Oh my ...... Everything just happened like this .... without a pause for me to adapt to the sudden changes .... it just came to past when my day ended ....
I went to the restroom during Geography period . The class was given some assignment to do but I was far to tired to complete it , plus it's only a few more minute before the next period .
I went in and switched on my Handphone , and began typing a message to Kai Xin . I asked her not to come for tuition today . I went back class after that .
During Math lesson today , there was a announcement made by Ms Lee , " Can everyone gather in the parade ground now . Do not walk by the foyer . "
After tha announcement , Mr Koh still carried o teaching . But we were dismissed soon .
We went to the parade ground . The sun was buring , and the teachers don't want us to get heatstroke , thus they ordered us to sit under the shade .
We did . I sat with Ai Hui , Zhi Hui , Jacky , Winston , Yi Yang , Bao Quan ....
We were bored . Ai Hui , Jacky and Yi Yang began asking riddles and letting others answer .
I arn't good with riddles , so I jsut sat there , listening to them , mainwhile , helping Ms Ong to look after her white colour tray . She was teaching 4E6 Math before she came down .
Well , I really enjoyed the time together with the gang . But we were soon dismissed for recess .
Ai Hui and I wanted to go to the garden , but we were stopped by Mr Khor .
Physics Test was cancled since Phycics Period was over , due to the sudden announcement .
God's by my side ! God is with me ! God is helping me !
Amen !!!
We talked a little ..... and I found out something I don't with to know .......
I've failed my Physics Paper 1 ..... 18 / 30 ?
Ai Hui and I walked pass the foyer , using the corridoor of those Scicnce Labs .
Wow .....
The tiles were overturned . Forced out of their space by some unknown force . Two horizonal lines intersecting at the very middle of the foyer .
One of the line was borned right infront of the Scince Lad , ending at the front ( or maybe inside ) the General Office .
Another line was from the staricase to the end of the foyer .
So , I guess you can somehow .... think how dreadful the accident would be if it's during recess time or dismissal .
What actually happened ? What lead to such a huge explosion ?
No one knows ..... at least for now .
Ai Hui and I managed to reach the garden unharm ... we sat at our usual place ....
Ai Hui promised that we would talk about MY future ....... but she seems engrossed with the bomb , so I decided to drop the topice , at least for now .
Most of us went to Nang Yang Poly after School . For some unknown reason , I prefer Ngee Ang Poly . Maybe it's because of Feelings ?
Neverytheless , Poly or Junior Collage . I've settled with my CCA . It will be Cheerleading !
I'm not going to be like my Brother .
I won't follow his footsteep ...
He was so commited with Photographic Society that he quitted Cheerleading .
I went home with Ai Hui . On my way , I messaged Ms Ong , asking if she had marked our Chemistry Paper .
She replied me , " No , marked the first page only . "
The I decided it might be the best time for me to say out my wish , " I don't want to take Combine Science . "
By the time I reply her , I was already half way through my dinner .
Ms Ong called my Handphone .
Ms Ong asked me why I don't want to drop the subject . I just said , " Family . "
Ms Ong claimed that she wants me to take Combine Science , and not only that . She wants to see me taking A1 or an A2 for that subject .
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Arn't Ms Ong very similar to Mr Goh ? Mr GOh wants to see me getting an A1 for Emath , and now MS Ong wants to make sure I'll get an A1 for Science .....
I don't know ......
Have the overestimated me ?
Or am I the one underestimating myself ?
I don't know .....
But there's 1 thing I'm very sure .....
That is .......
No matter what , I won't ever let both of them down again !
Ms Ong ended her phone convasation with me by saying , " Family there , Mr Khor and I will settle . Okay ? I just reached home . Got to go and have my dinner now . My Mum is calling . "
Haiz ..... I'll leave that aside for the time being ......
Soon after , Kai Xin knocked on the door .
What the ?????
I thought I've told her that I don't want tuition today ?????
I opened the door and said , " I just reached home . "
Well , lucky , the very first thing I did when I reached home was - use the internet .
I was still in my School PE attire !
Kai Xin said , " Oh , I've just came to talk only . "
Kai Xin , Mum and I talked a little . Kai Xin asked Mum where she wants me to go to .
Mum answered after much though , " If she have the ability , then I would want her to go to Junior Collage . But if she can't , I won't mind her going in to Poly . "
Well , Mum , you don't have to parse until like that .
You don't have to torture yourself like that !
You don't have to think twice before breaking my heart the zillion times , as if you have not hurted me enough with your words !
I was forced to bathe by Mum and Kai Xin .
I cleaned myself with recorded speed and began to eavesdrop them .
Something inside me told me that things are bad ..... very bad . I'm in for a big big trouble . I'm in a hot soup ..... I'm dead !
I listened .
" Mujie always meet with her boyfriends in the block deck before going to the tuition . " Mum said .
Hello ?! It must be what the B***H told Mum months before ! It had been months , Mum !
Bother ladies exchanged Handphone numbers .....
Then I heard Mum saying , " It's she herself who don't want to go . "
To church , you mean , Mum ?
I always though that you would be happier if I put my education in the fist place , seems that I'm wrong . Fine then , I'll put education in the LAST place from now on !
" She even read novels during exam period . "
Well , now , Mum . What I read was LITERATURE NOVEL !!!! Not any novels you find inside the Library .
Literature Paper was a few days away ! You ask me NOT to read the Novel ?
Oh , well , fine . Anyway , I'm aiming to put education in the last place .
After that , " She wants to go into the Media Course . " Mum told Kai Xin .
Kai Xin stood up for me by saying , " But it's her interest ! "
Ah , well .... Well , well , well . Thanks a branch !!!!
But nothing can be compared when Kai Xin told Mum " Mu Jie has an online diary . I went in there a number of times before . She sounded quite sad . "
And you know what's Mum's respond ?
" Mum Jie read a lot of trashing novels . She'll think that she's the main lead and ... etc .... etc ..... very pityful . Being abused by people ... etc .... etc ... "
Now , now , now . I have to make a stand !
Everything I wrote are true !
And there's other things which happened today . So I'll talk more about that for tomorrow's entry .
All the while , I was standing by the door of the Materbedroom ..... shivering ....
Was it becasue of the water droplets evaporating , finilly got back the freedom the have ? Those energetic water particles broke free from other particles due to vabration ?
Or was it because I'm guilty conscience ? The anger inside me , fighting it's way out so that the have air to breath ?
I went out of the Masterbedroom , where I was bathing inside .
" Mu Jie , you stop there . Why you nver go Church and never tell me ? " Mum demanded .
" When ? I though you knew about it ? Got once I was dismissed at 12 pm plus , I cam back to eat , by that time I was alread late ! And Brother was suppose to go with me on that week ! "
" Okay , then why you didn't tell me you've cancled the tuition ? " Mum asked again .
" I always tell you when I HAVE tuition ! Plus I have so many tests ! I don't study just 1 subject only ! "
" You have som many days to study ! "
Now , I've gave up !
No point . I left them .... with my eyes wet .
I went to the computer tabel and demanded my Brother to give up the Computer seat and let me use the Computer .
He did , after I threatened to invaded his privacy as I got hold of his Handphone .
I could easily unlock the keypads and scroll down to " Messages " and click " Select " unter the subtitle of " Inbox . "
I used the Computer , but I could still hear Mum and Kai Xin's converstation !
MUm said something like ..... " Both grew up together , but I don't know why she's like that . "
Oh yar !
Right !
Brother and I grew up together ..... but have you been showing us with the same type of love or respect ?
You know the answer yourself !
Kai Xin left ...... I went offline and do my work . But I could not concentre . I was checking my Handphone half the time !
Am I expecting that it would explode like my School foyer today ?
Well , it vibrated and I leaped up . Unlock the keypad as fast as I could and began to read the message .
James - If can , please call me . Thank you .
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I dailed his number on my Handphone .
James apologised to me .... and he asked about Brother .
I handed the Phone to Brother and I heard Brother saying something like ..... " If she felt the affinity towards God ..... etc .... etc ..... "
Brother handed me back my Handphone and James asked me to call him using my Home Phone . He scared that my Handphone bill would explode , even though I'm not the one paying the bills .
So , we talked ..... for about half an hour ?
Finally , he got down to business , " So , what is bothering you ? There's something bothering you . And I am very worry for you . "
" HUH ??? "
" Come on , share with me . "
And I did .
Words that passed between could only be found inside me , inside my mind . I won't type it out .....
I thought that it would do me some good if I hurt myself again after hearing Mum's conversation with Kai Xin .
But 2 things which prevented me from doing so ......
My promise to Mr Goh and Ms Ong ......
And the Phone call with James . He just know how to make me laugh instead of crying .
Crying ....... Oh yes . I have a good mind to cry out everything at night . strangely , everything's in place now .
There's no need for me to feel sad or what so ever .