Sad . I should have stayed until 7pm today ... So sad . I went for yoga with my pal . Haha ... Had a wonderful dinner where we chatted about everything before heading down to Suntec to collect FREE movie tickets . I met him !!! It was fun . Maucks . I love you . How I wish that everyday is just as nice as today . I miss you .

Holidays ! Break ! Broke ! I've got lists of stuffs to do , to be done . Tone of things to get . Oh ... I am going to be so broke !

A nice break . From everything . Went to her to Vivocity . To shop . Was supposed to attend some birthday party ... but we went shopping instead . Got the CD Rom ... and it can't work ! Purchased the screen protector . Met Mum . Changed my hand phone plan , got a new phone ( I paid myself ) . Had dinner . Brought a new pair of black covered shoe . Yeah ! Shopping ! I love to shop ! I love you . Maucks . Missing you .

Finally !!! It's 21st August ! Yeah ! Went shopping during my short half and hour break . NO MORE EXAMS !!!! Oh .. attachments . I asked her , " is the the last time we will be seeing each other ? " She laughed and said , " Yes . " It sounded so final . Nobody seems to care . I planned to take photos . There was somebody ... too bad . Have you ever wonder , how many people had came and left in your life so far ? Hundreds ? Thousands ? You Primary and Secondary friends , and teachers . Your tutor , you tuition centre mates . Your friends from other classes ? What about ... when you're a working adult ? Those colleagues who had left the company . How many people would have came and left ? Had they made any differences in your life ? Had they , in any way , helped you grown ? More independence , learnt more things about life ? What about those laughter you all shared ? Laughter , the best medication . Will they leave a footprint inside your heart , or are they just like any passers by ? " Keep in contact , " maybe you and your friend promised each other . Tell the truth , how often do both of you kept in contact ? Are both of you as close as you both were ? Hang out together , share secrets , gossips .... etc . Oh ... I miss that type of closeness , especially with , friends and / or pals and / or buddies ... etc , like you . Coke , Cloud and 9 . Those times ...

Mum borough me back to the same doctor yesterday night when she reached home . He gave me a jab and I felt somehow better today . It was my first paper yesterday and I can't remember what I did ... Oh my ... 2 lectures crowded around me when I vomited . They brought me to the ladies . It amazes me ... how one can feel okay yesterday , so sick today and got better tomorrow .

I woke up in the morning with headache . I drank 3/4 cup of milk and I vomited . I visited the doctor and I vomited . I reached School and I vomited . Halfway through my FIRST paper and I vomited . Submitted my FIRST paper and I vomited . Woke up after a long nap and I vomited . Tried eating my dinner and I vomited .

This will be my last day before I take a break for my exams . Stress ! I want to shop !!!! 21st August !

Yeah ! I miss and love the good bye kiss . Maucks , I love you .

Time flies ... extremely fast !!! So , the finale was here ... In the end , everyone knew the ending . Alone . It will be the very last time ... we sitting at the back of the tutorial room ... The last time we sitting together at the right hand side of the lecture room . Rushing into the class every morning , late . Leaning my head against her shoulder during lecture . Dozing off ... Lying my head on the small desk during the short break during 2 hours lecture , especially for Bio Lecture . And if she fails to wake me up when the break was over , I would be so mad at her . She would just claimed that she herself was tired too . If 1 of the seats were empty , we would ask each other about it . Sometimes ... we would even message the other person , a gentle message asking if everything is alright . Clinical lab skills assessment ! Oh ... I'm always the genuine pig ! They will always wish me good luck . They would all question me what happened during that half an hour inside the room with the assessor . I would always freak out outside the room , waiting for my turn . She would freak out way before me ... Ha ha ! We would spent our odd 1 hour break at the fountain ... doing nothing . Crapping . Sometimes heading to the nearby north canteen for some take away snacks . If the break was long , like 6 hours , we would just spent our time in the library . Making lots of noise . The hours will always be filled with laughter . Someone would say something . Others will just add on to it . And before we knew it , we would be rolling with laughter . Most of our lunch breaks were spent at Koufu or McDonald's . I enjoyed my time more when we were at McDonald's . Sharing fries . Or McDonald's Big Breakfast ! Projects with them was extremely cool . Everything will be taken care of . Group meetings aren't group meetings at all . The feeling is just different . It's more like we spending time together as friends . Bonding . It felt more like friends being together , cracking their brain for those projects questions . Instead of teammates . The main point of being together is to get the project over and done with . We still remain close despite being split into different groups during the last few semesters . During lunch break , one of both of us have to leave as they have project meetings . We would contact each other again when the meeting ends . Heading to the MRT Station together , we asked each other if we would still keep in contact . I insisted that we MUST ! The times spent with them were golden . I felt so emotional . Oh , what will happen to us 3 years down the road ? Where will we be ? Have we gain more knowledge ? Will we be more experience ?? 3 years down the road , will we be leading the life we've always wanted ? Will our dreams come true ? It that what we really wanted to be ? OH !! I miss them ALL ! Coke , Cloud and 7 .

Everything's on a pause right now . Enjoyment . My shopping spree , clearing my room . Opening up all the purchases I've brought last month . My shopping list . Oh , GPS and a car ! Ha ha ... I want to go AMK hub , The Cathay and Vivocity . Suntec city too . I want to go Chalet and Singapore Flyer too ... I want to clear my room and open up all my purchase and use them . Not forgetting about the printer Brother brough , for me . I want to visit all the websites I've bookmarked and print out all the materials . I want ... I want .... Oh ... Everything's at a pause right now . Everything's " after exams . "

I'm 18 years old and 10 months and I have a driving licence ! Well done . Now , the next war - Exams ! He was extremly sweet . Honey coated . It only makes my heart melts more .... " I want to meet you , " you insisted . And I do too , I assured you . What a wonderful day today . How I wish that everyday is as wonderful .

The weekends left me so drained out that I was knocked out during School . Half dead . The little moments I spent with them for our late lunch ... wonderful ! It's the last week . The thought of that ... How could such a simple thought both encourages and discourages me ? I'm happy to go School . I dread to go School . Somehow , I wish that it remains forever . Our friendships ... Oh no ... I'm feeling scared now . Even Cloud commented that I'm not that nervous for my skills assessment . I hope ... I wish ... I MUST ! Is it possible to love someone you hate so much ? Is it even possible to stop missing ? I've tried ... I swore I did . To be strong . To work myself till I drop dead on my bed , every night ... And yet ... Sleep won't come till I hear you voice , assuring me ... I love you .

I still have not come to an answer , yet . Maybe they will decide for me ? I will just go with the flow . Yeah ! All my presentation ENDED ! Hoary !