Went to CHC at 11.30am … I felt so lonely !!! Only Kai Xin was around … others … I don’t know who are they … Li Hui not around …. Asked Kai Xin about Geography … then went for service . Some of us sat on those extra chairs , others sat in front … I have my Geography books with me … but there wasn’t any space for me to put … passed to Liang Wei … Service was fun … Pst Kong wasn’t around … but there was a video record on Friday , telling us about the changes , then an overseas pastor taught us how to dance , another pastor preach about relationship … Asked Liang Wei for my books , he said he would help me to carry … he returned to me when we were at level 1 . Amelia accompany me to wait for bus , then Liang Wei and another Brother … Billy or Bill appeared … Billy / Bill saw me and waved to me … I almost don’t recognize him . Vivian appeared … apologized to her as I went offline when talking to her via MSN . Felinda and others appeared , and I was using my books to “ beat” her when Liang Wei appeared and offered to help . I rejecter his help . My bus came I and went home . There was night market … I brought some food for Brother … but I found out that he was eating some other stuffs and thus , he don’t want to eat the food I just brought . Slept , then dinner time . There was roasted duck …. Brother helped me to take the long beans and fish and chips …. Stayed up till 1am to study … and played with Brother .

Mum went out ... Brother and I watched " My date with a Vampire 2 " . We watched from early afternoon till 6pm plus . Mum came home and dinner was expected soon . Actually , Brother and I were sleeping when Mum reached home , too tired from watching VCDs . Decided to sleep after dinner . But Mum wanted to watch " My date with a Vampire . " I watched with her . Well , I missed the last esposide of " My date with a Vampire , " Brother watched it when I went to Church ... thus , I watched it with Mum ... After watching , I did some Physics and Maths ... I tried to sleep , but I can't . It wasd 11 pm or 12 am when I lie on my bed , but 1 am plus , and sleep still can't find me . I thought about a lot of things ... Suddenly ... I know how I'm feeling about all these new Cell Group Members ... I don't know ... Anyway , I also recalled the time at East Coast Park with Sok Ee , Mandy , Hui Min , Boon Ya and Lydia . Splashing water at Sok Ee , skating inbetween Mandy's and Hui Min's bike ... Haha .... Would I have such memorable time with this new Cell Group Members ???? Wondering .... Pondering .... But in vain . I don't have any answer .

Mum came home at 7.10pm ... and have my dinner ready . Got to rush as I have Kai Xin's tuition at 7.30pm . Mum started nagging at me when Kai Xin arrived at 7.25pm . I finished the vegetables , meat and egg , left a few spoonful of rice . Told Mum that I don't want to eat anymore , she started scolding again ... She said that " only a spoonful of rice also cannot finish ? " Kai Xin surly hear that ..... Went for tuition ... Kai Xin never say anything , thank God . Brother came home and Mum scolded him . Finally Kai Xin asked , " your Mum not happy today ar ? " " Yup ... "

Brohter went out . Mum contect me and I contected Brother . Settled . Meet Brother 7pm at City Hall . However , it was already 6pm when Brother told me that . I actually decided to go McDonald's and eat , using my Ez-link .. I never bring any bag , no money , nothing . Since I was in a rush , I decided to give my Dinner a miss .... Went up to the Jurong East Station and decided to order take away from McDonald's instead . Thus , U-turn . Went for the " Beyond the drum solo " ... hm , thurn out that Brother brought the Fish Dippers while I brought the Mcnuggets . Feeling hungry after the concert , Brother and I decided to go and buy something from 7-11 ... Brother was talking on the phone when we were inside the 7-11 . We brought the combo which includes a buger , a cup of drink and mash potato . Hm , we then realized that the buger needs heating , thus , we ended up eating the mash potato and drinking .

Mum already told Brother that she don't allow Jansen to come to our house ... However , Brother woke me up in the morning and informed me that he's going to fetch Jansen ... When Brother sent Jansen back , Brother said that he would buy lunch for both of us . Well , Brother buying lunch - first time during the " holiday " . Went with Mum to the Hawker Centre to eat .

Actually planned to stay at home the whole day . However , I need some stationary . I called Mum and asked for permission . She allowed , thus , I went to Jurong East Popular , POSB and OCBC bank .

Went for Service ... After that , went to eat Curry Chicken ... We went to the basketball court ... then went to another basketball court ( there's 2 different basket ball courts ) . Hm , I was so lonely ! I miss Yi Sin ! Still remembered t hat time street sccer match , I was with her till 8pm ... Hm , Billy ( or Bill ? ) was around , wearing a red jersey . Haiz , I miss Yi Sin ... can I say that I hate this Cell Group ? There's so many new people , and then ... haiz . I don't know . Went to the bus stop myself !!! Hello , it was around 7pm plus ? And they expected me , a young innocent girl of 16 to walk in the dark to the bus stop ?! Hm , I saw Kelivin on my way , but he never notice me , maybe he forgot all about me already ? Haha ...

We were at the McDonald's carpark ... I board the car , Mr Lim was inside his car , beside mine .... saw James at the window waving bye ... I was with my Cell Group Members ... then I shopped with Li Hui ... etc . Somwhow , Li Hui and I were separated ... then Pierre said that he would be late . Hm , turn out that I was actually on my way to meet him . I got to U-turn , I was inside some cone - shape thingy . I gout out , then I have to board the escalator down . The gradient was very steep , I was very frightened ..... " Mu Jie , wake up ! " I still feel like sleeping ... Hm , my dreams ... there's still someone I forgot to think about . Anyway , Chemistry ... got lots of worksheet . Before Ms Ong left , she asked me about the Science Practical . At first , I said I don't know . Then Ms Ong contuined to ask , " difficult ar ? " Finally , I said , " it was acceptable . " Heard that Liturature had been changed to Social Studies . However , no teacher come to the class . We planned to leave , but Ai Hui sugested that we play a game of " Muder " , with Mathain and her gang . We played , then Mr Khor came and talked to someone . I rushed out of the classroom and told Mr Khor that I have questions to ask him . He told me to intercall him later . Ai Hui and Mei Qi left . I went to the Teacher's Office and intercalled Mr Khor . No respond . Mrs Tong was around and she helped to to look for Mr Khor , but in vain . I sat in the folyer with Devi and her gang until someone called out my name . It was Mr Khor . Asked him questions , then I helped him to seperate the papers , from other Secondary Schools . Went home and cooked instant noodles .. it was tastless , thus , I opened a can of salted leaf mustard , it was satly and I cut my hand while opening ! Slept from 12pm to 3pm ... did some work , then have tuition with Kai Xin . Hm ... Realized that someone actually is talking all my subjects , last time subjects ... Pure Chemistry , Pure Physics , Pure Maths ... etc . I stayed up till 2am , mugging .

I was early , as expected . Saw Ms Ong .... Then , the AVA theater was open . Was asked to surrender Handphones ... Practical ... Chemistry first .... There was aluminium paper ... and ammonia gas produced .... Physics ... Hm , roll the wooden cylinder into the containar and take note of the timming . Went to the hall and read book , slept . Haha ... Brought Chicken rice on my way home .

First lesson was Literature . I was trying to make it clear to Ai Hui that she has a copy of the worksheet and that I had jotted down the notes for me . Yet , she kept on insisting that the set which I passed to her 2 days ago didn't have the copy . Of couse she won't find it in the set of worksheet ! It was ment to be handed back to the teacher ! Haiz ... so much of helping her ... Haha . Anyway , heard that our English teacher wasn't around ( there's English today . ) The worst thing was ... head that there would be a make up Maths Paper , it was an order by Mr Koh . We were there , don't know what to do ... paly turant or what ? The class had a conference .... Ended up , Ai Hui , Hui Min , Mei Qi and I went to the McDonald's had ordered the Breadfast Set . We don't know what to do next . Contected Darrick . Heard that Li Xin , Hui Ming , Xiu Ling , Han Chuan , Jacky ..... etc were there and the place was flooded . We went to Ai Hui's house .... After some time , Ai Hui received Mr Koh's message . Followed by me , I received the message too . Soon , Mei Qi received the same message . We had a conference with Jacky , Han Chuan ... etc and decided to go back to the School and do the Maths Paper , but Jacky and gang don't want to . We reached the School and got scolding from Mr Koh . The Maths paper started and after some time , Mr Koh announced that he had something on , and instructed us to go over to 4E6's classroom where Ms Ong was inside . At about 1.45pm , Ai Hui submited the paper . I cursed .... Ms Ong asked me to hand in and don't stress myself . The paper is really too hard . I gave up . After submiting , I begged Ai Hui to go and return the English paper with me , which Winnie asked me to . Ended up , Ms Ong helped me with the task . I drank a lot of milk at night ... Just want to finish the whole packet ... I realized that he had told me - milk helps me to sleep well .

Went School , brought MacDonal's for lunch . Slept , then went Jurong Junior Collage . Met Lydia . Did some questions with her .... Oh , I saw Mr Lim .. but he never see me . Lydia and I went to the cafe and brought a cup of drink which we shared . Was in the centeen when Mr Lim saw me . He asked why wasn't I studying for my O Level . I told him that I came back to ask Lydia questions . " Your Sister ? " He asked . I told him no , Lydia's my senior . Went to the bus stop and saw Mr Lim again . He boarded a bus . I waved goodbye to Lydia and went home .

It was raining . I went up to the class . Ai Hui was absent . Strange ... maybe she was late ? THere was Maths , we did some paper . Then Literature . The teacher gave us some Secondary 3 Express 2005 End of Year paper for discussion . I helped Ai Hui to hot down notes ... I switched on my Handphone during recess and charged it . Ai Hui had tried to contect me twice . Hm , turn out that she's going to have a blood test ... Maybe Dengue fever ... Scraey ! I tried to joke with her for a while before recess time was up . Chemistry was next . We did some MCQ questions ... Then Physics , I charged my Handphone again . When lesson ended , I asked Mr Khr some questions . After that , I rushed to Ai Hui's house and passed her the worksheets for the day . On my way home , I saw the cute Teddy Bear from Guardian . I brought it at once . I had set my eyes on that Bear since my Birthday ... Hm , I went to the coffee shop to buy lunch after that .

I bumped into Vanessa on the bus and we chatted . It was raining ... I was talking to Vanessa about Him ... she's the one who started it . Hm , heard some bad news , but Vanessa wasn't sure about it either ... so , well , nevermind . Vanessa , me and another girl boarded the life dsown to the Basement 4 . Then I saw Kai Xin ... I was sitting there , dreaming , with my legs crossed hwen he appeared out of the blue . I sat up , uncrossed my leg and looked at him . He was talking , he turned and lifted up his head , acknowledged someone ... H m , I wasn't sure if his actions are ment for me . He went back to his seat , it was so crowded , yet , I sae Him time and time again . That means that I knew when he seated . Servise started . I was looking at hime most of the time ... we sang praise and workship . I was screaming instead of singing ... Hm , I don't know why . I just don't understand what's wrong with me . I should have already forgotten all about him after all these years ... Remember him as a freind only . Why was I so work up , my actions so big when I saw him ? There's nothing new in our FRIENDSHIP . Am I still hopelessly in love with Him ? Why was I staring at His direction ? Longing that He would notice me . Why did my heart missed a beat when He appeared ? When I heard news about the new Cell Group , it gave me hope . Now , it's true . All my hopes and dreams are gome . Hm , Service started , Pst Kong preached . I just love his preaching , I mean , I just understand what his point , what he wanted to put across . Yup , he taught us aoubt the 7 ways to increase in anoiting by defeating the lions in out life . Sadly , the very first lion is the lion of temption . Haiz , I can't even get pass the very first lion ... I got " eatten " up by the liaon time and time again ... sining against God . Oh , the Service ended ... Went to Li Hui ... Kai Xin was asking who have umbralla , cause it was raining ... then she said that I got to go home , at the bes stop . I told her that I can stay . Liang Wei was beside Kai Xin and he was looking at me . I looked down . Hm , Liang Wei asked me what food I'm eating , I struggled my shoulder , he did the same and I laughted . Brought food , ate .. was eating when He walked by again , with another girl . Blah blah blah ... Hm , a girl , Li Jun was crying . I don't know why . Li Hui .. etc was comforting her . Everyone noticed ... It was then I wondered , how many of them noticed my sudden absent when Mum demanded my presence at home ? THat time when I was inside the Basement and I was crying all because Mum was shouting over the phone ? Only Kai Xin was there .... Yup , all because I got to " report " to her ... We used t he shuttle to cross over the road when Li Jun cried again . She had lost her wallet . 2 girls went back the Church with her and helped her to seache for her wallet . I stoot with Li Hui , Kai Xin was talking about Maple Story with others . Liang Wei came and talked to Li Hui , then he copied me ... I reached home , no one was at home . I called Mum , she was on her way home ... I did my Maths , Brother called , followed by Dad . Both guys were on their way home and they wanted dinner . Brother got home soon and I told him what happened . I begged him to do something , yet he was jokeing , making me laught . Oh ! About yesterday . Brother and I were listening to the radio , the Deejay was reading out somebody's story . Flower wrote in about her love life ... and Brother commented that it sounded like mine ... Hm , it was raining the whold day . Angles in heaven crying for me ?

I was early , very early . I waited and waited , then I saw a familar face ... but the guy never notice me ... He went up . Vivien appeared with the rest . Had Cell Group , then fellowship ... It was tuna sandwhich .. yucks ! At first , I rejected Hui Mei's offer of the yucky tuna sandwhich . Then , Kelvin gave me tuna sandwhich also ... Kelvin forgotten my name again . Haha , first time was after the prasie and workship . I went home wit Hui Mei ... Oh yar , they have the wallet and A4 size contect sheet ... It didn't remind me of him until tomorrow ... Haha .

Nothing much today ... Yar .. nothing much . There was English and we got back out International Exam circulate . Ai Hui was there asking me how much I've scored . I got lower than her , I don't want to tell her my marks . Geography was next . We thought it wasi nside the libary . The teacher was late ... It was then I received my result slip from Winnie . I just need 2 more marks and I would pass every single subjects !!!!!!!! My best grade was Science .. B4 .. That's my hightest mark ... Hm , I glanced at my past result , hey , my Science improved from a C6 to a B4 ! Good job , Mu Jie ! Well , turn out that Geography was inside the classroom . We went in and the teacher was not around . Mr Koh appeared and asked me for my report book .... By the next period , only 7 to 10 people left . It was Social Studies . Anyway , don't know why so many people dislike Social Studies . I mean , the lessons were fine , most of them ... THe teacher talked about her cousin or some relative who were in other countries . She told is about their experiences . I wasn't paying much attation - I was Ms Ong at the door . Went home , Ai Hui accompanied me . Strange . The route she took was longer , yet she still walked with me , keeping me company ... We were talking aboout plans after the Os again . Haha .. Before we parted we saw a store which sell things like necklace , handphone chain ... etc . I brought two Bears handphone chains , $1.00 each . Then I brought lunch . Brother and I decided to watch " A date with a Vampire 1 " . I stopped half way because I heard some sound coming from the kitchen . I went inside the kitchen and located the sound . It was from the bathroom .. I intented to go in , thinking that Brother had left the tap running once again .. Suddenly ... a black thing flew over ... Heading towards me , who was about to get into the bathroom ... In shocked , I screamed ... Then laughed .... Brother asked what happened , but I was still laughing ... "A ... a ... haha ... haha ... haha ... a .... ... bird . " " Where ? " Brother questioned the rident me . I was still laughing so hard that I can't reply Brother . " Oh , I saw it . It flew out already . Get back and stop your crazy laugher . " Brother instructed . When I didn't get back , Brother threaten to play the VCD without me . He knew that once I started laughing , I can't stop . I finally appeared ... , " Where was it ? " Brother inquired . " Inside the bathroom . " I replied half laughing , half talking . Went CDAC whil Mum and Brother went to Jurong East . I bumped into Mum on my way back hom . At night , Mum allowed me to go for Cell Group . Thus , I messaged Kai Xin . She wanted to know if I'm going to my own N264 Cell Group or Vivien's Cell Group ... Of couse it's Vivien ...

I woke up and switched off my alarm clock . It hadn't ring yet . Went to the dinning table and slept again . Mum was still inside the toilet . I heard her opening the door , and headed stright to my bedroom . SHe found out that I was at the kitchen and ... She hugged me . Went to School . Lydai had messaged me . Tuesday 3pm at Jurong Junior Collage . It was raining ... Hm , Literature , almost felt asleep . English was conducted inside the ACA theatre , and it was freezing cold ! Recess .... Went back to slass to sleep . Physics was boring , Chemistry was inside the MLC , temperature was the same as melting point . Hui Min , Mei Qi and Ai Hui asked some Pure Chemistry questions after School , I just hang around ... I asked Miss Ong about my results secretly , she claimed that she don't know . Ai Hui and gang went to find English teacher , asked about writting .... Hm , we were leaving when I remembered that I got to hand in the Emaths M/J/05 paper . Ai Hui helped me with some Chemistry questions ... somehow ... Mum brought Pork rice for me . Did a little Maths and slept until Mum woke me up . Was frustrated ... ate dinner and had tuition with Kai Xin . I can't sleep at night ... My results ! Wny Ms Ong don't want to tell me ?! Must have done badly ...

Had English , and Literature . Recess , then Physics . I stayed back for a while to ask Mr Khor some questions .. he knew that it was Maths period already ... Mr Khor asked me , very scared of Mr Koh , planning to play turant ? Anyway , asked all the questions I wanted .... I AM GOING TO GET A1 FOR MY SCIENCE , NO MATTER WHAT !!!!

Our teacher gave us back our work . Letter writing . Then he said that he had told us a lot of times that we git ti wrute the sentence ... it's something like Chinese formal letter writing , we got to end it wait a " thanks " . The teacher ordered thoese who had forgotten to write the " thabks " to ome out . I did and I was sent to a room with another girl . There were other people , teenagers ... inside the room . The girl and I were being played with . Then , Mum appeared and said that I was ill . The centre part of my hair is red , so is my scarp . I was allowed to bath . Then , all thoese who had the same mistake as me were asked to stand facing the wall . The teacher began shotting ... 1 by 1 . There were too many people .. thoese " dead people " were being cleared and another group of people lined up .. The teacher turned to me and said , " I shall start from the back . " As a matter of fact , I'm the very last person at the end ... Then , one of the guys who "played with us " inside the room came . He looked at me , and lifted my chin . He then kissed me . I closed my eyes , the teacher started firing . I heard gun shots .... but I wasn't dead . I peeed through my eyes and Hui Min , who was beside me said , " she wasn't dead . " I closed my eyes again , tightly and wondered , would I go to heaven ? Soom , I became a ghost and someone passed me the Chinese formal letter writing ... Mathani came and passed me a letter . I read - After all these , everything is so unexpected . If you need help , I would be there , please call 656 ... I would up with tears in my eyes ... my pillow were soaked . Such a bad dream ... especially the part , " the girl and I were being played with . " It was 5.30am . Why am I dreaming about such things ?! Hm , I slept and woke up again . I heard Mum leaving the house . Slept a little while longer then wake up . Had breadfast . Brother asked if want to watch " A date with a Vampire . " I refused ... must mugg . Talking about that , Steve never reply me . Hm , I was in my room .... and just stared into blank space . Not feeling well . Can't do anything ... just sat there and stated ... Sigh , that time of the month ... ARGH ! Hm , I finally bathed .. it was terrible . Brother and I ate while watching " A date with a Vampire . " It was already 1.40pm when I left home . Kai XIn and Felinda called . Wasn't able to locate N264 , can't locate N127 too . Ended up , I anyhow seat . There was alter call and Kai Xin passed by dropping something . It got my attention and as she passed by me , I grabbed her arm . She knew what I mean - I'm lost . My eyes never left her as she went to N264 . Now , I know where they are sitting . After Service , I ran and find them . Kai Xin called to make sure that I'm fine . There was announcment , I saw Mr Lim walked by , but I could not call out to him .. Celebrated Alvin's birthday . Before leaving the Cell Group , Liang Wei said goodbye to me , with my name . Had been going for Service late and leaving early ... don't feel like making bonds with thoese new friends ... new members . If Yi Sin were around , she would know how I feel ... I only want Yi Sin , Li Hui , Kai XIn , Diana .... Hm , this Liang Wei guy ...

Had fish again ... YUCKS ! Was finishing my food when I vomited , because of the vegtables or something ... I was having my meal in the living room , while Brother was in the kitchen mugging for his GCE A Level . I ate eariler because I would be going to the CDAC to mug for my GCE O Level . Brother heard me pucking and comforted me , he thought that I was vomiting out fish . Well , partly so . Because , after I vomited out all the vegtables , I felt like vomiting out the fishes . I went to the CDAC . Mugging speed had increased . All my assigned work was done . I went to Jurong East after mugging . Went to the watch shop to repair some watches , to put battires . The uncle gave me a Hello Kitty Handphone pouch ... it was nice , and the texture was smooth . I banked in money too ... Hm .. wanted to buy a lot of things ... VCDs ... etc .

Hehe ... What's the day today ? Gee ... it's my Birhtday ! Yup , I am 16 years old already , able to watch thoese NC16 movies . Haha . Let me think .... Li Xin messaged me in the morning , then she saw me in School and wished me Happy Birhtday again . When I reched School today , I saw Ai Hui with Devi . Devi wished me Happy Birthday too , then Ai Hui passed me my Birhtday present - a small Teddy Bear . Received a few message from my Cell Group . Hm , Kai Xin and Felinda , both wishing me Happy Birthday and good grades for my GCE O Levels . Mr Goh messaged me while I was having my lunch at the Hawker Centre . I was shocked that he remembered my Birthday . Gee , what a surprise . Yup , he wished me Sweet Sixteen and asked me about my resolution for this year . Poor me . I went to the CDAC to mug on my Birthday ... Nevermind , I shall see it as .. It would bring me good luck if I mug on my Birthday , I would do well in whichever subject I studied on my Birthday . Hm .. cut my Birthday cake with my family members ... Then Brother gave me a Birthday card ... He told me that I always manage to find out my Birthday present ... He would always buy it before hand , then kept it , but I would always dig his bag , cupboards .. etc ... (even on normal days . ) Just a habit of mine ... Hehe , yup , thus I always mange to find out my Birthday persent from my Brother . This year , he gave me the McDonald's Hello Kitty Bookmark set . Hehe . Thanks everyone for the joy you all gave me today ! It seems that my Birthday celebration gets bigger and bigger every year , with more and more people wishing me .

Hm .. finally received my Birthday card from N264 ... It had been 3 years ... waited for that card for 3 years ... Yup .. but it was all too late . I would no longer recieve any Birthday well wishes from Him . He had sort of left my life . Sad right ? 1 dream came true , but not another ... Hm .. I sort of expected it .. Nevermind . My Cell Group Members are better , better than Him . Anyway , we never contect or anything ... so , who cares ? Oh , before going for Service , Mum scolded me the moment she saw mw ... all because I wore shorts for the night , sleeping . Then for lunch .. there were ... FISH ! Brother and I were watching " My Date With A Vampire " .. um , don't know which part , mostly is Part 2 or Part 3 . Anyway .. I was eating when Mum scolded me for my time management again , I was late .. She started scolding and I started vomiting . And Brother said , " Oh God . "