There was PE today and our P.E teacher was not around . I just hung around with Ai Hui , Mei Qi and Hui Min . Sigh , I felt lonely ..... I mean , I was physically around , but mentally ?! I doubt so .
I went up to the class and got down some books . When I returnted , I realized that Ai Hui , Mei Qi , Hui Min , Zhi Hui ... etc ... were going up to class . I joined them .
I messaged to Ms Ong at night and told her that I would not be around tomorrow as I have performances . Hm , since she was quite alright during self study today and that she did replied to my messages , I dared myself to ask her what Ai Hui's personal problems were .... And I did .
Mum asked me for the HOD of Math and my Prinpal's name . I refused to tell her because I know that she's up to no good . Mum told me that Cousin Hui Ying wants me to message her . Sigh , I'm forced to !
So , in the middle of the night , I did . My God . You know what her messages were ? You know what she told me ?
" Can your attitude change when talking to your mum ? Do you want to regret when she's not atound ? If you talk to her properly , you would have known the reason . "
Please , it's none of your business ! I never see the reason why you have to become part of my own Liew's family's problem ! Who do you think you are ?! Talking to me in such a tone ! My family business is none of your business ! Why would I want to know the reason when I knew deep down inside me that you'll be up to no good ?
" She has the right since she's your Mum and you are immature in your thinking . It's for your own good . Just like in office , your boss can shout at us but we can't do that . "
Okay , whatever . She has the right , but you don't ! Please , just who do you think you are , saying me immature in my thinking ! So what if you are SO mature ?! And who says that I'm immature in my thinking ?!
I've made my own dicission , why do you have to become part of my disicssion ? As if I have not suffer enough making that dicission ! As if I have not cry enough during that period of my life !
" You have to make sure you are on the right path . Remember you are responsible for your own action and don't drage your family down . A mistake you make can casue your Brother his future . "
Okay , yar right ! Brother Brother and Brother again ! I'm always on the right path . Who says I'm not !? Well , so what if I became lousier ? Does it concern you ?! Yar right ! Of couse I am responsible for my own actions , who cares about you ?! So what if dropping Amath arn't an ideal action ? So what !?
Does that means that I have no more future ? And only my Dear Old Brother have a very bright future , so bright that I'll go blind looking at it ? Who says that I am draging my family down ? Am I ? Well , only in your eyes !
" It's just a reminder to you . Bear that in mind cause you are easily influenced by others . Others may frame you without you knowing . Just do your best in studies so that you won't regret later . "
Reminder ? Oh well , thanks a bunch then ! Hm , influenced by others ? If you are talking about that phone conversation when I finally agreed to retake Amath and changed my mind the next day , let me tell you the turth . I agreed just to please you and so that I can hang up the phone and not have any more buzzing around my ears and so I can have a pleasent and peaceful night !
Hm , frame me ? Well , why would others frame me when they won't get any advantage ? Well , people are smarter then that , okay ! Futhermore , I'm quite a sly person . I don't want to say anything means I won't say anything , well , maybe over my dead body ? Why would others frame me when they wound get nothing in return ? As if I have a zillion of money waiting for them to snatch !
Futhermore , I never once regreted dropping all my subjects ! At least , I don't have that much stress ! So why are you rubbing salt and making the past alive ?
I always look up to Cousin Hui Ying as some sort of nice person yet I'm so wrong . Hm , in her eyes , teenagers who smoke , who retained and those who went normal stream are bad people , they are gangsters . You can't be friend with them as you would end up being like them !
People who went inside the jail before are known as bad guys who are not able to turn oven a new leaf ! They can't be trusted and she looked at them with " colour " eyes .
Hm , now , then I really know what type of person she is ..... I was so wrong .....
Nobody is looking down at me , instead , they have high hopes for me , getting A1 and A2 for my upcoming GCE O level ! Only Cousin Hui Ying is looking down at me .......... plus ..... Mum . I'm so fortunate to have Jun Zhan beside me all along those hard times of life !
Brother , thanks for encouraging me all the while !
Libra September 23 - October 22
You're always so generous to your friends and family . Don't you deserve a little selfish indulgence ? Enjoy a happy , not-so-selfless day . And keep an open mind -- some big changes are coming up soon .
Hehe , I'm allowed to me selfish ! Hm , no doubt , some BIG changes are happening .... But how to keep an open mind to it ?