Sorry … But I can’t stand it anymore . I guess … one of us just have to sacrifice … I don’t mind … I mean it … I really don’t . Why should I mind it , when you called and said , “ I am so happy that I can go out with you . ” I was over cloud nine . Brought two magazine from Buzz and I received a big goody bag and a handbag . Couldn’t concentrate on work … Got caught by boss when I was doing other stuff … twice . But oh well … How can that hold a candle to the wonderful day we are going to have tomorrow ? I love you . I can't wait for tomorrow !

The gang met up after School and we tried our health education project …. Argh ! There are so many stuffs I have to do in order to announce that I’ve completed the whole project . We had MacDonald’s … take away and we just hang around outside the lecture room . Left with the gang and I met Brother at Orchard . Shopped at Far East Plaza where I brought a new pair of black heels … it’s meant for work …. Actually being dated by him instead … at night . Was planning to meet him after went shopping with Brother … but well … too bad … what to do … I can’t blame the government , can I ? Never turn up for practice today … I don’t know that there was practice today until Yi Jun messaged me , which was in the late afternoon when I was with Brother ..… He called at night …. I miss you … So what’s the plan now ? Why … What happened … Why is it so hard … I just wanted to meet , to spend to some time with you … Even if it’s just an hour or so … I am delighted … But … It seems impossible . I really miss you … I do .

Can't wait for School to end ... All of us are heading to the library and everyone brought her laptop expect for Min Hui . Min Hui , Amanda , Janani , Wei Hua and Yee Ping . Used Yee Ping's 30GB Creative and transferred all Amanda's movies into my laptop ... Wow ... really loved Amanda's movie collections ...

Went for practice ... Was in the computer lab before that . And I was being hurried ... Tried to finish all my projects .... But failed . Missing you . Loving you .

Learn CPR today .... I can never get the compression and ventilation correct . And the test is coming ... This is your second day ... wonder how you are , are you adapting well ? Hope that everything is fine .... I miss you .

Went to Vivo city before School to buy some stuffs . Had Superdog for lunch .... School .... Finally saw my gang again after 2 weeks of break .... And there's only 2 hours of lecture only . Stayed back to use computer ... and went for Cheer leading . Him ... I told you everything ... So glad that you are so understanding and that you are not jealous or anything .... I love you .

Went for work ... Was assigned to the Sparks side ... Lucky Edison was around to relief me during my lunch break , where he helped me to paste the stickers . Was rushing my work .... Argh ! School starting tomorrow ... And I never really spent any time properly with him ... How I miss him .

“ Hello . ”

“ Yes ? ”

“ What ? Why are you so angry ? ”

“ Nothing … ”

“ I haven even pack my camp bag . ”

“ Where are you posted to ? ”

You replied me … it sounds familiar .

“ Then ? ”

I wanted to know , what is that camp all about … most probably you had told me before …

Do you like that camp ?

Is that where you wanted to go ?

"Confinement . I have things to do , call you later .”

My heart broke …

Where’s the 5 words we used to say … the promise … Why does it feel so strange … and weird .

After a few minutes …

“ Yes ? ”

“ Just to tell you that I have lots of things to do . Will call late . ”

“ Bye . ”

" Bye ... "

Where's my 5 words ?

It's my last day as a tempt admin … I am going to miss the people … the feeling … “ Office ” feeling .. And of cause .... Li Ping !!! She even dated me for lunch and helped me out with the graduation !!!! I am so going to miss her … And Michelle … I might not be able to see her again .. So sad … 2 of my very best friends whom I hang out with during my tempt admin work … They helped me to pull through … Thanks girls !! Took my time to prepare for Cheerleading … Reached home at 11pm plus … Yes !!! Tomorrow morning !!!

Everything was so wonderful , it was such a surprise .

With you around , that’s all I need . To have happiness , to feel fortunate , to be the luckiest girl in the whole world .

My friend managed to Bluetooth me nokia’s themes !!!

Had been looking for it for quite some time .

You were online !

I was so happy !!!

If only I have a webcam , you would have seen me brimming , smiling from ear to ear .

Though you were missing in action for a few minutes , and you left after a short conversations , the smile you left on my face is always there

How hard , or how simply is it to understand someone ? Sometimes , it seems so hard but when you explained it , I understood . Thought I don't really like your idea , your train of thoughts , it sounds practical nevertheless . But why does it seems that I am always out of the picture ? Yes , I know that you had been forced to grow up to be an extremely independent man . But now that I am part of your life , shouldn’t you include me in your future too ?

Marriage , buying a house … it requires two person’s love . How can you be the only one . Yes , I know that you cared for me , but I care for you too , my love .

You have your dreams , your work and studies . I have mine too . I don’t expect either of us to put down our duties , what I wanted was to merge . We try to fit into each other’s life .

I guess I never tell you before … but somehow , you made me want to accept everything about you , try to understand you as much as I can ( I KNOW THAT I CAN BE BETTER THAN HER ! ) and spent the rest of my life with you .

No matter how we fight , I am always assured of your love .

I love you , I want to cry no more .

It was supposed to be a day of you and me ... a day with all our plans . You did went all the way with me to get informations .. you got no idea how much I love you for that . A date ... But why ... You left me just like that ( without your wish , I know ... ) Did I tell you that the next bus I board ... it was the same bus ? What happened to our plans .... I have no idea ... I knew that you were sorry ... it arn't your fault ... I just miss you , and wanted to spend the day together with you only . Had the attitude been rude or unreasonable , apologise . Beger .

Simply can't wait for my work to end ... Still have to do anknowledgement letters ... Argh ! I want to slack ... It's play time !

Had to work again , but this time round … my pay is so much higher !!! Yeah ! Assigned to East Wing for today … 3 classes in the morning , 2 in the afternoon … Slacked , signed into MSN Messenger where he told me that he would meet me tonight ! I was so happy ! I can’t wait to knock off … But when I called him , I realized that he actually went gaming … No wonder he was so nice … Ate with him at the Taiwan restaurant … You are simply spoiling me ! Why are you so nice to me , my love ? Maucks . I love you … I just want to wake up in your arms every day , knowing that you are just by my side . To kiss you good morning and go for breakfast hand in hand with you . To kiss you good night and sleep in your arms .

Boss allowed me to report at 10am … An hour later … But I did not get my extra sleep , work at 7am as usual … Worked till 8pm again … Had to help another girl … Li Ping , to call the pupils as a class was canceled . Li Ping actually ended work at 6.30pm , but she work till the same time as me . Mum and Brother went out , I was to have dinner myself … Called him , he said he was reading , and would call back later . I had chicken noodles for dinner and went to shopped . Bumped into 1 of my Secondary School friend … Went home , bathed and everything … Still nothing form him !!!!! I was disappointed , it turned out that he was still reading books . Never mind . As long as I am with you .. able to hear you voice every day and night , before I turn in … Hearing you telling me those 3 words … I am happy , delighted .

Work again …. Printed the announcement letter … The printer is crazy … I love you … Thank you for such a wonderful day yesterday … I love you again .

Can’t wait for work to end today … I just can’t wait !!! Met him and we went for dinner at Kou Fu when he ordered hor fan , carrot cake and a bowl of dumplings . Being fed was such a fortunate thing … Happiness … Love … We even at ice cream together …. I love you … Don’t leave me … Maucks

It was such a surprise ! I bumped into Brenda when I exit from the train ! We met and had lunch with 1 of her friend … Merging again … I had to do the letters for all the parents and somw of them don’t have the “ # “ inside the system ! I was told to go inside each and everyone’s system to update … This is getting crazier … !!! I even worked till 8pm when I am suppose to end work at 7pm ... lucky I never meet him or anything ... Yeah ! I love you … I can’t wait .

Was late for 15 minutes today , so ended work at 7.15pm … It was so tiring … Mail merge after mail merge … Argh ! I am going crazy … Worst , there was always mistakes … I am just wasting papers … I am just killing all those green trees . I am so sorry my love. What’s the plan now ? I love you … I miss you !

Hm , assigned to Biz 3 Lobby A for today , with another guy . I passed my work to him . He helped me completed it within such a short time span .. Haha . I did the filing instead … Before I left , Joanne and the guy told me that Grace was looking for me . I managed to contact her . Oh no … Sorry my love . I had to work throughout the whole of my 2 weeks holiday ! With just a $6 per hour pay …. However … if I don’t work , I wont get a single cent … My theory , or motto … if there’s work , just do it . There’s a chance for you to earn money , earn it … but with considerations of the type of work and payment . I love you . I want to spent all my time with you … Don’t be angry … I want to meet you no matter what … I will try my best to meet you .. I love you .

Was assigned to the Biz 3 Lobby B … Well , it was still alright … Nothing much … Yes ! Let's count down , shall we , my love ? Tuesday . Whenever we parted , I wished that the time would fly so that we are able to meet again . But when I am just by your side , I want the time to stand still ....

Had elective test , got to wake up at 6am to mug again … Argh !!! Headache ! There’s so much to learn …. And there was the very least self learning lecture , the lecture had already told us that we just need to study for the first slide , I went to read up the whole lecture !!! What a waste of time . Met up with Brother after School at Orchard . Brother went and used his book voucher . We shopped at the Art Friend too … So many interesting stuffs !!! Headed to Ikea and we shopped at the first floor … Brother found the wooden box he wanted , the size and everything was alright , just that it is not strong enough . Too bad . Went to the level 2 restaurant and had dinner . Continued to shop until the shop close . I miss you . You are coming back … just a few more days … So many stuffs we planned … Really wish to do it with you .

Sat to Ang Mo Kio because I wanted Brenda to Bluetooth me her songs , went to my locker too to grab my jacket .... rushed to the Bioscience Lab for the test ... It was finally over !!! Yeah !!! Well , got some questions wrong ... but other were right ... Would get a pass ... yup ... Went to look for Mrs Chee after class ... Wanted to change my time of reassessment . Really could have hugged her ... she was so extremely nice !! Not only did she searched her schedule so that I could be assisted by her ... she even reminded me to take out my ring on my finger and tie my hair . Sat outside of the clinical lab all by myself .... Wanted to mug for my elective test tomorrow ... But well ... Mrs Chee came , and she assisted another student .... I waited patiently for her ... read my checklist while waiting ... I could have strangled the person who assisted me ... She never give me a chance to verbalize my evaluation , how to document , and she marked me wrong ... Worst !!! For my second part of the test ... she only marked the first two checklist tick , and the rest cross .... Hello !!! I did verbalize!!! She asked me and I told you !!!!! B**** !!! Mrs Chee was talking to another lecture while I just finished my first skill ... I had a peeked on my checklist ...... ALL WAS TICKED !!!!!!! The " pass" had been circled . I could have tear ..... pass ... such a simply 4 letter word ... it seemed so far away , so distance ..... until now ... I had really passed !!!! Now , I thought again ... Why should I failed when I could get a distinction?! Why should I ?! I had proved it to myself about my ability ... I had all ticked !!! So why should I get just a pass !!! I don’t understand it , what wrong had I done to deserve such thing ?! Sorry love .

Woke up at 6am again ... I have to study !!!!! Mu Jie , you can do it !!! You can aim !!! Yar ... right ... If I could .. then why ...... Stayed back with Min Hui and Yee Ping to study Bioscience ... Tomorrow ... Tomorrow ... No more time left !!!!! Yee Ping left ... then I went for my CCA ... It was very tring ... All the guys tried doing single base on me .... Hey ! I managed to do it !!! Stand on a guy's hand with 1 leg only ... Hehe ... but I guess I only succed once ... You were tired , you slept early ... Maucks , I love you . Don't be jealous okay .. I would let you do it too ... Maucks ....

Woke up at 6am to study ... Argh !!! Test is coming and I haven learn much yet ... Argh !!! Decided to give up studying for my Clinical .... I should have passed !!! So what's the point of studying ?? I am aiming ... aiming for my Bioscience Practical ... it was only 2 topic ... surly I can score ?? Surly I am not that bad ?! Went for the toastmaster after School ... Was the timer for the day ... Rushed home , talked to him on bed ... I love you .

Had to stay back for make up clinical lab ... Mrs Chee was so extremly nice , she taught me , 1 on 1 ... Ok , so I was wrong in some place , but it was all minor ... How could I failed ?! Went for practice .... Did I or did I not manage to reach home on time to chat with him ? I can't remember .... I guess I did ... I love you ... Miss you so much .

Work was alright today ... Was given some assigment by Grace . I miss you ...

Work ... Assigned to Lobby B … no class at Lobby A , but never mind … tomorrow , I would be there . Got to go down and get refreshments for graduation . The aunty whom we usually order the refreshments form was out of town … I don’t know what to get … Got about 6 boxes of hotdogs bun . Each box cost $2 , and they contained 4 hotdog bun . Got 12 Delifrance Black Pepper Chicken bread at $1 each . I still have to make a trip back to the Head Office and get the trays … then the in- charge decided to cut the Delifrance stuff … so I had to go back again and get the knife . Boos got for us breakfast , noodles with fish cake and egg .. I had that for lunch . I went to get Mum’s Bio- essence eye bag serum , a facial wash ( I thought I would be meeting him ) and Kotex pad ( forgotten to bring mine and it was the first day ) Went back to work and was asked to buy refreshments again . Brought Delifrance’s 6 different croissant and different types of buns . Went home and slacked .

End of the week again !!! Yeah !!! What's there to look forward to ... Can't meet him . Work ... Had presentation ... Met in School at 8am … So early … Presentation was okay … Just did it anyhow … I lost all hope . School ended early today , there was no elective . Mrs Chee called me on my handphone when I was on my way home ... Argh ... Why ?! Why ... out of som many people , I must waste my time and do make up ... when I know all my skills ?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??????? Why should I waste my time ... Why me ... Went Popular and shopped … Brought a medium hole , a staple remover and a divider . Spent money again . I miss him … But there’s nothing to look forward to .