::Truth of me::
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::So you really want to know me::
::Since when did you comprehend me::
::Can you grasp my true emotions and mindset::
::Do you know about the dark truths I'm hiding::
::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Friday 9 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
Me v.s You .
If you never seen a zombie before , here's one !
Woke up late , rushed for my evaluation , which I failed ... Rushed for School after lunch ... was ALMOST late .
Boss messaged me , I was allowed to choose which weekend I want to work ... I chose Sunday , only ... I simply got no intention to work . My work hours are always spent chatting on the phone with you .
Life's meaningless for me now . I had to wear a mask , to force a smile , to constantly remind myself to pay attention for that pathetic and short 2 hour lecture . It was so hard ... tell me , from the bottom of you heart that you are not affected at ALL !
Even mugging at night demands extreme concentration , which I failed to have . I gave up in the end , after a few pages of Research Method Module .
What's the use ? You want me to give up ... I might as well give up EVERYTHING ... What's the use of mugging now , anyway .
My mind always wonder ...
I can't help it ... You said that you can return me my VCDs , what about my heart ? My feelings ...
It hurts ... knowing that it was MY fault ... I am so SORRY ... I just said it in a moment of anger , can you forgive me ?
I am sorry .
You said that power demands sacrifices .
The story of life is quicker than the blink of an eye . The story of love is hello and goodbye, until we meet again .
Two are born to cross their paths , their lives , their hearts . If by chance , one turns away , they are they forever lost , by Michael Timmins
And that ...
One of the most dangerous things you can ask for when it comes to love, is a warranty card
But for me ...
I believe in a few things ... Nobody is perfect , nothing is impossible , if there's a will , there's a way , and last but not least , never give up on the things that made you smile .
I don't want to sleep without hearing that you love me . I don't want to wake up without dreaming of you all night long . Words can't say how I long to be with you every minute of the day .
A heart truly in love , never loses hope but always believes in the promises of love , no matter how long the time , how confusing the circumstances and how far the distance ,
Love is stronger than pride , so when you love someone , tell them and never let go .
Love is a gift , not an obligation , follow your heart and always trust the person you love .
Love is the way I feel when I can't imagine my life without you .
Love is … when two people don’t like to be apart , they want to share everything hear – to – heart .
Love is a four letter word with so many meanings behind it .
It is true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it . But it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives .
When the moment you can’t feel them under your fingertips , you miss them .
I guess the most important things are the hardest to say .
Have you ever decided not to become a couple because you were afraid of losing what you already had with the person ?
Your heart decides who it likes and who it doesn’t .
You can’t tell you heart what to do . It does it on its own … when you least suspect it , or even when you don’t want it to .
Too many of us walled because we are too afraid to care too much … for fear that the other person may not care as much , or at all .
Don’t be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have , or could have had . No one waits forever …
The best and most beautiful things cannot be seen or even touched , they must be felt with the heart .
To handle yourself , use your head . To handle others , use your heart .
Don’t throw your back to love when it’s already in front of you . Don’t drive it away form you because if you did , someday you’ll think again why you let love fly away when it was once next to you .
The greatest regret in our lives are the risks we didn’t take . If you think something will make you happy , go for it . Remember that we pass this way only once .
Two tear drops were floating down the river , one teardrop said to the other , “ I’m the tear of a girl who loved a man and lost him . Who are you ? ” “ I’m the teardrop of the man who regrets letting the girl go . ”
To love is like playing the piano . First , you play by the rules . Then , you must forget the rules and play form the heart .
What if someone tells you this : I don’t believe in courtship , it’s just a waste of time . If I love the person , I’ll marry her right away . But for you I will make an exception … just love now and I’ll court you forever .
Of all the words of tongue and pen , these are the saddest : “ it could have been … ”
You never lose in living . You only lose in holding back .
It’s always better to have found the courage to love even if you lose it in the end rather than to have never found love because you were too afraid of the challenge .
The greatest challenge in our life is to find someone who knows our flaws and differences and still willingly embraces you with so much love .
If time ever stands still , I’ll never leave you side . It may be too hard for me at times that you will not see me , but in my heart , you’ll always be found .
The spaces between our fingers were created so that another person’s fingers could fill them in .
If there is anything better than to be loved … it’s loving .
Why say “ hi ” if you mean “ I miss you ” . Why say “ let’s go out ” if you mean “ I want to be with you ” .
Love is a feeling that’s seen in one’s eyes. Love is the sight of the sunset and sunrise . Love is the joy that makes people smile .
Love is the dance step that never goes out of style , sometimes you stumble and sometimes you hurt your partner but often times you learn to survive .
Love has its twists and turns . It leaves you in pain but teaches you to learn . Even if it takes so long , love always takes you to where you belong .
Love does not involve emotions , it simply refuses to be ruled by them .
Love is a decision . It’s a reflection of how we honour the one we love by the things we give up just to have that one special person to live inside our hearts and never let him/her go .
If two people are predestined for each other , they will find each other despite the distance and time . True love waits forever .
If you say run ! I’ll ask how far ? If you say swim , I’ll ask how deep ? If you say jump ! I’ll ask how high ? If you say go away ! I’ll say no I won’t ! I’ll stay with you forever !
If I have to wait for you … if that’s what I have to do to be with you … then I’ll gladly do that so that I could prove to you how much I love you .
When you truly love someone , you don’t look for faults . You don’t look for answers , you don’t look for mistakes . Instead you fight for the mistakes , you accept the faults and you overlook the excuses .
Shakespeare was an idiot and Einstein was a fool . One wrote of love , the other spoke of meaning . But neither of them ever found you … I’m a genius !
Where there is love there is forgiveness .
I’ll run to you when you are far from me , I’ll hug you tight when you’re feeling lonely . I’ll wipe your tears when they start flowing incessantly and I’ll love you for all eternity .
The heart is the centre of our chest but it beats at the left side … I guess that’s the reason why the heart isn’t always right .
Take good care of the person who loves you , never tell lies or attempt to hurt them because you will never realize how very important they are until they’re out of your life .
To love is one thing . To be loved is another . To be loved by the one you love is everything .
How about giving your heart to someone who would love to make you happy , who would love to see you smile , who would love to be loved by you . So how would you feel if I give my heart to you ?
There are things that hurts us , but since we love the people who have hurt us so much , we learn to hide the pain at the back of our mind , so we can learn to love endlessly .
When I tell you I love you , it doesn’t mean you have to stay . It just means I wish you would never leave .
It’s the presence of the should that makes us alive but it’s the presence of love that makes us want to live .
Don’t let doubts lose the magic of love because it’s not everyday that you meet the people who have magic to let you fall in love .
When you love , you are exposing your heart . And when your heart is exposed , you are risking it to get hurt … but then again , the happiness it brings is all worth it .
Love is a not a matter of finding the right person but creating the right relationship .
In life there are very rare chances that you’ll meet the person you love and loves you in return . So once you have found it don’t ever let it go !
People continue to love despite of the pain , tears and heat break maybe because pain make them stronger , tears made them braver and heat break made them wiser .
Falling in love is not finding the perfect person , it’s learning to love an imperfect person perfectly .
7 wonders of falling in love : Meeting someone , getting to know the person , understanding the person , accepting the person , loving the person and remembering .
While I was walking , I stopped for a while and thought of things I don’t have in my life , but I suddenly realize I have you and I feel complete .
I need you because I love you , not the other way around .
To love someone deeply gives you strength . Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage .
I’ve been looking for love and I didn’t stop until the day you came into my life … and upon looking into your eyes , it’s confirmed ! I finally found true love !
Don’t find love , let love find you . That’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall , you just fall .
Love is like magic . The more you hide it , the more it grows , The more you suppress it , the more it shows .
No love can hurt as much as love that can never be … and no thoughts can hurt as much as thoughts of a love could have been .
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::So you really want to know me::
::Since when did you comprehend me::
::Can you grasp my true emotions and mindset::
::Do you know about the dark truths I'm hiding::
::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Wednesday 7 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
L-O-V-E
Was on extreme diet yesterday . Ate 2 pieces of cake , 2 cups of milk and some water , only .
As for today ... the day came and pass in a blink of an eye ...
Yes , tears , there were ... But I am going to hand on ... I will never give up . You just mean too much to me ...
All those words you've told me ... all those arrows shot into my heart .... it was just a moment of anger , frustration , just to push me away .
I am not as stupid as before to believe in all those hurtful words you said to me .
Never give up on the things that make you smile ... Ai Hui messaged me that picture . Yes , it was a picture ...
And it gave me confidence ... I am going to hang on .
The only comfort I got for the whole day was being able to lie on my bed and talk to you ...
You told me about those times together ... wonderful , precious , magical moment .
Persistence , stubborn ... I know that ...
Yet ... is there any other way ?
You asked me why ... and now ... I ask you why too ... Why is it concrete ? Even if it is , I want to warm it ... warm it with my love ... piece up those broken pieces with honey , coat it with honey , fill it with honey ...
Those broken pieces ... I was the one who did it . I am sorry ...
You said you are in a dark lane with a damaged heart . I am telling you now that I want to be your light , to guide you back to the correct road , filled with warm and love ... I want to heal your wounded heart .
You're pushing me to other guys , you said I don't deserve such treatment , you felt guilty ... then treat me the way I should be treated ....
Please ...
Even if you were to go University , go overseas for months , for years .... I've told you what I will do ...
Who is the he in my blog ?
It's you ... it's you .
I still love you , very much .
Why tell me such thing when ,
you don't mean it at all ?
I don't know what you want to do .
Just let me make it clear that ,
I still love you , very much .
I can't do without you .
Would you walk down the future ,
together with me ,
hands in hands ?
I am willing ,
and I want ,
to walk down the road together with you ,
helping you to get back everything you had lost .
I don't know how ,
but I want to give it a try .
I am willing ,
and I want ,
to help you get back all your confidence ,
I don't know how ,
but I want to give it a try .
Just bear in mind that ,
I am always there for you ,
and that you are a very nice guy .
I never regret knowing you .
I still love you , very much .
Come back to me now .
That was the poem I wrote during the first time ... and now ...
Remember those times together ,
when I fell off from the bike during our first meeting ,
At the serene center , at Toa Payoh ,
Wild Wild Wet , Sentosa ,
your graduation night ,
whem you said that you know ...
I will not leave you ,
and the very last neoprint we've took
or any other places we've dated .
Those times when you said ,
the 5 words to me before we dream of each other.
How we wish to drift into the dreamland ,
lying in each other's arms ,
cuddling with each other .
The way we wake each other up ,
almost every morning .
If you never greet me good morning ,
I will be the one doing it .
And the rest of the day ,
we will spent messaging to each other .
All those mushy messages ,
all meant only from me ,
all sent from the bottom of your heart .
And at the end of the day ,
I will be there waiting for you ,
waiting for your call .
In the end ,
you were the one who got to wait for me .
I love you .
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::Since when did you comprehend me::
::Can you grasp my true emotions and mindset::
::Do you know about the dark truths I'm hiding::
::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Tuesday 6 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
I still believe
Artist : Hayden Panttoere
Album : Cinderella II Soundtrack
Title : I still believe
Some how I know I will find a way
To a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know he awaits for me
Somday soon he'll see I'm the one
I wont give up on this feeling
And nothing will keep me away
Cause I still believe in destiney
That you and i were ment to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
I know whats real cannot be denied
Although it may hide for a while
With just one touch love can conqure fears
Turning all your tears into smiles
Its such a wounderous feeling
I know that my heart cant be wrong
Cause I still believe in destiney
That you and i were ment to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Love can make miracles
Change everything
Lift ya from the darkness and make your heart sing
Love is forever
When you fall
Its the greatest time of them all
Cause I still believe in destiney
That you and i were ment to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
Cause I still believe
Believe in love
Yes I still believe
Believe in love
Still believe in love
I still believe
Believe in love
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::Since when did you comprehend me::
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::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Monday 5 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
Day .
My day just passed in a blink of an eye ...
Lectures after lectures .
I just reached School and took out my hand phone to check . Was , well ... expecting something ... and my phone bursted into life right on my hand .
I refused to reply , time and time again ... he messaged . I finally replied ... and during the very last lesson , I cried .
Went for some practice after school ...
Tiring ...
Waited and waited for him , as usual ...
Called him ... he never answer ...
He finally switched off his phone ...
He knew that I was waiting for him , I will be waiting for him ...
Why did he .......
Hurted ....
Bleeding ...
Internal bleeding ...
Crashed ...
Inconsolable ....
Unstoppable ...
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::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Sunday 4 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
Worst .
I realized that not everything about the past is all wonderful ...
There was Elaine , she said that my duty is to wait till all the parents have left . Then I can go over to another side to refresh the classrooms ...
Worked overtime , again , today .
It's not all wonderful .
Work was actually terrible today ...
I made mistakes , I've done wrong things ....
Went with Brother and Father to Ikea after work , had my dinner there too .
And to make my day worst ...
I got to book appointment with him if I want to meet him . Ended up , both of us agreed not to meet .
He pushes me to other guys .
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::Since when did you comprehend me::
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::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Saturday 3 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
Changes .
So here I am , seating on my old work place ....
How I missed those days ...
Where I am able to blog the whole week of my life , seating in front of this computer .... But so much changed ...
I was " transferred " to another part of the company , and now I am back .... I missed those days ...
Nothing to do , surfing the net .
And oh .. those days , with you ...
It changed .
Everything change .
It had been a week .
One whole week , my MM ...
And it continues today , when you failed to remember about the " movie we plan to watch " .
Seriously , I can't imagine what will they say if I complain to them .......
Yes , I can find one hundred and one reasons , but I only have one reason ...
I love you .
If one thing that will never change , it's changes .
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::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Friday 2 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
Over
I really don't know what happened ...
But I am glad to hear your kisses , you saying those five words to me .
We chatted for 50 minutes and 11 seconds .
Misunderstanding ... ??
I hope so ...
Everything will be alright ...
It's all over ...
Even if the bees sting , the bear still gets the honey .
It's worth it .... to preserve on .
Yes , it hurts , it's painful ... it leaves scars ....
But I heal , and I learnt a lesson .
It's worth it .
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::Confessions of EVERYTHING on Thursday 1 November 2007 .
Title of my post :
You .
You were so extremely mean to me !
I couldn't believe it ... I broke down in the lecture room and on my bed ... In lessons too . Every single messages you sent to me for the past few days ... it was ... limited words , just replying to me .
How could you do this to me ?
I am not her ... I don't need such treatment ! I am different , I am you girlfriend ... not HER . I need you , I can't do without you ... that's why I can't have such treatment . I need your encouragement , your love , your faith to propel me forward . You distancing yourself from me will only affect me ... mentally , psychologically , emotionally ... I won't and cannot concentrate !
Well , it aren't my fault either . Like what I said , it's not like I have tried my best ... I never give up , why are you giving up on me ? That's my intelligence level , what can I do ? What AM I suppose to do ?
You are just trying to change me ... to become like her . Well , if you really want me to be like her , why don't you go for her instead and save me form all these mental torture ? Like what I said , you can't have the cake and eat it ...
So what if people are talking about it , so what if they are questioning you ? Your believe swayed ... you got beaten ... You lose faith and hope ... You wished to be denied ...
If I were to believe what other people said ... our story would have ended ...
You don't remember any single thing happened between you and me ... You are just showing me that the stuff between us don't mean anything at all , those magical moments between you and me ....
I don't wish to state what excuse you gave me , because I have my own point of view too ... and it definitely don't support your excuse .
I asked you , in my option , a very simple question , you got to think .... What does it mean ? What are you telling me ? That after all these 1 year and 11 months together ... I mean nothing to you , you are not sure of you feeling towards me , you are NOT confidence at all ... Which leads me to our promises in the beginning ....
Yes , you've forgotten , and I've reminded you ... you forgotten again , I reminded you again ... The cycle just goes on and on and on ...
Which further proves how much I mean to you then .......
And the promise ... if you really believe it , really commit to it , have faith in it , want to fulfill it , will you still be reminding me time and time again about you extremely limited time ?
Yes , the limited time ... it all started with time ... If time can bring be back to before what had happened ... Everything would be alright .
I never complain , I tried my best to understand , I really tried .... If it is still not enough , you can tell me , point out to me . To me , I never complain that you seldom date me ...I believe that you will date me when the time is right , when you have the time . Even if you don't have , somehow or rather , we managed it ...
I don't know what to do .
I love you .
Maucks .
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