I do not know .......
I felt so lost .....
Cheated ........
Haiz ....... God ..... Please !!!!!
Stop fooling with me ....
You made me feel your presence yesterday , and yet , hardly a day had gone , you left already ......
I felt like a loser ..... lost in the game of eduaction .....
Haiz .....
Went to school , Ai Hui passed me my books which she had brought , together with our English Teacher and some of our classmates .....
It's a joke !
Secondary 2 book !!!!
I felt mocked .....
Well , okay , at least I felt much better , knowing some of our classmates also brought different books but also Secondary 2 .
First period was Chinese . We went to the computer lab .
Computer lab . What comes to your mind ?
Computer - Internet - MSN Messanger !
I wanted to sign in . Everyones knows that I am a MSN Messanger freak !
I switched on THREE computers . None of them have the MSN Mesanger installed .
I was really down on luck . And when I found out that Ai Hui's computer had MSN Messanger , I offered her to change computer with her .
SHE REFUSED !!!!
She told me to go and find other computers .
Fine then ! I am used to her being selfish . She's always like that . Never give a thought to other people , never think how others feels .
Fine ! Managed to find a computer with MSN Messanger on my fourth try .
Went back to class .
No teacher . I read my novel .
Recess , carried on reading .
Managed to read finish the whole novel even before the start of English period !
Read my novel till almost the end of the day , when our English teacher came . I do my English holiday assignment .
Vanassa was forced by our English Teacher to sit on the desk beside me .
I was doing my English holiday assignment , when Vanassa asked me what I was doing .
I lent her my assianment and she helped me to edit .
And she commented that " It was good " .
Ha Ha .....
Was dismissed and I went to eat with my junior , Yvoone .
Went to the folyer , planned to carry on doing the English holiday assignment , does not have the time to edit my mistakes yet .
But ended up looking for Mr Goh asking him Math Ten Years Series .
The homework was setted by him .
He taught me the sums .....
Then !!!!!
I do not know what he said ....
He wanted me to ask Mr Khor , my Physics teacher , if I passed Physics ....
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I ONLY PASSED ENGLISH AND CHINESE !!!!!!!
I failed other subjects ........ Physics seemed the most likly subject I could pass ......
If I really fail Physics ...... then
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Mr Goh still asked me if I still really want to go Junior Collage .......
I do not know how to answer ......
All my dreams ........... CRASHED !!!!!!!!
I do not know even know if I can get promoted .... if I can pass Secondary 4 .......
I do not know if even ITE have a place for me or not !!!!
He's only making matter worst !!!!
I guess ....... I think ........ I heard Mr Goh asking me why I looked so stress before exams .....
I just answer him with a smile .....
Okay , so he had noticed that I was stressed .
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING VERY HARD ...... VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY HARD TO PASS THE EXAMS !!!!!! aND WHAT DO I GET IN RETURE FOR MY HARD WORK ???? NOTHING ! NILL !!! NOT EVEN A CONSOLATION !!!!! WHAT I GOT WAS TEARS , AND MORE TEARS !!!!!!!
How ?
Went home with Yvoone ...... It begain to rain once I reached my block ..... No .... it pour ..... It never rain but pour .
Even the angels in Heaven were crying for me ...
Ever since I begain my jounary of Secondary 3 this years .............. I begain to found out that every time it POURS ..... I am facing a difficult situation . Just like today .... The angels in Heaven cried for me .....
Went home and bath ......
I felt like crying ....... I could cry anytime !!!!!
I was about to come out of the bathroom after bathing , thinking about the convasation I had with Mr Goh ..... Okay , to tell the truth , I was actually " cursing " Mr Goh ..... angry with him for making me so down ..... and then .......
I almost slipped !!!
What is this ?
I never slip while bathing before !
NEVER BEFORE !!!!!
And yet ..... it was expectional !!!!!!
Why ? What's wrong ?
I've done nothing wrong !!!!
God , is this some sort of revenge ????
After coming out of the bathroom , I switched on the computer .
While waiting for it to load into the Windows .....
I went into my room .......
Took the pink , old penknife on my table .......
And begain cutting my wrist ......
I guess , I've overdone it .... there were blood ......
Oh my ! WHat am I doing ?
Cutting my wrist , hurting myself ????
ARGH ! I lost control of myself !
Blood were Physical ........ but tears , from my heart , were mental , emotional !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
THERE WERE BLOOD , BUT TEARS OVERULED !
Went to use the computer ..... just my luck !
It's not in working order ! It hanged !!!!!
Oh my !!!!!
I do not know .......
I do not care .......
I want the " goods " for the price I've paid !
I chatted with Vanassa when my computer was finally in working order . She comforted me , she made me felt so bad ........ but I felt like crying whenever I saw the scars on my hand .
Oh my ! What am I doing ? Ai Hui , you were right . Ai Hui , still remember that time when I showed you the penknife marks on my hand ? Well , it was not because of this matter , it was last time , months ago ..... when some other tings happened .
Ai Hui ..... when you saw the scars on my hand , you asked me a very simple question ..... How will I feel when I saw the scars ?
Well , here's the answer !
I felt bad ! I felt like crying .......... Oh my .......
Vanassa , lucky you were online ..... chatted with me .....
That night , before I vwent to sleep ...... Brother surprised me .
He gave me a Hello Kitty Handphone Accessories . He brought it from the MacDonal's for my NEXT YEAR birthday !
On the cardboard , it was printed .......
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Rose Quartz Kitty Means Happiness .
Happiness ... Brother , happiness ..... so much for my happiness ......
Thanks Brother !
Your timming could not be any better !
Thanks vanassa !
Even Ai Hui does not care about me anymore ........
For once ........
I felt happy .......
Thanks Brother and Vanassa ..... again !