All my love is for you and I will never let you go .

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on Tuesday 30 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Fun .

This is the day ... The guys came and picked me up , waited for me to end my stuffs first . Headed down . Gamed , drank . Went home . It was fun ... Just that .... I don't like the smell . For once ... How I wish that I am having my attachment now . So that I'll have my holiday tomorrow . Too bad . So sad .

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on Monday 29 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Hold me ,

Oh yeah ... I went shopping , again . Ha ha . Can someone holds my hand and never let me go ... ?? If not , I'll be shopping again . I am looking forward to the day when you would hold my hand once more . I miss you .

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on Saturday 27 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Tired .

Tired . Went for dance with her . He he ... The dance was totally sexy ! Remember to send me the song !! We went to the sauna ... Wow ! Had our dinner at Pizza Hut .... Got to be at the waiting list .... Well ... it's alright ... She was there to accompany me . Ha ha . The food was ... YUMMY ! It had been quite some time since I ate there ... Maybe ?? Shopped ... We spent hundred plus at our favourite shop . Ha ha ... We became the member there . Went home after that ... Oh ... Tired ... Tomorrow . Don't be sad , my love . Just like what you said ... you still have me ... Always and forever . Don't tired yourself out . I'll buy it for you , okay ?? As long as you are happy ... Smile . Because ... unknowingly ... I've fallen for your smile . Inadvertently , I've fallen for you . I love you .

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on Friday 26 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Shopping .

What a day ! My bus got caught in the heavy rain ... I was so late ! Ended ... Headed down to Bugis to buy some nursing books and stationary ... Went down to buy some ice cream before going home . I believe that my family members would love it . Yeah ... Was a bit disappointed when I received your message ... I was so looking forward to it ! It's okay ... There's always another time , correct ? Or maybe ... When you come back ? That's when our schedules are not that packed . Maucks . I love you . Counting down ....

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on Wednesday 24 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Day .

Went for the refresher course ... I'm losing my skills . Departed for the dance ... I can't believe that she wanted to join that ! Headed to IMM ... some guy from the customer service tried striking a conversation with me after helping me to add in some stuff into my plan . Ha ha ... he kept on making my laugh ... Bumped into my colleague and I saw his cute son !!! I went and talked with his son . Ha ha ... That customer service guy called me twice . I canceled his first call as I was chatting with my colleague's son ... He called again . Ha ha . Went shopping ( the customer service guy even offered to accompany me to shop ) ... I searched high and low ... I simply can't find anything for her Birthday . Went to the jewellery shop to help Mum to collect some stuff . Met up with Mum for dinner . Waited for her and we headed home together ... What a day . You called ... Told me about the bad new for this Friday .... Oh well ... You were tired .. Sweet dreams .... Of you and me .

Maucks . I love you . You were so nice ... It only makes me fall in love with you more than ever . How I wish that my everyday is as wonderful as today ... With you beside me ... Holding my hand .... Hugging me . Giving me such a lovely good bye kiss without any hint of hesitation . I want my cute cute bear hand phone strap ! I want the $100 stay ! There is only one thing on my mind ... When this day is through ... I hope that I will find ... That tomorrow will be the same , with you by my side . Maucks . I love you . BEGER !

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on Monday 22 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Novels .

Was so engrossed in my novels ... It was so touching ... I even managed to read finish it in one day . Lent one of my novel to my colleague . Hope she enjoys reading it as much as I did .

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on Saturday 20 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Up to it ?

So ... here I am , having my holidays . I know that I should be busy revising all about electrocardiographs and those operating instruments , hand scrubbing ... etc ... Oh my ... I always wonder ... am I up to it ??

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on Friday 19 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Bye .

The afternoon staff nurse was from a different team . We brought butter cookies for the staff . Ha ha ... We took such a long time saying good bye to our patients . Only left my contact with one of the really nice staff . We were planning to go back 3 years later when we got all the experience we need .

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on Thursday 18 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Miss .

I realized that today will be the last day working with the usual staff nurses . Gonna miss them lots . Oh dear .... 1 more day . ... Presented my case study . Did it last minute and was caught by the lecturer . Nothing much ... Counting down my days . Numbered days . Will it be like my last attachment ?

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on Wednesday 17 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Case study .

... Presented my case study . Did it last minute and was caught by the lecturer . Nothing much ... Counting down my days . Numbered days . Will it be like my last attachment ?

A very bad start . Not only I don't know the drugs I was serving ... I even gave the wrong drugs !!! So when the staff nurse came and educate me when I was doing feeding , I chocked up the whole tube right in front of him . You know .... the feeling of wanting to be respected , and yet I did the wrong thing right in front of the person . It felt so ... Terrible . Oh my ... How bad can my day be ?! Seeing ... hearing ... feeling ... the patent's shouts and screams as they did the procedure on him ... I felt so bad . Guilty . I've learnt something ... tubes and medications don't go well together .

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on Monday 15 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Week .

Yeah ! It's the last week of my attachment ! I truly enyoyed myself . Most importantly , I learnt a lot . I'm going to miss everyone ... Working with the staff nurses as their juniors was very fun .

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on Saturday 13 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Graduating

Hm ... He's my patient and I failed my duty as his nurse . Oh no ! Stress ... Next year ... Time flies so fast , I will be graduating . What to do ? Am I up to it ??

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on Friday 12 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Failed .

I realized that noting hurts most than the staff nurse replied me , " oh , he had already taken . " I failed my duty . Oh my ....

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on Friday 5 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Story .

I chatted with him .... He told me his story ... I see ... Understood . Went down to the driving centre again . This time ... I only have an average of $20.00 cash , nets and cash card . I had to wait for my Q number ... It's a Friday . Crowded ! Finally ... my turn came . They rejected my payment ... I had to wait .... and wait ... and wait . They ducted $25.00 from my cash card and took $25.00 from me . By the time I left ... Everyone was gone . Rushed down ... Money ... It's never enough .

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on Thursday 4 September 2008 .
Title of my post : HSE driving licence .

Had my " Health Service for the Elderly " posting today . My posting was near my home ... thank God ! I was able to wake up later . Met this guy ... His story was different from us . Everyone was interested to know what happened ... But I was the only one who chatted with him . I am so mad ! I forgot to bring my " cards wallet " today and I felt so ... handicapped . So disabled , so restrained . I rushed down to the Driving Centre to make my licence . Brother gave me $50.00 .... my only source of money . I need to take passport size photo , which cost $6.00 ... Applying of driving licence needs $50.00 . Therefore , I asked the person if I'm able to pay using 2 cash card . Yes . I took a Q number and went to take photo . I returned back and sat down .... It was then I realized that I missed my number ! I took another number and waited , again . It was my turn .... I don't have my Identification Card with me ... Rejected ! I got to come back again tomorrow !!! Argh !!! I only started going home at 10.00pm ... Tired . You kisses energized me . That's all I need - you .

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on Wednesday 3 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Alright .

I have some time to relax . Went down , again . Had cup noodles for dinner and chatted with some guy . It was pretty alright today ...

Oh well ... What to do . My day starts at 5am and it ends at 11.30pm . It was so packed ! Never mind . At least I enjoyed the later part of my day ... The part where my attachment ends and I head down to Toa Payoh . However , the journey back home takes hours !!! I have to prepare and sleep immediately ... Tired . I love you , thank you for waiting .

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on Monday 1 September 2008 .
Title of my post : Attachment .

Okay ... I can see that it's going to be a very long 3 - weeks ... Time passes slowly over here ... It drags ... Oh my ... And I felt so lost . I'm not sure what to do , what am I suppose to do . Went back to School to photocopy some novels before heading home after my attachment . Bumped into Brother and we ordered my favourite Ee Mian ! Mum came home from her short overseas retreat . Yeah !!! She managed to get the crocs for my operation theatre posting . She brought for me a wallet too ! I was tired ... Love you .