totally fed up ! I was in no mood to dance . I took the short cut home after Practise , preparing myself for the worst . Viven did came and torture me , even thought she was late . I don't know why , but I was answering in questions . I answered like my Brother . She asked me how come I score so low . I told her that it's expected . A lot of my classmates never score well also . She began telling me her story ...... She was from a neighbourhood School , her parents also don't like her to join Church . She admited that she admired those Church - Going - Ladies . She felt that there's a glow in them whic she never saw in anybody else . The ladies are shinning the glory of God , she said . She asked me what I want . I surprised myself by saying a lot of things to her - Theatre Actress , Nurse , Dancer or an Air Strewards . Before she made a move , she praied with me . Knows what she asked God ? To let me more open ........... I would rather ask God to lighten my worries , don't let me go from one obstacle to another . I know that setbacks are part and parcel of life to make you grow stronger . But I don't think I am mentaly prepared .

This was not a very good day ! Firstly , I am still very confuse and worry about what is going / had happened . Secondly , there were two test . Chinese Spelling and A Math Circular Measure test ! First period was Chemistry , and my Chemistry teacher , Miss Ong , gave us a surprise test and claimed it to be a " test to test our understanding on the topic " ! Well , if everything goes well , I should be able to pass the test . ~ Cross finger ! ~ Chinses period was next . And the whole one period was spent on Spelling . Like anyone would study ! All of us were busy practing A math , would anyone study that spelling ? I am one of those lazy student who never study . So get ready to fail the Spelling ! English was next and our teacher never come . Physics teacher took over the two English periods . Lucky not Math teacher , something to be glad about !? Our " Physics " periods were spent marking our holiday homework . Mine was not finish . I am very proud to say that I GOT do the mind - challenging questions , but only the first two questions ...... It was a Moment worksheet , and I was stuck half way on the " Energy " question . And since I was strcuk , I got no " feeling " to bother to carry on with other questions ! And was just told today by my Physics teacher to the whole class that we are not expected to do the question - because he had not teach the class yet ! I was like " What ?! He had not teach the class before and my whole homework is not completed ! The work was delayed all because of one question which we were not expected to do ! " And much to my surprise , I got the first two question CORRECT ! Yet , Ai Hui got thoses questions wrong ! I can do it if I set my mind to it ! Like it can brightens up my life ! I was feeling " heavy " all because of the heavy burden I was carrying ! " Time for crying " was followed . Okay , okay .... it was recess time . But I cried during that time ! I told Ai Hui what happened yesterday , and the more I talk about it , the more those tears were formed ! I was then I really got to agree that my Mum does not understand me ! Ai Hui's point of view was that she was FORCING me ! And she told me to be strong ........ real strong ..... something which only I can do , am able to do , got to do , and never give up and give way . I really cried ...... I do not know what to do ...... How could James betray me like that ? I thought I can count on him , trust him as much as the confidence I have in my Dear Brother ? Okay , I might be crazy , telling to a guy what happened to me and not to a member of the same sex ...... To tell the truth , I felt that I mix around better with members of the opposite sex better then my own gender . And with such a strong bond I have with my Brother , I never thought that such a bond could exist with other people . I never really mingle with other people , never really open up ......... unless to people whom I think / feel I can trust , really understand me to some level ......... I do not know ........ I really got to declare that " I am lost in my own sweet , wonderful world , in my own dream .... the real me only exist in my own dreamland ..... my own island ." Brother understand me up to a level higher then other because he is the closest to me , I always share my problems with him ........ but he is also confuse sometime ! There was another period of Physic after recess , it's the real Physics period this time round . And we finish the whole holiday homework durning that period ....... Soon .... it's time for me to die . A math test ! For once , I really really really wish that Mr Goh can carry on with his lesson instead of being an invigilator ! I wish he can come for his period ! The test ........ it was a joke ....... a very big joke which no one even smile ........ I do not know how to do the very first question ! How do you change degree to radian , with the pie ? And vise versa ? You think I care about what unit it is ? Radian or degrees , it makes no difference to me for I do not care and even if I do care , I also do not know how to do those questions which followed ..... The it was Geography ! Yeah !!! Something which I look forward to the whole day ? All because of my caring teacher , Mrs Grewal again ! ( Refre to the posts from 4/09/2004 to 08/09/2004 ) Well , she was kind to me ALONE today ! We were marking some work in the Geography Workbook . The correct answers was on the a transparncy and since I am always as slow as a snail , Mrs Grewal lended me her transparncy after she showed it to the whold class , without me asking ! Literature was next and was as boring ..... Was able to go home straight away , but I stayed back a while , hanging around in the folyer . Planed to meet Sok Ee there and discues some outing we are planning ....... She never turn up , even thought I went around searching for her in the whole school ! When I was about to get my back from the folyer and go home , I saw Mr Nazri ! I called out to him and asked him for his photos which he had taken , durning the trip to Westen Australia . He said it was not ready yet ..... and I told him I got bring my photos to School ..... and I let him have a look ...... When he saw finish , he said the photos were very nice ..... memorable and asked me if I miss the place . Yes ...... really memorable and I missed it ! It was a place , a time where I never feel like crying .... He then asked if I am from 3E5 , I answered a " Yes " and he said he will pass me the photos ! And one more thing ! While Mr Nazri was looking at my photos , Mr Goh walked pass ! And guess what ? He sort of smile at me ! Smile ...... yar , wait till he mark my A math test which I sat eariler in the morning ! When home , ate some food , and came online . Viven was online , as usual ...... she chatted with me , and told me the same thing Kai Xin told / asked ...... Viven clamed that she saw the message I send to James ...... and began leturing me ....... Sigh , nothing new , right ? It only makes matter worst and makes me want to cry somemore ........ ~ Crying ~

It's the first day of School . Haiz . It was so boring . I missed Austraila ! I missed the days I spent there ....... I went home at 4 pm in the afternoon . I was doing my homework when ....... " Ring ...... Ring ........ Ring ......... " The phone ran . I picked it up . It was Kai Xin . She called me . " Hello ? " I just pick up the phone and went back to my room and sat on my chair , trying to carry on doing my work . " Hello , may I speak to Mu Jie please ? " " Speaking " We chatted for a while when she asked .... " By the way , why do you send the message to James ? " " Huh ? " " Don't " huh " ! You know what I am talking about ! If you don't , I can ask James to show you the message ! " I was spell dumb ! I could not believe what I heared ! I mean ......... James showed the message to her ? Haiz ...... if I can just tell Kai Xin or Vivien , would I send the message to him ? I sended the message to James for a very simple reason . I do not want them to call me or leture me . I know like the back of my hand that if I tell them , they would ask things against my wish . Since Mum forbidden me to go to Church because of my eduaction , they will surly ask me things like ..... why was it done so badly ? Did you study ? How do you study ? Did you complete your Study Hours ? Countless questions ! As you know , I do not like to mix around . I am not that sociable . I don't mix around with my peers that much . The truth is ......... I do not know what to answer them when they ask me those questions . Since I was on my work table and I was talking on my cordless phone , I know the phone's reception is not that good when I bring it near some soild objects like wall , sofa or table . I was sitting on my work table , an idea stuck me . I brought the phone near my desk , and true enough , the phone began to buzz some irrating sound . I took the chance to escape by telling the caller that there's not enough battary inside my phone . She was not that happy at first . But she was forced to hang up as my voice was barly audible over the buzzing phone . Was God really with me ? Did he gave me the wisdom to ran away from her ? I can't believe what I had done ! It's so terrible for me , yett I've done it . I am so bad ! Terrible girl I am ! It's against my wish ..... I just don't want to admit it .... I hate answering her call ! I am not fully perpared yet ...... Worst come to worst ! Mum told me during dinner that Vivien , my cell group leader , is coming on this Wednesday ! My world came crashing down ...... like the Wrold Trade Centre . 911 .

Went for tuition , but only woke up when the tuiton start , 8.30 am . " Rushed " to the centre and was dismissed after going through one chapter of Chinese . Went back home with lunch for both me and my Brother . Surprise ! I was dismissed eariler then usual today ! I was not allowed to go for Service , and so I messaged Kai Xin . I lied to her saying that I got to stay back and do some O' lever Chinese Paper , which was not true , don't forget I was dismissed eariler then usual today ! I messaged James too , telling him to pass a message that I could not go for service from now on ....... ( Refer to the post 11/09/2004 ) Tried to do finish some last minute hoilday homework in the afternoon . Mum when out with cousin , same as yesterday . So , we were to eat dinner by ourselves with Dad . I wanted to eat pizza , but the store never sell . Ate spaghetti instead . Went home after eatting dinner . Mum came home soon with photos which I took durning the trip to Westen Austraila . I let Mum have a look after filing the nicely . Well , not all photos came out right . But some were very beautiful ! Was not really use to sleep early ...... used to sleep late durning the holidays and durning the trip to Westen Austraila ! Tomorow is the start of a new term ...... hopefully it's a new begnning for me . But it never is ..... It never ment to be ......... I cried the very first day ....... I cried two days in a row ........ So , does crying mens a good start for a school term ? No ! Nope ! Look out for the posts on 13/09/04 , 14/09/04 and 15/09/04 ....... ~ Crying .......... ~ Nothing ever start right for me !

Saturday .... actually can enjoy myself with my cell group members , they were having barbecue ! But even if I do not have any tuition , I also have to consider it first . I have to think twice about going ...... Mum sended me to the tuition .......... something which I would perfer to DIE then go tuition with her ! You know what she told me on the way to tuition ?? Things which are capable to make me cry ! First heart breaking thing - I am forbidden to go for service from now on all because of education !!!! Second thing which sends tears rolling - She had asked Viven to come to my house to teach me ..... Do not know what subject . Not interest to know ! She claimed that my last time tutor , Shi How , was not good enough , all because I fail both my Math and Pure Science ( Okay , I passed my Physics , but my Chemisrty drop till ....... from 50 plus to 30 plus ! ) Shi How was a good tutor , he used to test me on the spot for Science , when I was in Secondary Two ....... He would write for me the main point for the topic , then he would give me some time to learn , memerise the main points , the he would test me .... Sometimes , he would even extent the tuition time ! Where to find such a good tutor ? And one more thing , he never lose his temper with me ! I was like ..... What ? She had asked Kai Xin to teach me without asking me opinion , now Viven ! Hey ! I am trying to keep a profile as low as I can ! Why ask them to come ! Somemore , my Sisters ! I am not very commite to God , never really fellowship with them , with the group ...... How am I going to survive them coming my house ?! Kai Xin alone is more then enough , but why Vivien ? Why my cell group leader !? Why her ? I do not need to report my life to Kai Xin , she is just a normal member , like me , expect then she's much more commite then me ....... But I got to report every saddness , every pressure , every stress , every single thing about me to her ! I am not close to her , how am I suppose to share my worries with her ? Ask me to share it with Ai Hui , Sok Ee , Lydia is so much better ! Sigh ! I don't want ! Everything which happenes in my life , everything problems which I had / got to endrue , does not please me , does not go acconding to my wish , it gave me stress , it makes me cry , it anger me .....

Went back to School for Chinese Dance . Oh My !!!!!!! Okay , I do felt better ....... but nevertheless , I am in no mood to dance . And for Goodness' " sick " ! It was the same old dance ! I hate it ! ARGH !!! Melody was there teasing me , asking me if I missed Austraila or not ...... Ha Ha ....... My dear Godsister , it's such a waste that you never had the chance to go to Austraila with us ! Ha Ha . Too bad ..... next time round , okay ?

I was on the plane ...... I do not feel alright . Sigh ..... I miss those time ... the night which I got caught , when I feel sick ......... Sigh ........ why must every good thing end ! The plane , SQ 216 . It departed at 1 am . Everyone changed seats . I ended up sitting beside Mrs Grewal . I had supper , or breadfast , on board . Then , I planned to watch " Kill Bill 2 " . Ended up sleeping ! I woke up , and tried to watch " Passion Of Christ ". Slept throughout the whole movie too ! Guess I was just too tired ! I arrived at SIngapore . Borrowed Shahira's handphone and dialled Brother's Handphone number woth shakey hand . I then found out that I almost forgot his number ! Oh my ! I was not sure if the number I pressed was correct . Nevertheless , Brother answered the phone with a sleepy voice . He's still sleeping ! I questioned , what are you doing ? Just woke up ? Why arn't you picking me up ? Though you promised me to ( okay , Brother , you are going to deline it again , right ? ) I gave up listening to all his excuses and asked him for Mother's Handphone number . He gave it to me , and I made another call via Shahira's Handphone again . I was close to tears ! Brother ! You made me very disppointed ! How could you ....... I met Mum . She wanted to have Breadfast with me . Sigh ........ forced to ! We board the train , I suggested having Breadfast in Jurong . But ended up dropping down at a stop . We went to have Breadfast . I told Mum that I was not hungry , do not want to eat , but she refused to listen . Ended up eatting something against my wish . I was so pissed of ! I just felt like going home and have a good sleep . I felt very sleepy , very weary ...... I slept all the way home . Once I reached home , I dumped my lagguge by the door and headed straight for the bed ! Oh my wonderful bed ! I slept without changing , undressing . I slept at only 10 plus in the morning . Slept ....... Slept ....... Slept . When I woke up ..... it was already 6 plus !!!!!!!! I slept at 10 plus only !!! I walked around my house . Not a soul in sight . Everyone went out . Haiz ....... Brother , where are you ? I miss you !!!!!!! Oh Brother .... where had you went ? Oh bother ! What a trip ! I felt drainned ..... drainned out from all my energy ..

I woke up and felt like sleeping again . I wanted to sleep again !!! Someone who was sleeping on the same floor as me was having some problems in breathing !!! I tried to sleep , mamaged to sleep a little , then I heard my roomates leaving for the sunrise ...... They never wake me up ! Haiz ........ I went alone for breadfast . Met Mr Warren on the way , he asked me if I am feeling better , told he yes , and he comment that maybe I played too much ...... Ha Ha We board the coach for the Alumina Mines after finishing the breadfast . To me , it was nothing but soils ! We sat in the coach and the driver drove us around the " construction " site . A tour guide came with us , and so Me Warren sat beside me as he was sitting right in the front and I was sitting all alone . We went to the Macademia Nuts next . The tour was very very short . All of us went to the Macademia Nuts shop ...... I brought a number of nuts for my family . We went to the Fisherman's Kitchen for lunch . I sat all alone ....... and when I finally could not torate it , I went and ate with the Teachers ...... So bold of me !!!!!! After eatting our lunch , we went to have a tour of Fremantle - Fishing Boat Harbour , Round House , Monument Hill and Cappicino Strip . It was boring when you do not have any carmar with you ! On my way back to the coach , Mrs Grewal offered to help me take photos , but I told her that I do not have any films . We went to the Perth for shopping . We were supposed to shop in groups of two or more members . Vanessa , Mathani , Sumanthi , Mrs Grewal , Mr Nazri , Mr Warren ... etc ..... etc asked me whoese's group I am in . Vanessa , Mathani , Sumanthi offered me to join them , and i agreed . We went to a shop . And all my friends staied there , looking at the clothes , bags ...... Sumanthi asked me to go back to the coach with her as she left her purse in the coach . I agreed , but on the way back , a shop caught my eyes , and I left Sumanthi to shop inside . After shopping , I went to another shop futher down the road . I went inside . I was browsing through some goods when I saw Mr Warren ! I was shocked to death ! I hid behind one of the shelves and watched his movements . I actually tried to run out of the shop . But there were two ways out . When I finally found out where the exit was , Mr Warren was at the counter paying his goods . And the counter was blocking my way out ! So , I ended up waitting for Mr Warren to pay his goods , strolled out of the shop ..... then I left the shop and went to find my friend . Perth is such a big palce , I could not loacate my friends !!! I wonder around , and bumpped in to them ! We went inside a small shop and brought lots of sweets , chocolate .. nuts .... etc .... We left Perth and board coach for Aboriginal Cultural Show and Traditional Tool making . It was out in the open and thus , I was freezing . Never really enjoyed myself . When we finally went indoor to eat , I can't be more pleased ! Dinner was served inside a house , the living room was very small . There was not enough space for all of us to sit . Mr Warren managed to get a sit , and when he got up to refill his plate , the naught and cold me snatched his sit . Ha Ha . After eatting , I sat by the fire . I still feel quite cold . Mr Warren came and sat beside me . I took the chance to ask for his photos . He said that he will be giving his photos to the School . And then he asked about my films . Told him that I brought some in the afternoon duing the last minute shopping . And I even told him that I took som many photos was because my Brother is a photographer . He left and Mr Nazri came next . He sat beside me , the same sit which Mr Warren sat . He questioned me about my health . Told him I am as fit as fiddle , and I took the chance to ask him about his photos . He said he will print it out for the School . We left for the Airport next ......... Our very last hour in Perth was spent shopping in the shops inside Perth Airport . I went inside the bookshop . Of couse . Where else would I be going ? Mr Warren was inside there too . What he's doing ? Ha Ha ...... he had be given the oppountiunty to buy things for some of the members of the trip . Instead , it was the girls begging him to buy some things for them ! I sat at the door of the shop . I found a very interesting book inside the shop , near the door . So I just took it from it's shelf , and sat on the floor to read . It was a book titled " The tomb of God " . I surprised myself ! I am actually interested in this type of books ! Hm ..... I was wondering if I should buy the book back to Singapore for Him .... as a preasent . Ha Ha . I am not that crazy . I never buy anything from the shop ! Some of the members saw me . They just gathered near the shop , where there were seats . Our teachers were sitted there , so , they gathered near our teachers . When they saw me , they came over and asked me what book was I reading . I showed them the book cover ....... they were as shock as me . I felt wired ...... I miss my Brother ... ONLY . And ...... I am going to miss Perth too . I do not know why ...... out of the sudden ...... I felt like contecting Brother . Brother ....... I miss you ! If I can , I surly will bring out the Teddy Bear which I brought , and hug it ! Brother ....... are you going to fech me home tomorrow ? BROTHER ................ After browsing through the book , I left with the others ........ it's time to board the plane ..... Goodbye , Perth ..... Thanks for all the laughters ! Thanks for all the wonderful time ! Thanks for the weather ! It's my first time enjoying Winter . Thanks for everything , Perth .... I will miss you ........ no ...... I am already strating to miss you ..... I will come back to you the next time .......

We checked out the Boardwater Resort and went to the Ferguson Farm in Dardanup and stayied there the whole day . When we were in the coach , I asked Mr Nazri about my Teddy Bear which I brought it the day before , I realized that I had left it on his seat ! He took the Teddy Bear out from his plastic bag , poped out the Bear's head , turned the head around , then finally returned to it to me . I was there laughting my head off ! Once I steep out of the coach , I was there shakeing . Mrs Tham saw me and gave me her coat . Ha Ha ..... it was so funny ...... our School vice princpal lent me her coat ! The girls were given two big resort and were give the chance to see which resort we want to stay , and same goes for the boys . I went with Mathani , Sumanthi , Vanassa , Hafidah , Shahira , Devi , Selvi , Zhi Hui , Hui Min and Intan . After dumping my lagguge inside the resort , I went out to have a walk . I went looking at the animals . Really wished to take photos , but I got no films left ....... Sigh ! I guess I was on my way back when I saw Vanassa , Sumathi , Kevin , Stefan and Mathani . They were playing the tampoline . I stood beside them and took my turn . It was fun ! really fun ! Provided that you are freezing to your bones , some exercise would do you good ! Plus , I found out that i was indeed very good at jumping , I even do spilt in mid air and Vanassa , Sumathi kept on asking me to do it again . I jumped a lot .... and began to feel a bit sick ....... headache ! I went back to our room after lunchtime . I asked a few of my roomates to wake me up for the later activies . None of them did ! Nevermind , at least I was not late for reporting . We board a small cart , and were being pulled by a horse to go round the farm . I felt nothing , I only felt sick ! We went back to the starting point , and pony ride was up next . I asked Mr Narzi to help me take photos as I ran out of films . He agreed whole heartly . I sat on the pony , went a round in the filed , and went into the play house nearby . I was both cold and sick ! Mr Warren saw me and took a photo of me ! We went to milk the cow , and I asked Mr Narzi to help me take photos again . We went back to the rooms , I did not have the chance to have a nap as my roomates were all talking about what item we were to put up for the camp fire night . All agreed to let me be at the front , doing a dance . Whatever ..... I am having a big headache ! I had played too much ! We went for dinner . I was there lying on the back of my seat , and when Mrs Grewal saw me , she asked me if I am alright , I told her I am . I sat with Vanessa , Mathani ... etc ... We ate . I guess the food was alright ..... After dinner , we were told that there was a night walk , most of the people went back to their rooms to take their torch . I never go , I was too ill to even move an inch . I asked Mr Warren if he had any pills when he walked pass me . He said it was inside his room , and asked me to ask other teachers , asking " Whoese the closest teacher to you , Mrs Grewal ? " He offered to help me ask , I delined his offer , and he comforted me no to scared . He gave up soon after that . Mr Warren left , and I carried on to sleep on the back of my chair ...... Suddenly , someone shook my hand , I woke up , it was Mr Warren with the medicine ! Oh my ! He went back to his room out in the cold in order to thake the medicine ! I felt so bad !!!! I took the medicine and left with the members for the night walk . We basically walked in dark ( the farmer did not allow us to switch on the torch as he wanted our eyes to apdat to the darkness ) to the end of the farm . There was a campfire ..... out in the woods , so we got no place to sit ! The fire was very beautiful , alas , no chance to take pictures of it ....... Brother , I'm sorry ! We went to a place near to the farmer's house . We litted a little fire . I squtted away the fire while others were all standing up , near to the fire . The farmer played a game ..... asking each of us to point where Singapore is . The person who pointted it correctly will get something from him tomorrow . I felt really very sick ...... headache ! Ms Vani caught me and asked me to join in the game of pointing . I pointted , wrong direction ..... We went back to the rooms after the game . All my roomates slept ....... expect me . I bathe then washed the cups which were being used for making teas , and went to Mr Warren's room . Even though the distance was less them a metre , it seemed as though it was a hundred kilometre to a sick plus cold girl . I reached the doorstep and took a peek though the glass plain , saw Mr Nazri inside the room , both guys chatting with each other . I knocked on the door .... once , twice .... thrice ..... Oh My ! They were deaf ! I knocked and knocked ...... finally ..... one of the guys saw me ! Mr Warren opened the door and I " begged " for another medicine . He told me that he got two types - one red in colour , anotehr blue in colour . He said that the red was " stronger " then the blue pill . After explaining to me , he asked me which colour pill I want . I told him anything ...... as long as it could me me well enough to enjoy the next day's activity . He went inside his room to get the medicine . Mr Nazri talked to me . He asked me what I was experiencing .... I was dumb struck awhile before answering - headache . He told me to look after myself , asid that my eyes looked bloodshot ... and told me to drink lots of water ...... Mr Warran came back and handed me TWO colour pills . He instructed me to take the blue one first , and if anything happen in the middle of the night , or I am still feeling sick - take the red pill . I thanked him , and left .... With Mr Nazri reminding me to drink lots of water , he will check with my roomates . I told him that everyone was asleep , they were already scared of what happened the night before . I was out in the doorway during the whole " sence " ! The guys never even invite me inside their room to warm myself ! ARGH ! I went back , warmed myself a little , and took the blue pill . After that , I wrote a note to all my roomates , asking them to wake me up in the morning ... heard that some of them are going to see the sunrise ..... I left the note on the table then I went to sleep ...........

Ate breadfast at the Metro Inn . Decided to leave eariler for no good reason , so ended up waiting for Vanessa , Mathsni , Devi ...... etc at the sofa . Mr Warren saw me and asked me how's the breadfast . Told him that it was nice . Went back to the inn . We checked out and boarded the coach for the Valley Of The Giants Tree Top Walk . Changed sit with Mr Nazri as he wanted to take photos of cows . We were basically walking on thin air expect a metal " bridge " which is not able to withstand the weight of more then 10 people at one go . Mrs Grewal helped me took a photo while I was on the metal " bridge " . It was an excellent place to take photos of nature ! There were different types of trees ...... some of them have colour contrest , other trees somehow managed to grow higher the its " peers " , while others had hollow holes or have strange things like - flowers , deaseas - like things on them . Got out of the " bridge " and went to the Valley Of The Giants Tree Top Walk's shop . Brought three small jars of honey , nougat ....... and ......... A TEDDY BEAR !!!!!!! Teddy Bear ! Brother , bear really teleported here ! I brought it at once ! I brought one yellow in colour teddy bear who had a " I survived the Tree Top Walk . Westen Australia " printed on it's body ! I went out of the shop and Mrs Grewal asked me if I am cold , told her no . She asked me if I want to go to the washroom . I handed her my purcase and went . We went to Trout Farm , Pemberton for lunch . Mrs Grewal and Mr Nazri saw me sitting all alone and invited me to join them . I regected .... Me eatting with the teachers ? Fat hope ! Mrs Grewal arranged me to sit with some of my Schoolmates inside the restrant ..... I ate ..... It was a fish burger . And the fish was not that nice provided that I dislike fishes in the first place ! I never spoke a word while eatting , to them , it would seems like I am the " outcast " , it would seems like I do not know what they were talking about ....... nevertheless I knew that they were talking BAD about me ! Something about my carema if I am not mistaken ..... I was pissed off . I went to find Mrs Grewal after forcing myself to eta finish the fish and asked her if I can go to the near by pond ..... wished to take photos . Mrs Grewal told me not go go that far . That means going to the pond was out of question ! Nevertheless , I went out to the open . To tell the truth , I actually felt like crying at that time , why some people just can't keep their mouth shut and restant from talking bad about people , talking behind people's back ( or worst , the person who was being mocked at was just sitting right in front of them ! ) ....... I really felt like cry ..... Not until ........ Vanessa saw me all alone and asked me to join them , together with Mathani , Devi , Sumanthi .... etc ... I rejected the offer . I just stood at the same place and admire the pond which I wanted to picture . WHen all the members finally finished thir lunch , we had a tour at the Trout Farm . Well , nothing much , instead , it bored me to death / tears ! We were just being enertained my trouts eatting their lunch ! We went to the Diamond Tree ....... It was very high , tall ! There were steeps for people to climb the Diamond Tree , and the earilest , shortest stop was not till 25 metres above ground ! The second stop , which was right high the top of the tree was 70 metres ! We were not allowed to climb that high ...... not even till the 25 metres stop due to the lack of time ! So , we just climbed the first few steeps of the tree , posted , take photos , the end ! Went to the Ngilgi Cave . Oh my ! Left my torch in my luggage , so ended up sharing torch with Jacky and Bao Quan while I busy taking photos ! Jacky , Bao Quan and I were the first three pupils in the front of the line , just behind the guide of the Ngilgi Cave . We were told that we could not touch the rocks , or needles inside the cave , because our hand oil will distengrate the rocks , I took my steeps carefully and I do not have my torch with me !!!!! If you were caught touching it , you will be fine ! As I was at the front , with the guide in fornt of me , and I took so much photos that the guide charged me 20 bucks ! Ha Ha ...... left the cave and Vanessa helped me took a picture of me ! We went to the Yallingup Farm for dinner . When it was my turn to get the Lamp Chop from the farmer , the farmer said that after eatting the Lamb Chop , I will grow tall ! Actually sat alone on the table , but the farmer commanded me to sit with Mathani and her friends .... Vanassa , Sumamthi , Devi , Selvi . I ate with them , they were talking , and you know what's their topic ? One of the members of the trip who had made me " cried " eariler during lunch ! Ha Ha ....... so , I am not the only one who loated them ! But , they stopped talking in English once they saw my facial expression . They continued their convasation in their Mother Tongue . Mathani was about to say something when she looked at me . I saw her stare and asked her to carry on her sentense , assured her that it's alight ....... I felt a bit left out ..... After eatting the decious Lamp Chop , we went to the Yallingup Farm's Shop . Brought a body / hand lotion made of sheep for Mother . After shopping , we went inside a room .... we do not know what is going to happen , the farmer gave some of us a bottle of milk .... then ........ Three kids came running out of nowhere ! They were running in all direction and scared me out of my wits ! Oh ! When I finally get used to what is happened ..... I wanted to post for a picture too ! Gave my camera to someone and wanted to post for a picture ..... Well , I was waiting for my turn when ........ One of the kid I was aiming for gone crazy , it dashed towards me !!!! I screamed !!!! The farmer saw / heard that and got hold me by holding me under my umpit to keep me under control until I finally got my chance to post ! I was so scared !!!!! Hm , after the " big incident " we left and headed straight to the Broadwater resort . We arrived , checked in I was to spent the night with Mathani , Sumanthi , Vanessa , Devi and Selvi . Six people to one resort ! Cool ! My roomates are cool too !!!! I really enjoy myself in this trip ! After we were given the key .... it was ....... Free time ! First , we decided who sleep on which bed ...... All of them choosed a parnter and left me all alone ! I could not be happier then that ! Since I was the only odd one out , I chosed the Master bedroom where it had a toilet ! They were asking me if I will be alright alone ..... can't be better ! I am planning to boil water inside the room , make a cup of tea , read my novel , jot down notes on today's event ...... etc .....ect . Some of them went to bath , others went out to buy tibbits ...... Sumanthi was sitting alone on the sofa wathing the " Scopian King " . I joined her .... A blessing in degius ? During the show , Sumanthi asked me about my love life out of the blue ! I was almost caught off guard ! I told her some ....... then Vanassa joined us ..... retold my story again . It was only 8 plus , none of us wanted to sleep ........ So , when all of us are back in the resort , finish bathing , we went to Kevin , Karthik and Stefan's resort . Jacky and Bao Quan shared the same resort with Kevin and Stefan too . One more thing ! Wei Wen's underwear was lying around ! Well ..... you know what is going to happen ! Yes ! Kevin and Stefan began throwing the underwear towards the girls ! Ha Ha ....... the fun died down ...... and I suggested we play " True or Dare " . It's a very famous game among the teenagers , so I do not need to elbrate that much ...... I was the second person being " caught " I chosed " True " At first , they were suggesting " What is my deepest dark secret ? " Oh my ! They are not that close to me to know the truth ........ no .... not yet ! But Kevin was mouthing it !! I nodded ....... I was buzing asking Kevin to shut up and keep quiet while I think Vanassa and others were discussing what to ask me .... heard Vanassa telling the others about my love life ..... I guess in the end I was to answer " Who is my Secondary School crush " ...... Ended up answering Kevin ........ ? I rolled the coca cola bottle , it potined towards Devi , who was just sitting right beside me ! She chosed " Dare " . We were think what " Dare " to give her when someone knocked on the door , we thought the knockers were Teachers , all those girls who shared the same resort as me ran to hide . I hid with Sumanthi inside the bathroom in the Masterbed room . She even switched off the ligths ! It was Yixin and Wen Wen ........ false alarm ! They came to ask use if anyone of us have charger . None of us had , and they left ..... There was a knock again , it was Yixin and Wen Wen again ..... this time round , they came with the news that Mr Nazri and Ms Vani were on their way to Kevin's resort ! All those girls who shared the same resort as me ran to hide . In the mist of choas , I was pushed down by one of my roomate ...... Hm , I ended up hidding with Vanassa behind the sofa ! Karthik came and told us to come out as the teachers already know that we were inside the resort ! No chioce , I followed the rest out , Vanassa being the last . She ended up being questioned by Mr Nazri . We went back , being esstorted by the two Teachers . Everyone was very scared , we switched off all the ligths expect my Masterbed Room lights . We got to show the teachers that we went to bed . Everyone crowed inside my room , we even pushed in the sofa inside ! I went to bath , then Sumanthi . While the others were planning how to get back to the resort , I was busying copying Kevin's worksheet . Sumanthi was bathing half - way when I suddenly laughted ! I was pointing towards the bathroom when I laught . Everyone turned towards my direction and begain laughting ! SHe was standing outside the bathtud , naked in fornt of the glass plane . Her figures can been seen , but it was very blur . Hm , after Sumanthi came out of the bathroom , I was the talk of the night ! I fell when trying to hide when we were inside kevie's resort , and I was the first one to notice Sumanthi's figures ! Plus , one more thing ........ everyone was far too scared to go out to the living room to make / answer call , and I was the only one brave enought to do so . We got to make calls , answer calls as we were planning when to get back Kevin's resort again . I just accompany once of the girls , standing beside them while waiting for them to talk . We crowed around inside my Masterbed room , chatting , talking . It was then Sumanthi asked a question ...... it made me felt a bit sad .... I just gave a short reply . Guess I am opening up , but not htta much ! After finishing copying Kevin's worksheet , I was the very first one to drop dead that night as I was very sleepy after the whole day , and I do not want to sleep during the bus ride , planned to read novels ! Missed out all the fun ! But I heard that Mr Narzi and Ms Vani were inside Kevin's resort till late at night , we ended up not joing to his resort . I really enjoy this day ...... and I wish that everyday will be like this !!!!!!!! I am letting my hair loose !

" Ring ....... Ring ....... Ring ....... " " Mu Jie , answer the phone ! " Oh my ........ what is this ? I woke up ...... Oh ! We are in Australia ! I leaped up and answer the phone ..... It was my Mother !!!!! After hanging up the phone , me , Devi and Selvi found out that we were late for our beardfast ! We rushed down after changing and I ate suggage , totomato and baked beans . Then , we were on our way to the Goundrey Wines . Stopped for a toilet break and I went taking photos of sheeps and trees . Arived there and we walked around . Nothing much . But got to admit that the plants were very nice and small ! Went to the jetty to board boat for whale watching . Lubch were provided on board . Chicken plus french fries ! It was thoese normal boat in Singapore . I went out to the open in order to have a good view of the whale and be able to forcus carefully on the animal . It was freezeing ! I was wearing about 3 clothes yet I was shaking inside ! The winds were holwing , the sea water were splashing , the boat was rockin up and down ! But I am not giving up ! Perserverances in the name of silbings love ! But , we really never got the chance to see the whale ! So , all I've done had gone to waste ! We headed back to the jetty after that . When I knew that , I went inside the boat . I was feeling shakey and seasick because of the bummy ride and the cold weather . Guess I was as white a sheet as Mrs Grewal asked me if I want to have any hot drinks . I accepted the offer without second thoughs . Guess I was brain freezed inside ! After drinking , I slept peacefully in a sitting position . I woke up , and changed my postion , I lied down on the courch . Mr Nazri , one of my School teacher , saw me and asked me if I am alright . Mr Warren , our tour guide , asked me the same question too . I was only lying down , nothing wrong with that , right ? Jacky saw me and offered me his jacket . I was freezing and yet Jacky said he was not cold ?!!?!? Inhuman ! Ha Ha , just kidding . But , I was really very cold , so I took the jacket and wore it . Slept ......... Slept ........... Slept ...... Woke up again and ate the food . I was famished ! The chicken tasted good even thought I do not really have the appetite . Guess everything is decious when you are hungry . Went back to the jetty and board the coach to go to the WInd Energy Farm . Mr Nazri , who was sitting a seat beside me , asked me to keep myself warm first , which mean , I was excused from doing the worksheet ! Anyway , I was in no mood to do either ! Went to the WInd Energy Farm . There was nothing much . Just the turbines . I borrowed jecket from Vice Princapal , Mrs Tham , and went down the coach to take photos . It was drizzling ...... Went went to the Torndirrup National Park to see the Gap and the Natural Bridge . Took a number of photos of the water rushing up the steep clift ! Hopefully the photos are able to capture the water sharply ! It was still raining and I felt very cold . We went to Metro Inn and ate dinner . Shared room with Devi and Selvi . Well , both girls are going to be my roomate for the trip . I am blessed as well as honoured ! Tried to call Mum that nigh when Dad answered the phone and told me that neither Mum nor Bother was home . I then found out that I had forgotten something ! Mum told me in the moring when she called that she would be going to Malaysia or some island with her friends . Oh my ! I had been enjoying myself so much that I had forgotten all about it !

School dragged on as usual ..... wonder how many missing souls my School have today as everyone are now in the holiday mood ........ What's more , some of us are going oversea to Westen Australia this afterenoon , evining .... no one is in the mood for study ! I was so much into holiday mood that I brought my Handphone to School again ..... all because I want to message my Brother ......... He could no send me off this afternoon as he still got lessons ! Mr Goh wants us to stay back after School awhile so that he could return us our report slip ...... Flunked every subject expect Physics , English and Chinese ! Oh my ! I messaged my Brother about that ........... I really need him .............. Oh Brother , if only you could make it to the airport ........ Went back home , changed and left for the airport with Mother and Father ..... Meet my Godmother and her friend , Cousion and her child ...... We went to have some snacks - eggtart before I report to my Teacher ..... I was messaging to my Dear Brother during the whole durintion .............. Brother !!!!!!!!!! I want to see you at the airport !!!!!!!!! We had our lauggage checked and put into the plane and then we were to leave our loves one already ...... As there were no more checking of bags and the plane would not be taking off until about half and hour later ....... We were allowed to walk around and report later . I went to the place which we were supposed to report and sat down to read my storybook ...... Hm ..... planned to read books during the trip .... Yeah ! Okay ........ I am a bookworm ! Mathani , Devi and Selvi passed by me and asked me to join them together with Vanessa , Sumanthi , Shahira ...... They were at the cafe , and there was internet access there ! I left a tag at both mine and Brother's blog .... After that , I typed an e-mail to my Brother . But the mail was not sended as the internet connection was only 10 to 15 minutes and you will be disconnected , you got to connect again ! Oh .... curse the internet accese !!! I did not know that I got disconnected and I pressed " Send " ...... When I get back to the Hotmail page , all the words which I've typed were gone ! I was so so so sad ! I do not have enought time to re-type the mail again ....... and whatever I've retyped would never be the same as what I had typed the first time round ! ARGH ! Finally , the moment came and we boarded the plane ....... Sat beside Zhi Hui .... After the plane take off at about 6pm plus , Jacky , who was sitting near me , asked me if I am alright ... as my face was written clearly " I feel like vomiting " .... I told him I was fine . Watched the Standford Wives durning the journey . There were two type of dinner available on the plane - Thai style green curry of chicken with seasonal vegetables and streamed rice ..... Or Panfriend fish in tomato basil sauce with roasted vegetables and potato ...... I chosed to eat fish ! Something which I dislike ! Well , I got no choice as I do not like another dish because I do not like hot things ! But the dinner was nice ! Really enjoyed it ! Really ! I felt sick when the plane was landing .... But was quite okay when I finally step down on the floor of Perth Airport at about 11 plus ....... After all those checking and claming of lauggage , I finally step out of the airport . It was so cold ! The winds were blowing ! I was very very very cold there ! But lucky , I just dump my lauggage by the coach and then the bus driver , Mr John , would help us by putting our lauggage inside the coach , and I could seek warmth inside the coach ! We dropped off by the Goodearth Hotel , it was freezing ! We had to walk some distance in order to get inside the Hotel ..... and guess was I saw on the way ? A TEDDY BEAR SHOP !!!!!!! I missed my Brother !!!! Oh Brother ...... Bear really teleported here ! Even eariler then me ! We checked in at the Goodearth Hotel , and went into our room ..... I would be sleeping with Devi and Selvi ... We were taking our clothes from our lauggage to bath when someone knocked on the door ...... Devi and Selvi were scard ..... while I shouted " Whose that ? " Someone answered " It's me " One of us went opening the door and Vanessa , Mathani and Sumanthi were standing outside our room ! They came and invited us to their rooms .... Their room was on the same floor as ours . Went to their room and explored awhile then went back to our rooms .... Devi and Selvi bathed and it was my turn ..... I went in and bath ....... wow ! The water was wonderful ! It was so warm ! Vanessa , Mathani and Sumanthi dropped by again when I was bathing ....... and asked Devi and Selvi if they want to buy some chips ...... I was bathing inside the bathroom and they asked me if I want any thing ..... I answered no ..... They asked me if I can stay alone inside the room ...... Fine ! Of couse it's fine ! The bathroom was so ..... big wonderful ? And the water gave me warmth ! But the floor was very cold ! They came back after some time ..... I went out to the balcony and tried out my camera ..... took some photos of the sky ..... Brother always like to take senery ....... Now ! I would be taking his place ....... and I had even swear in the name of Bear that I would take better photos then him ! I came back to the room and boiled some water for making a cup of tea and to refill my water botter ...... Slept on the foldable bed that night ...... it was wonderful ! I felt quite sure that my trip to Perth was NOT a wrong choice , instead it's a right choice ! We hardly began the real tour yet I am feeling so happy and wonderful ! To tell the truth ....... Part of me donot want to come to this trip as I know that I would not have any friends ...... Ai Hui would not be going ...... But nevertheless , I signed up for this trip all because my Brother have came to Perth before , same place , same tour group when he was in Secondary One , or Two ! I wished to expericence the same type of fun and excitment which he had enjoyed before ! And I know I would ( even thought I felt sick in the later part of the trip , read the next few posts to find out what happened ) ! TRUST ME ! I know myself better then anyone else !

The day never stared well ! Early in the Moring , I went to find Miss Ang . I told her that I could not attend Chinese Dance this afternoon as I have Denal Appointment . She was not that please ..... I am the Chinese Dance leader yet I never attend the practise , what a role model I am ! Mr Goh scolded me during the moring flag raising . He asked me " Why everytime no badge ? " I do not have my School Badge with me ! Do you , Mr Goh expect me to do magic tricks or something ? What's with all these School Badge stuff ! Mr Goh said that the next time I do not have my School Badge on , I would be sended to Detention Class ! Fine ! I'll make sure that you would not have the chance to ! There was a brefing for the Australia Trip in the afternoon . I was eating with Ai Hui , Mei Qi and Hui Min ..... Lydia came while I was eating and she asked me if I would be going for practise this afternoon . I replied no , and she asked why . I was fed up ! I think I shouted something like " Who do you think you are ? Do I have to report everything to you ? " And we both fight . Lydia left soon . Hey ! She was long ago not a Chinese Dance member ! She quitted on 15/08/2004 ( refer to the day's post ) ! I am now the Leader ! The rightful leader ! And yet she's there bosting around , pushing her weight around ! Even I , the mian leader also never like that ask juniors ! If they said they would not be going due to something , I would not question futher , instead , I would ask my juniors if they had told Miss Ang , since she's the Teacher's In Charge ! Hey ! I already went to find Miss Ang for a good scolding this moring ! What now ?!

Argh ! So many messages ! Firstly was my cousion , she would like to send me off this Friday ..... I would be going to Australia ! Then Kai Xin ....... I went out to eat with my mother as I have Church things on later ...... Brother messaged to apologize to me as he stayed over night at his friend , Jansen , house last nigh ! Brother even asked me how was the performances yesterday ( refer to the post on 31/8/2004 ) Then Yisin nd Viven messaged me also ...... haha ....