Yuhua Secondary School students all gathered at the West Coast Park for Teacher's Day . I met with Ai Hui , then we boared the bus to Mei Qi's place , boared another bus to the West Coast Park . It was boring . We just walked around the park , that was all . I waited for Lydia , she came . Talked with Ms Lee and then we went to play at the playground . Nothing much actually ... The playground was burning . I climbed the pyramid and stared at the sea ... And I wonder ... I began thinking and longing ... Somebody , someone , specail ... Seat together with me by the seaside , at night ... Wispering to each other , getting to know each other better ... Haha .. Yup . I met Leo's Sister at the Jurong East MacDonal's to pass them my violin .. And I missed it so much !

He called again . But what did he said ... Who he was talking to , I can't remember . I juse knew that he did not look for me ... Yup .. Haiz , whatever ... I mean , like what Brother said , move on .. there would be no ending between us ... He is right , I knew . And I guess I had really forgot about him . I mean ... To tell the truth , I felt nothing when he called me yesterday , asking for my Mum's number . I just told him , and he hang up , and I carried on with my life . Yup . I guess tat's the end of him in my life ...

I just finished saying Grace when Enrique called . But I could not answer his call as the DM was around . I looked at my plate of chicken noodles an felt like vomiting ... I went home and changed and had a nap .. after that , I went to the airport to sent Enrique off . He wouldbe going to United Kingdom for studies ... He called and asked for my Mum's handphone number ... I was shocked ... But well , I gave my Mum's Handphone number to him anyway . He told me that he had called Brother but he did not answer his call . Haiz ... Very sad . Dianan went for overseas studies ... she is a very fine Sister , she did asked about him ... Yup .. she called once in a blue moon to chat with me ... Enrique ... he was there encouraging me when I knew that I had done badly for my GCE O Level Chinese ... and oh , if only he knew ...

Mum suddenly don't allow me to go Church ... Yup , as always ... so , I don't blog about my anger and all ... I messaged Diana and told her and everything was done . Haiz ... I scared .... History is repeating itself ... My history of my past ...

I went for Cell Group today , and I parntered with Diana .. we played a game and we won . Hehe . We went to the hawker centre to have lunch after Cell Group ... it was to celebrate the departure of Daian , she would be going for overseas studies till I don't know when . Haha . Hear that she would leave this Monday or something , then won't come back for the next 5 years or something ... So good , can go overseas studies ... can experience the different 4 season and all ... Yup , I was still sick and I don't feel like eating the plate of carrot cake I ordered ... Well , I forced myself to , I can't waste money . Haha . Went back to Daniel house for tuition with Kai Xin ... It was just mainly slacking ... We did nothing much ...

Still remember that I said we have to hand in E Maths file , I can't find it and Mr Koh blew his top ... I was seated right in fornt of him , and he asked for my file .. I don't know what I replied , he slamed the file onto the table and started scolding me ... He raised his voice ... He said , " still dare to complain to Miss Ong that I tell you last mimute , you not interest at all ." What he meant was the E Maths Paper 1 on Monday ... Sigh , I did not score well , I guess I never even pass ... He letured me right infront of the whole class !!! Mr Koh , letured me right infront of the whole class !!! He shouted at me , he slamed the file on the table .... Oh my ... I cried straight away ... Yes I did .. right infront of my whole class . The worst thing was that , I don't have any tissue with me .. and no kind soul around me pity me ... Adding on to that , I had really developed a fever ... I was very giddy , everything just flew pass me or something ... I wasn't even sure if I was in the reality or dream ... Anyway , I was given permission from , um , Mr Koh , to go to the toilet to wash my face ... to freshen up ... On my way , Ms Ong was actually in 4E6 , just beside my classroom . She did not see me when I walked pass that class ... Haiz ... Hazel came , on Mr Koh's order , followed by Ai Hui , same boss as Hezel . Ai Hui told me to think of something happy ... like Steve , Enrique , James ... ??? I told her in between my sobs that I have a fever ... the bell ran , Mr Koh's lesson was over ... we went back . It was recess ... I guess so . I went to Ai Hui's desk to copy something ... we were given some assignment from Mr Koh ... I asked her if I was having a fever . Ai Hui placed her hand on my forehead ... silence ... ok , Mu Jie , forget it , don't skip School all because of Mr Koh ... then she exclaimed , " you are having a high fever ! " Li Xin was nearby and she agreed with Ai Hui . I packed my bag and Ai Hui went with me to look for Miss Ong . Miss Ong complained , " why so many people sick today ? " Miss Ong asked us to go to the Office . The lady gave us a slip of paper , and we have to find Miss Ong to sign it ... Ai Hui instructed me to wait for her while she climbed 4 story and get Miss Ong's signture . I was sent home , Mum asked me to go to the Family clinc , which I did . But .. it don't accept NETS ! I went to the NTUC's POSB ATM .. it was spoilt . I was forced to run , with my School Bag to another ATM machine ... I went home and slpet . Mum came home and realized that I have not taken any pills , and she scolded me . Mum cooked some noodles for me and fed me . Brother was home when I was eating . Mum instructed Brother to take good care of me ... which he did a lousy job as Brother just ordered the Teddy Bears to look after me ... I still can't believe what happened in School ... He still have the last period with us ... Hehe ... I managed to skip School . In other words , I had been humilted and insutled right infornt of my class ... ?? How do you expect to carry on seeing my classmates ?! I am just a stupid student who copied during exams ... I am so stupid !

E Maths Common Test Paper 2 ... Have to bring calculator , compass , protraotor , flexi curve and hand in E Math File . I had nightamres ... I don't know , I just can't sleep . I woke up at 3am and I had a fever ... Haiz ... I woke Mum up and she gave me pills , then , I don't know why , I just hugged her ... I cried and all .. I don't know ... I felt very very sick , giggy and all ... Haha . Mum put me to bed and made sure that I was alright before leaving , but I can't sleep ...

Science Chemistry Common Test from 2pm to 3.30pm ... Organic Chemistry , expect Macromolecule ... , Acid , bases and salt , and Mole Concept . Gee , I simply hate Mole Concept ... Yucks ! I don't think I gat the answer , just wrote down some crap ... Haiz , I don't know ...

There was Science Physics Common Test from 2pm to 3.30pm . We sat with the Pure Physics students ... as a class . Combine Science and Pure Physics Students ... Yar , who ask me to drop Pure Physics ... It was still fine ... I should be able to score ...

Sat with Ai Hui and Mei Qi at Mei Qi's table . They helped me with the Chemistry experiment ... I don't even know what they were talking about ... Haiz ... Pure Chemistry and Combine Chemistry ... Went back to my own table and Miss Ong was looking at me everytime .... it was obvious that she wanted to talk to me ... Haiz ... She did , bad news , she asked , " Do you know that today have Common Test ? " " Huh .. it's Add Maths . " I told her . " But thoese not talking Add Maths have E Maths paper to do . " " Huh ? Mr Koh never inform me . " " Have you studied for Chemistry ? " " Yup " , I lied . On my way to Physics , Mr Koh told me , " you have E Maths paper . " " Yup , I know ... " During Physics , some problem happened ... Thoes taking Add Maths .. they don't know when is the time slot ... 4E5 always end late on Monday .. then the other classes already began their paper , my classmates don't know if they should skip Physics and do the Add Maths common test or do the Physics Pratical . Anyway , I don't know what they did . I just stayed at the Physics Lab and dd my experiment . The Add Maths pupils came back and when they finished their's I went up to the classroom with them ... Hm , I am suppose to collect the experiment paper from the class tomorrow . Hehe . I heard Wen Wen telling Yi Xin and Lee Zhen , " there she is , " or something ... Anyway , it was not plesent . I borrowed Hui Min's calculator during the test . Mine was E Maths Paper 1 , no calculator allowed ... But I used Hui Min's . Mr Koh told me , " you collect it from Miss Ong another day , she will mark . " Ai Hui and Mei Qi had already left . Brother called my Handphone during the test ... Opps , I brought Handphone to School . I returned Brother's call , he told me that he's not eating at home tonight . Went online and Enrique sent me pictures , then he asked me to call him . I did and we chatted . I went to bath and Mum came back home and Mum started shouting twice . Rushed out of the Master Bedroom and explained to Mum . Mum had took away from Cousin's house some food . I gave my soup to Dad and Mum started leturing , " how many times must I tell you not to give something to other people , expeciall since you've just ate it . You must take it out first " I went back to my room ... and went out again , telling Mum , " I have been drinking your saliva when I'm in your tummy . " Studied Physics and listened to Cross CD . Then Mum said she have something to give me . She was packing her room . Mum gave me a Qoo clock and we betted if it have any alarm functions . I lose , it does not have any . When I placed it inside the box , I found out that I had forgotton to put the battires in . It dropped , slipped from my hand and Mum started scolding me wentch and insulted my intelligences and all .... I feel like crying ... Why ?! I just accidently dropped the Qoo clock only ... must she lable me as a wentch , and remind me that I'm stupid and clumsy , like a bull in a China shop ?! Anyway , I drank a packed of Milk Tea and Mum asked , " where got cold - Milk - Tea ? Just a waste of money , and it harms your health ... etc ... etc . "

Woke up at 12.15pm and I heard someone calling me ... It was Enrique , he wanted to meet me so that he can burn the Cross CD . Haiz .. Went to the Lobby and he burnt it at the counter .. Haha .. Yup , it was quiet late and Enrique told me that if I could not get inside for Service , I should look for him , since it was his fault . I managed to get in and located my Cell Group members . Suddenly , I paid extra attention to Pst Sly Rogers .. I mean , yup .. something like my story ? Yup , and it occured to me that if Enrique asked me to go with him to the Creative , I would ... Anyway , Enrique did asked .. I met him at the Level 4 cafe ... he was with his Cell Group .. they took such a long time to leave ... thus , I bumped into Kai Xin ... She began questioning me and all ... Enrique and I went to Creative , but too bad , wasted trip , the shop was closed . We took Taxi , and Enrique sent me home even thought there was a direct bus ... Inside the Taxi , Enrique double checked with me that I don't have any special feelings for him ... Haha , of couse not . Talking about that ... It had been quite some time , weeks , since he contect Brother ... he wasn't around today either ...

Went for Cell Group , then go with Enrique to the IT Mall and the Harminica Band concert with him . We were a bit late , thus , we anyhow sit .. who knows , I seat beside Mr Koh .. Gee , heart attack .. I asked Mr Khor about some Physics things during the short break . After the break , Enrique and I changed place and we sat together ... Hehe .. like couples ?? Then on our way back to the MRT , Enrique told me that " better don't walk alone at night , especially this night . " It then occured to me that .. he said that because it's the seventh month .. I then asked him , do chirstans believe in these ? We started talking and talking and we even missed our tain so that we can chat . Haha ... Yup , it suddenly occured to me that it would be the last time seeing him , before he go overseas to study ... Too bad , should have insisted a hug before parting .. just like Empower U . Haha .. He called when I reached Jurong East , we were still on the topic of God .. Yup , I simply refuses all his saying ... Because ... Because ... Haiz , I can't say .. some of them know , some don't ... Anyway , I plan to tell him all about it when he sent me his diary , how he came to know God , how God had helped him through and all ... I studied till 3.30 am , listening to the Cross CD .

There was performances today . Some Hong Kong students came to our School or something ... Yup .. It was Geography lesson and I have to report to my CCA Teacher so that I can make up , tie my hair , change my clothes ... I was very scared of asking permission to leave the class , I kept on looking at Ai Hui , she signaled me to ask the Geography teacher ... Not that my teacher is fierce or strict ... but I was just simply scared because , the teacher was teaching and if I ask for permission , everyone would look at me and all ... Anyway , I ended up asking and I went to report . Our guest put up a performance for us too , and the 3 dance troup sat behind the hall to watch . Went to the Jurong Junior Collage ( JJC ) Open House with Ai Hui and Hui Min . Mei Qi did not go with us .. On our way , the 3 girls ( Ai Hui , Hui Min and I ) saw a night market store which sells sheap stickers . All 3 of them went looking for cute stickers to buy . Hui Min and Ai Hui even helped me to dig out stickers which contains Bears , like Winnie The Pooh , or Pin Bear . Yup . They knew that I would only buy things which have Bears . Haha . Then , we saw that the jigsaw puzzzles which they sold was cheap too . The 3 girls brought some jigsaw puzzles too . Now , the buy was so heavy , we have our School bags , and now , jigsaw puzzles . I brough 2 jigsaw puzzles , 1000 pieces ! Thus , we decided to leave our jigsaw puzzles with the shop keeper and we went for the JJC Open House . We went and I met Lydia . I met her at the JJC centeen . When I was walking to meet her , 1 JJC guy said hi to me . I was like .. " Um , hi .. " Haha , guess it was because my hair still contains the gel and hair glitter , that was why that guy talked to me . Anyway , the very first thing we did when Lydia and I saw each other , was - bear hug ! Haha . Then Lydia showed us around the collage , the hall , the labs , the classrooms ... etc . We went to the cafe to eat too . We even tried the shooting ... It was so fun !!! Ok , I missed a few times .. but well .. Lydia said that I wasn't so bad .. and I believe her . Hui Min and Ai Hui left and I hang around with Lydia . We were at her shooting club booth when I saw Mr Lim . He was sitting at one of the booth with other teachers . Thus , I dragged Lydia to the R&D booth . The R&D booth was just beside the booth which Mr Lim was sitting ... At the R&D booth , there was a quiz , how many sweets was inside the bottle .. Lydia and I made a guess and we submited the entry .... NEVER DO I KNOW THAT , THAT ENTRY I SUBMITED , IT CHANGED MY LIFE . Then Lydia and I walked back , Mr Lim instructed Lydia , " persuade her to come to JJ . " Haha .. it's so hard .. Sigh , I mean .. Yup , it's hard getting into JJC . Not that I don't want to , but I can't . Sigh , I enjoyed my day so much with Lydia , all the old times .. the old jokes we shared ... Too bad that Sok Ee wasn't around , if not , it would be so much better , 2 senior looking after me . Haha .. Sigh , really miss thoese days in Chinese Dance , when both Sok Ee and Lydia were around , then we joked and all ... About Ph5.5 , JW , Mei Nu , Mr Potato Head ... etc . I was online with Steve , chatting , then I carried on studying Geography till 4am ...

Today is quite slack . Nothing much actually . School was fine . Instead , it was fun . It rained yesterday night , the floor was soaked . But it wasn't raining this morning and we were asked to go oden for Flag Rising . Devi passed me the Harmonica Band Tickets from behind . Hehe ... finally ! School started ..... Literature was the first period . I spoke ! My golden mouth moved ! I told them the pages , since I am the olny one among the 4 girls who had really finished reading the novel . Literature Teacher came and examined our essay too . Chinese was not that excellent .... I asked Li Xin and Joyce some Chinese ... they were not giving me their full attention .... PE was next . It was raining and we were supposed to do some survery . I saw Mei Qi and Ai Hui going down for recess . I mean , they were at the classroom door . Ai Hui called out to me ! She invited me to join them for recess ! Haha ... I brought down my my Chocolate Chips and ordered a plate of Curry Chicken . It was decilous . Chemistry was a close slave ... We were supposed to do some essay questions ... Lucliky Ms Ong never look at my work , if not she would vomit blood ! I was seated behind Li Xin , Tian Tian and Joyce during Maths . Then I saw Tian Tian drawing on Li Xin's hand . I commented that Tian Tian was tourting her friend . Haha . Li XIn ordered me to do my Emaths ... Anyway , Maths was okay . I just did my work . Soon , it was English . English Teacher told us the conversation and picture discussion . It was tough ! Thank God I am the first batch ! Anyway , before School dismissed , I asked Devi some English thing . She helped me and assuered me that I would score well for English with all the hard work I've done . Haha . Mei Qi was talking to Li Xin and her gang . I joined them after packing my bag . Turned out that they were planning to skip Physics due to some reason . Anyway , I asked Li Xin if she knows how to make a bear out of those wires and she said that she would make a bear word for my Birthday ! I'm very happy today because I've spoke to a lot of mu classmates today . Maybe you don't beleive me , but trust me , it's once in a blue moon that I've talked to so many people ! I went home and carried on doing my English . Hm ... I felt quite sleepy and I slept . Mum called and woke me up . So , I made chicken , cooked rice and re heat the soup . Hm , the chicken tasted nice . I even pluck out the skins from the other pieces of chickens . Haha . Anyway , Kai XIn came tonight and we had tuition . It was alright .

Skipped Chinese Dance and went to National Dental Centre to settle my outstanding bills . Ran errand too . I was dying to eat the jellies I brought and have a slip of the milk tea .. but Mum forced me to drink the soup . I never drink any .. only ate a few pieces of potato and made chicken , which Brother ate them all when he reached home .

Very sad .. Miss Ong never look for me at all today ! I though maybe , after receiving my message sent on Friday , she would look for me and talk to me , but she didn't . Maybe , she had forgotten all about it over the weekend ? Sigh , I guess I would be retaking my GCE O Level Chinese .. All thoese who achived a B decided to retake , what about me , who got a C ?! Do I have any choice ? Guess I should just believe Enrique's words , Believe in God and trust that A1 or A2 can be achived . I forgotten to being my Geography Textbook again and we were given assignment during class time . I saw one of my classmate completed his work and I went to borrow his text . During Chemistry , we got to mark some task , I exchanged mine with Yi Yang . Last period of the day was Physics , we did practical . Mr Khor was not around , thus , some other guy teacher took over the period and helped us . I needed some other stuff . I went out and asked for it but I don't know what is it's name . I ended up describing the stuff to him . Went home and came online . Wanted to e-mail Mr Goh , always wanted to , but always never get around to it . Anyway , Mum said she wanted to come back and cook dinner . But something coped up and I ended up cooking . Fine .... I took out the chicken wings and did as told - place then inside the work and heat it till the needled point to " M " . Chopped and peeled the carrots , cut the hotdogs . However , the chicken wings were cooked before I finished cuting the carrots and hotdogs ! Thus , I dumped 2 hotdogs down another pan while I carried on my chopping . By the time I was done , I found out that ... Mum had actually placed the carrot together with another white vegetable !!! Ok ok .. I chopped the " hidden " carrot too . Then I took a look at the 2 hotdogs ... they were burnt !!! Worst , there wasn't anymore wok left . I used a small pan and dumped all the vegetables in . However , the pan was too small so , I only managed to dumped half of the white vegetables and carrots . After some time , I place the another half of the vegetables and carrots .. Everything was over cooked ... Sob sob .. whoever propose to me in future .. must know that I am not a good chef .

I felt so lonely ... If only Yi Sin was able to make it ... If only she was able to go Jurong Point with me .... Anyway I cut my hand today .... While helping Mum to cut the ends of the garlic ... Haiz ... Why ?! Why is it that I hurted myself again ?! I thought .... I mean ... Okay ... I admit . I had been resisting the temptation to cut my wrist when I received my GCE O Level results ... And now ... why am I so careless and cut my hand while helping Mother ?!!? God , are y0u playing some kind of trick on me ?! I am trying to go the rightful way !!! I am trying hard not to be too upset about my results ... Sigh ... Anyway , good news . I was so caught up doing Locus that I don't feel like sleeping ... Good , I'm falling in love with Maths !!!!

What a good way to start my day / weekend . Mum was talking on the phone .. and I did guessed correctly who the caller was . It was that idoit tutor ! He wants to come in the afternoon , at 2pm . I was still lying on the bed when Mum hang up , I got up and Mum broke the news to me ... a very very excellent way to start my day / weekend . I was almost forced to tears by that damn tutor !!! He was forcing me to say the Organic Chemistry substances again and again and again ! What made it worst was that I heard Mum leaving the house , which was like leaving me all alone , facing that idoit tutor .... Anyway , after the tution , I used the computer . Mum asked me to give her a call , I did and she was out at Chinatown . In the evening , I went and deposit my money then I went to shop . A few things caught my eyes .. I was tempeted to buy it ... But ... Well , thinking about my GCE O Level results , how badly I had performed ... FORGET IT !

Excellent !!! Mum spilled my glass of milk onto my Baker Boy's bread and blamed it on me ! What a good way to start my day ... Mum even left for work without me ... Sigh .. I am such a bad daughter ... School can't be better .... I got C6 for my GCE O Level Chinese ... Merit for my Oral ... Just a little to more to Distinction . And if I got Distinction for my Oral , maybe I am able to get C5 for my overall !!!! Sob !!! Isn't it irony ?!!? Knowing that you are able to get it but you can't ... That feeling - useless , failure , disppointment , aimless , all my hopes crashes ... That age old feelings are all back when I saw my results ! ANy my CHinese Teacher arn't helping me at all , she asked me TWICE if I want to retake my Chinese .... I have not even accepted that fact that I AMLOST FAILED my GCE O Level Chinese and there she was , FORCING me to retake my Chinese .... What made it worst was that thoese who got B3 , B4 are all dying to retake that DAMN subject ! If Bs students retake that Language , what about the Cs students ?! Do they have a choice if they want to retake or not ?! NOPE ! IT"S ALL DEAD END ! Anyway ... with all thoses thoughts in mind , I'ms suprised by my reaction ... I messaged Miss Ong , Enrique and Steve . Oh , yup , I smuggled my Handphon to School . Miss One never reply me ... Sob sob sob ! Enruque was the best , he encouraged me , he told me that A1 and A2 are achievable . Steve ? Hm , he did reply back to me .. but I forgotten what he said ...

1127/03 at 14:15 . Got that ?! It's GCE O Level English Language Part 3 at 2.15pm . Miss Ong caught me sleeping , I mean , I was just having a nap , I was really very tired ... Sigh ... Miss Ong must be very angry with me ... Angry and disppointed . This year , the picture is about some maids , lining up with a plate of curry puffs on their hand , waiting to fried it . The invigilators asked funny question , " what accident might occure . " Candidate ( me ) gave silly answer . Both invigilators carried on asking , " describe what course you will take when you go to Collage or University . " I was speeachless .... Firstly , my brain took a very long time to realized that collage means , Junior Collage ... Secondly , I am aiming for Poly .. what has those Collages and University got to do with me ? The candidate responded , " I am aiming for Poly . IF I go Poly , at least there is a course which I like and have interest in . When you study somethiny you like , you are able to do better . " What was that ?! Gee , I also don't really know what I answered . Anyway , I don't know what the invigilators asked next , but I recalled telling them that in the newspapers , there are arcticles which features University graduates working at Hawker Centres . It brought smiles on their faces ... Oh my !? What had I done !? I went back home and brought Baker Boy ... I bumped into Brother as well . Kai XIn came and gave me tuition at night .

Day after National Day . Mum got to wrok again .. but Brother and I stayed at home . Brother and I had noodles and a can of pork ribs for lunch . I cookd for dinner too .

It's National Day today ! Hehe .. well , but nothing much . Stayed at home the whole day . Mum sat me down after breadfast and asked , " you want to go for you second Empower U right ? " I nodded my head . Mum contuintued , " ok , then you help your Brother to clear up his room .. you clear up yours too . " Fine ! I started with Brother's room . But Mum soon took over the job . HELLO !? If you want to clear the room , then do it yourself ! Why ask me !? ARGH ! Mum left with Dad in the afternoon and they brought food home .

There was performance in School for me .... being a CHinese Dancer for 4 years , I guess , I had become used to the ideal of dancing for people ... To me , performances is just like thoses numberous practices we had . I felt kind of bad as I did not go out wit Leo as intented . He wants my violin , but I refuse to meet him today as I am having my menses , not forgetting the cramps ! However , I went to West Mall with Brother and Steve ... Brother left after getting his stuffs and I was left with Steve . Steve wanted to catch a movie but I turned down the offer as I have tuition at 7.30pm . Out of the blue , Steve asked me if I have cried for someone before ... and all the past came back to me . I went home and cooked . I ate finish and was waiting for that idoit tutor to come .. I lied on my bed , waiting for him ... until 8pm . Fine ! He's not coming . IDOIT !

It was such a nice day today . Jacky came and said , " Hey . your CME group is burning passion right ? " " Huh , yes . " " Miss Ong wants to see your group during recess , all the cans fell off . " We intercall Miss Ong and reworked the cans . There was Literature course from 2pm to 5pm . The instructor asked me to be her partner in acting , and well , actually nobay intented to clap , but the instructor called my class , " give her a round of appulse , " then , people started clapping . Sob , I'm pathetic right ?! Kai Xin came and gave me tuition at night .

Okay , it's Wednesday again . Time for some "exercise " . Haha ... School was okay today . I'm a bit sleepy these days . I don't know why . Anyway , I planned to reply to Sok Ee's message today in School , but I never get around in doing it ! It had been quite some time since I last seen my both senior . Realy miss those wonderful moments I've spent with them . Those joy and laughters ... those times we quarrel and fight . Haha . Before I report for Chinese Dance practice , I practiced English Oral with Ai Hui . Sigh .... it's really funny to see me reading passages after passages . I never practice for Oral . But since I want to score well for my English , I guess hard work is able to do the trick .... I checked my Handphone when the Chinses Dance Practice ended . Ms Ong had messaged me . I took the chance to ask her something ... when I receive her reply , she was kind of angry or something . I don't know , and hopefully I'm wrong ... Anyway , Ms Ong promised to tell me tomorrow in School . I slept after bathing , with both my Handphone and House phone by by bedside . Mum called and woke me up , but I contuined sleeping . It wasn't long before Dad called and said he would be late tonight . Fine ! I finally drag myself up and made dinner . I don't know why , but I was craving for Ham . I took it out and realized that I had Breadfast Set for Lunch ! Nevermind , then I feel like cooking eggs . I added the cheese , but somehow , my egg became scramble eggs .... I ate all alone . Mum finally came home and she praised my cooking skills ! Yeah ! I did my Chemistry after watching Superstar with Mum . Thank God that I had completed most of them druing the June Holiday ! Hard work would give you less work in future !

Hm , nothing much happened today ... Well , I brought my Handphone to School today and I messaged Enrique . He was asking me if I did go forward yesterday during the Sevcice .... Well , I don't know , but somehow , I wish that he would understand . I had not been going to City Harvest Church for the past few months , you can say that I'm spirtical dried up .... So how am I able to feel God's pressence ? Haiz ... anyway , he never reply me till late at nigth and by that time , I was far too tired to reply . A number of people contected me , Melody was one of them . She reminded me that there would be Chinsese Dance practice tomorrow .... Well , she's becoming a good leader ! Imelda messaged and called me twice . I read her message , think she was reminding me that there would be Chinsese Dance Practice tomorrow , but she called twice , which I never realized that ! Haiz .... Maybe I've misread the message or something !? God , I sure wish that Imelda know that there's practive tomorrow . What if she called to ask about the ditails or something ?! Okay ... anyway , I got to cook again . I called Brother and he claimed that he's coming home , after that , I report to Mum that I'm back home . So , I cooked the meal and waited for Brother . When he never turn up at 6.30pm , I called him and he said he would only be home at 8.00pm . I shouted at him over the phone and he said , " Be back at 7.59pm . " I hang up on him . I ate alone and everyone came back . When Mum came back , the first thing she said to me was , " I've told you to add the sause and the meat together before you cook it .... blah ... blah ... blah . " Haiz .... terrible boring ! Hello ! I'm cooking ! Be happy about it !