I woke up early in the morning at 5.30am , rode to work . Passed by Anna . She saw me .

Then I saw Kan walking ... was behind him . I waited for him to sign in and I signed in as well .

I went inside the room and started Face booking . Was tired , thus I slept a little till he called me and woke me up ...

Slept again and Eve was talking to Robyn .

Slacked a little till it's 10am , time for me to start work . Moon was doing the guy's trials .

I'm doing the usual infection disease trial .

kan was chasing me for the time sheet . Shit ! End of the month already .

I asked him to check dropbox , as usual .... he did not . Argh . Then what's the use ?

Went for lunch at Houseman with Moon and Siew Yin . Siew Yin brought along some drink .

I brought the cup fruits as well . Stayed till 7pm together with Mia . Passed over to Ramya and Anna .

Talked with her till 8pm plus . We ate cookies and sang songs .

She walked together with me to my bike to realized that my left side mirror was nicely placed on the seat .

Rode home left - blind .

Tired . He called me while I was walking to my bike , tried calling him when I reached home and as usual , no answer till he call me hours later .

He slept early . I was still busy clearing my room .

Managed to get ride from Brother to Chinese Garden . So , started work . Took vital signs , bloods , urine , together with Moon and ... sometimes Kan .

Moon went down to Kaffe and Toast for lunch .

I had my lunch over at Kaffe and Toast as well . Some noodles .

The guys subjects kept on teasing me .

He went for his IPPT .

Stayed with Mia till 7pm . Passed over to Ramya , Alvin and Anna .

Stayed back and had left overs of Mutton . I rode home . Miss riding !

I reached home and had Mum's beef rice .

Contacted Brother . Met him downstairs . Went to the OCBC ATM to check balance . Tried to ride out of the ERP parking when it asked me to pay $0.65 !

I called the number provided . Brother drove behind me . So , I managed to get out .... top up petrol and pump my bike wheels air .

Rode back home and it stated " hourly parking " again ....

Morning woke up .... Brother sent me to Chinese Garden MRT . I rushed to my bike , thankfully , my cashcard was still there ....

I was early . Kan was with Shirley , looking at the board .

" You know that you're covering reception for this month ? "

" Yeah , I know . "

" Then why people kept on asking me . "

" I'm not around . "

I asked if I should sign in now ... or later .

" The purpose of signing in is because when there's things like fire drill ... "

" Just now said about code blue , now fire drill . "

So I went to Station 2 where the gang was around .

Started work at 10.00am . Alvin , Moon , Siew Yin and I went all the way to TBM for lunch . We came back and the other staffs went .

I went down again to get my NTUC $5 voucher .

The staffs left one by one . I stayed back together with Jo and Alvin . Nothing much .

I went to Dhoby Ghaut . He said the bus stop right in front of the MRT . But in the end , it was another bus stop across the road !!

Nevermind , anyway , I managed to have a good bus ride home together with him .

I decided to go all the way to the night market to get my Takoyaki .

Bumped into Dad at the post box . Got home with him and I received the very frist Chinese New Year Card from his Family !

I love you .

Night shift finally ended . Passed over to Shirley and Moon . I took the slow transport home . Weekdays ....

I Face book and Internet . Slept .

Woke up at around 2 to 3pm . Mummy was still not home yet . So I had some chiffon cake and milk . Was preparing to go out when she came home .

I biked to SGH . It's 28/01/2013 ! They had set up the new ERP at the car park .

I sat at the Polar Express / Houseman corner near the Staff Clinic . Read my novel , Face book chat with him .

Kan messaged . He was really really very nice ....

She came . We took train to Plaza Singapura . Shopped a little and she went for hair trimming .

Continued shopping and decided to have Ichiban Sushi !!!

YUMMY ! $63.44 .

Most shops were closed by the time we were done . She went to take train .... I went to his School .

Searched for a toilet ... was heading to our meeting place when he called .

We took bus home . I was in the lift when I realized that I left my cashcard in my I.U unit !!!!

I love you .

It's a Sunday and so I biked home . Called him after I parked my bike .

I saw the car and made a grand walk round . Went home . Mummy and Daddy were getting ready for their date when I reached home . I told Mum about it .

I left . Bumped into Mummy at the corridor . She asked me what is that bottle of drink .

I was early , waited for him at the bus interchange .

He came . I love you . We had KFC breakfast at West Mall . YUMMY ! Walked around a little .... at the supermarket . Just like old days .

Waited for the bus and I went home to sleep . I slept till I was almost late for work . Mum made some fried pancake / prata for me . I brought a packet of chicken rice from the MRT stall as well .

Same . Took over from Anna and Si Ning . I take care of the lady , while Jo took care of the guy .

Peaceful . I had bean curd and apples in the middle of the night as well .

Tired .

I had a very good nice sleep in Room 4 after passing over to Anna and Si Wei .

9am .... I headed down to Scape . There were so many bikes !!! I fell in love with one of them . My feet can totally touch the ground , but it's like $6000 to $7000 .

I love it !!

Ken came , I got the teddy bears . We walked around at the event . Then took 502 home .

I reached home around 1pm plus . Bathed and slept . Mum woke me up at around 2.30pm for lunch . Mum made chicken / chicken chop and chicken wings , some instant noodles , eggs and fries . There was yogurt as well . Yummy . And I continued sleeping after that .

Woke up . It was almost 5.30pm ! Was totally tired . Dropped by 7-11 and got bean curd and apples inside a cup . $3.44 .

Tonight with Jo , she said I in charge of the lady , she'll take the guy .

I kept on thinking about the bike , it's just perfect for me . Nice .... but how to get it ?!!?

So , shift ended . Was supposed to pass over , but was busy . Mia passed over to Anna and Kan . Left ....

I called him when I reached home . We hung up and I fell asleep ! Woke up and dragged myself to bath and ate the cream cakes Mum prepared .

Slept all the way till around 4pm . Woke up and Face book . Till I slept again .

Was slightly late for work . Took over from Anna and Kan . Night together with Ramya .

Dislike my shifts .... Complained , complained , complained .

We ordered McDonald's delivery . Special Beef Prosperity Meal !!! $11.15 , I think .

Yummy . I had cup fruits as well , to munch on .

Woke up only at 11.30am plus . Face booked ....

Decided to go for a swim . I went . 6 laps , as usual . I was not tired at all . But I was in a rush of time ... so I left .

I drop by the post office to collect my back support and went home .

Cleared everything and left . Went to Jurong East and had facial .

Took train to Outram , brought some noodles for dinner . Was slightly early , so I went to 7-11 . Got the cheese hot dog , siew mai and some chips ... $9.72 .

Took over from Alvin and Anna .

Luckily she was there , so I managed to share with her a little about yesterday's call . She packed up and left with her Hubby . So sweet and nice .

So , as usual . The whole place was like a war zone .

4 dengue , 3 guys and 1 girl .

1 subject left after blood taking , and another Hypertension study .

Dinner was not served ....

The alarm should have went off for quite some time . I reached and saw the timer had already stop .

Served the dinner , cleared all the urine since 5pm .....

What's new ?!

Tired . He went to his friend's house .

I got nothing to say .

Speak less ....

I'm tired . Just do whatever you want .

Time checked on the petrol receipt , 5.57am . $5.07 . Rode to work . Smooth good ride !!!

Managed to reach by 6.32am . Late by 2 minutes . So , took over from Mia and Shirley . Was so tired .

Tired , tired , tired .

Wish that I could sleep in longer ... especially when I knocked out at 9.30pm yesterday . Ken called and woke me up . But I never answer his 1.30am plus call !

Yesterday , I don't wish to know where everyone had been . I just don't give a damn anymore . You do whatever you want . I have my own standard .

I miss the team works of the wards . Jo , Vicky , Belle ... So many so many ....

They never reply my message . So sad .

Today .... there was no difference .... no difference till there was problem with the diet . It was not serve .

I tried to delay my lunch time ... tried to but still failed . Had vegetables rice from Houseman .

I was happily having lunch with Sue when Kan came in and asked , " why was the diet not served ? "

So , I left and was being stuck ed right outside of the Subject's room , once again , with Sue and Kan again .

She came to the nurse station as well . Wanted to pass the booking form to Kan . Complained that there was no stamp chop , no acknowledgement of any form . But it was scheduled .

They began fighting when I supported her and commented , " what's wrong with you today ? "

" Was it my fault ? I'll work till I die , " and I left .... to return the drug .

His reply was , " yeah , I wanted to talk to you about it . "

I ran away , from every thing , keeping myself busy ...

She came in and started complaining . Claiming about the " unfairness " of all about her plans for the next day .

Finally passed over to Shirley and Mia . I was the one who passed over . Since it was my fault about the diet .

I went to His School . Had Mr Bean Soy Milk with Papaya ... don't like the taste !

Wanted to get bean curd , but out of stock , so I got the soy pudding , as recommended by Kyreen . Nice !

And the cup fruits which I got during lunch ... wanted to share with her but we were so so busy !!!

He came , smiling .... I started complaining , about the phone call I received , and the email I was about to receive ....

He wanted me to hurry , and he don't want to have my leftovers ....

We went inside his school library first before taking bus home .

Where I complained and complained ....

And he comforted me . Assured me that it would be alright ....

I love you .

Rode to work .

Bernard and Alvin were around . Luckily . Thanks to them , there wasn't a lot of work ....

Lunch ... Kan went down to get duck rice . Actually plan to have lunch with her ....

So ... Bernard left ...

Slowly .... everything got go messed up !

I got nothing to comment ! Whatever !

Cleared urine , update intake ....

Whatever .

Best . HE FORGOT ABOUT HIS PHONE AGAIN !

So , time passed . Whatever . Whatever . Whatever .

Kan asked me twice , or thrice ....

I don't know .

I had dinner ....

" Patient leftovers " of Mutton , potatoes and long beans . Called Ken . I was missing in action .

It was almost 8pm when I left . Wish I could clock in that hours as well . Rode home . Thankfully that it was a ... good ride . There were traffic , but still manageable .

I prepared and headed straight to bed . 9.30pm . Knocked out ever so early !

Good night meow . I know that I was just releasing all my anger and all on you . Thanks for what you said , for being there for me . Working hard together towards our future . I love you .

So , I stayed home , work up only at 11am plus . How I wish that I'm working .

So bored !

He called and ask me to go over , but I can't . So sad ! Was so angry and mad that I text ed Hui Ying Cousin .

I called Dad . He was at Red hill .

I went to the Library and got the book cross books , met him at the Jurong East MRT station . Had dinner . Ee Main with dumplings .

Had 7-up . I sent Dad to take 98 and I went to his School .

Waited for just a while when he called . We walked to the bus stop and took bus ...

Home .

I don't care ! I don't give a damn !

Good night !

Tomorrow 7am to 7pm . So ?! Your precious bloody son needs to work tomorrow morning , then what about me !?

Don't need ?!

Finally ended another round of 4 nights with Anna . Passed over to Kan and Jo . Left .

Rode home and reached by 7.30am . Dad was still sleeping . Mum made chee chong fun for me and I slept .

I got Dad to help me return my library book and I stayed home .

Zzz . Tired .

Angry !

I'm not working tomorrow !

Took train all the way to Dover with Anna .

Tired .

So ... I kept myself awake ... slept on the sofa till 10am plus , when he finally decided to wake up and call me . And refused to let me to to his house with his kitties .

Slept .... 12pm to around 4pm ...

Rode to work . It was raining ! I was falling sick and now I rode on the expressway in the rain !

Another subject !

3 subject .

Took over from Jo and Ramya .

He went out for family dinner . His parents anniversary . I could not make it . So sad . He was telling me that his Mum was asking him about us . And he wanted me to move in together with him .

Oh ... and plans for Scooter ....

So , we passed over to Ramya and Mia . Was leaving when Ramya , who was checking the trolley , said that she liked it that I took the picture ...

It was actually meant to sent over to her ....

Dragged myself home . Was very tired ...

Woke up ... slacked a little ... went for work .

Took over from Jo and Alvin . Was so angry !!! My wall picture !

Same , 2 subjects ....

I had some teriyaki chicken meal .... and nasi lemak much later at night .

Passed over to Ramya and Shirley .

Tried . Had some sleep in the morning ....

Rode home . Gosh ! The traffic ! Should have waited till 10am or something .

Ken called over the night .

Finally reached home . Face book , computer , Internet a while .

So , I slept a little ....

I don't need any artificial tears drop .... I was thinking about it ...

Why ?!

10am to around ... 1.30pm .

Was supposed to have Saka Sushi with Ken at he Trade Hub 21 , but ended up , he was busy .

Mum made westen food for me again ! Hash brown , nuggets , french fries , potato wedges , kid's yogurt !! YUMMY !

Dragged myself to work .

Slow transport . Then I text-ed everything to Artz and WH .

I reached and just sat inside the Nurse Station . Anna came and commented something like , " so it was you . "

She was me while we were both heading for work .

Kan asked something about my motorbike ....

I think I ignored them . Was listening to the radio and in a total mess ... Sorry . Caught me at the wrong time .

Took over from Kan and Mia . 1 Japan study , 2 dengue .

Anna asked me to take over the Japan study since the guy only know Mandarin .

I opened up the schedule . Off for Monday and Tuesday .

He still have the cheek to tell me !!! Was so angry !! No ! Don't want !

Don't complain tired like last time .

Argh ! I thought I had already explained myself ....

Night was peaceful . There were some cakes in the fridge from Doctor Jenny's new born baby shower .

Had it with Anna ... He called .

Luckily Anna was in her own world by then or something ....

I used up 3 tissues ... and more .

I hate you !

I woke up and prepared . Had the noodles Mum prepared and headed down to Dhoby Ghaut . Waited for him . We went to the bank and he left .

Had some meal at Mos Burger ... was heading to the train station when I bumped into Kame .

I was almost an hour early . I used the computer .... Saw Eve .

With Anna . There was only one hypertension subject . Received over from Alvin and Mia .

He called at 10pm plus .... he was on the way home .

11pm , 12 mn , 1am , 2am ....

I tried calling him again but there was no reception !

Brother sent me to Chinese Garden MRT . Worked . Nothing much . The subject only stay in for infusion .

Sneaked out for lunch with her . We went to the OT games booths and had so much fun playing the Wii . We decided on salad at O'Brains . Nice !

Talked ... then we get the soy pudding form Mr Bean . Went back ...

Luckily he was online . Managed to contact Artz and WH as well . But they changed location ! From Ang Mo Kio to Toa Payoh ! M1 service was down and I could not contact him .

He called me when he reached Ang Mo Kio ... asked him to come down to Toa Payoh instead .

Artz came ... he came ... we went up to the interchange to meet WH .

Walked all the way to Aston's at Sarfa . Had a lovely meal ... they kept on talking ....

Argh ! He was angry , very angry .

We finished our meal and had milk tea at Mos Burger where they continued talking .

We took 157 home where he ignored me . 

He called at night ....

Brother sent me to the Chinese Garden MRT . Worked . Partnered with Mia for the hypertension study . There were night shifts ....

Had lunch with Pris and Hui Ann . We went all the way to SNEC . Had cup fruits with her as well . We ended up staying inside Room 5 .

Talk talk talk .

So , I left and met Sok Ee at Jurong Point Pizza Hut . $24.72 . Was laughing so much till my tummy hurts . Went to Popular where Sok Ee got her Glass Deco things .

Brother called and ordered for OK Tea . $4.80 . Got it went went to meet him at our usual place . I drove and sent Sok Ee home . Then drove to SPC to top up petrol .

Brother drove home .

I headed down to the airport . Saw his parents ... and he finally came out !

We drove to the food court to get some food and went home . Had chicken rice .... and he passed me my gifts . Rested a while and we went out .

His Dad and he went to West Mall M1 . His Mum sent me home .

There was nobody at home . Dad came back later and I decided to go out . I went to Jurong Point's John Little sale . Got the night sleeping face cream . 2 for $29.00 . Then took 198 to the Jurong East Library and got the Book cross books .

Went home and Dad was out ... Dad came home and thought of going down for dinner . But I was too lazy . He went down alone instead . Mum came home .

Dad came home with my pack of vegetables rice .

Was waiting and waiting for him to call ... he finally did .

I don't know why ....

So , was online at my own sweet time ... till almost 1pm when the post office was about to close and I rushed down to collect my parcel !

Yeah ! The kitties had arrived safely , finally ! Tomorrow , tomorrow , it would be his turn , the real big fat kitty meow !

Went to wait for Mum . Picked her up . We walked thought the void decks to some vegetarian stall and had my lunch . Walked .... went to the POSB and withdraw money for her .

Went home and slept ....

Cousin Hui Zhen came . Went down to the night market with her . Nothing much actually . So , Kelvin and Shawn came . We had steamboat .

Tired .

Was glad that I'm on night call today . Can't believe if I had to wake up and reach for work at 7am in the morning !

It would be my 12th / 13th straight day of work .... since the New Year .

A New Year , a New beginning ....

Managed to contact him ....

Disappointed .

Just as I thought that everything , finally , would change . Start all over again .... when it's all back to square 1 .

Gosh ! Having part 2 everyday after work , I woke up at 11am plus only . Messaged ... so , got to go for work ....

Was so very late ... I rushed in straight into the meeting room , since I was like 17 minutes late ... and was being stared at . Must be my attire , again ....

So ... meeting ended . Had a little break where I gobbled down my breakfast of bread and milk . Had code blue practice . Ended smoothly .

So , got to top up the trolley for the monthly check . Someone / somebody wanted me to help out .

I explained that I'm going down with Bernard to collect our pharmacy stock of normal saline , ordered by yours truly . Yeah , what time will I be back ? 5.30pm , I think ....

Back . Ken was calling .... It was raining . Bernard and I put back all the stocks . Then he left . Hui Ann came in to look for me . Said that I'm on shift tomorrow with Shirley and to pass the envelope to her ....

So , I was just actually standing around with Alvin and Ram who were topping up the trolley .

The last checked was by me and Bernard .... ARGH !

I believe and felt that we did a good job . I checked the roster ... Asked Mia for permission and requested to change shift . Of course , was being asked for a reasonable explanation . I believe that TIRED is a very good valid excuse - especially after working for 12 straight days , yeah ???

I got " scolded " . That was the reason why I was on call today . " Please inform earlier next time . " I think he really hates me ! I looked at him .... no comments . There was nothing I can say to retort back . He was right . I was in the wrong . It was my fault . But basically , in the end .... it was just a big fat white lie which I don't wish to lie further . Full stop . So I simply just stared / looked at him .... and left .

It was done . Pushed the trolley out of the station with Alvin when he asked if I was doing anything ... Failed attempt at acting busy . He said he got things / need me to to help ... etc .

The silly stupid me just simply followed . I INSISTED that it was not the PPA period . Furthermore , I had done it before . What did she say / what did you say ?

NOTHING . Okay , so basically , obviously ,  it was the wrong answer . The first wave had passed ... so now is the second wave ....

Trapped , with now where to run ... nobody to turn to .... What's the point , I wondered . So I'm being forced to blurt out the basic hourly rate calculator ...

I was finally being let out after " 2 years " ....

I was late , overtime . Was waiting for the lift when Mia and Kan came . We walked to the MRT . They took purple line while I took the green line home .

Brother was home late .

Tired . Managed to Skype with him . My day is complete . Period . Of course , complained to him !!!

7am , again . So , I bumped into Er .... I don't know . But it felt weird . Felt so distance .... Where was the Sisterhood ? Where had our Sisterhood gone to ? Sad , sad , sad . And Sharon . When was the very last time I saw her ? Sometimes ... I wonder ... are we still Sisters ? We are so distance .

So , work .... I just did the same thing . Parameters , bloods , parameters , blood . They left . Everything was settled . Had Kopitiam vegetables rice . $3.20 .  So , I am supposed to go home at 4.30pm . But I was busy writing the wheelchair incident report ... till late !

She messaged me at 5.10pm that she brought some fruits . I was done by then ... so I went to look for her and we had a good chat . It was so nice talking to her . Everything .... Stayed till late .... 6pm plus .

Left the unit with Norita , Elnora and her . Elnora went towards the taxi stand . Norita walked down towards the East West Line . I walked to the Purple Line with her ....

Changed train to Circle Line and to Green Line to Red Line . Took the shuttle bus and reached the center .

Sat at the shuttle bus area and use my ipad . I saw Vic and Leong . Leong actually even stop in front and talked to me . It was almost time , as expected , I bumped into Brother at the walkway . I took the car key from him to put my bag . I went to the waiting room ... finally found him . He gave me his half eaten waffle . Soon .... it was his turn . I went out to meet Ken . Just sat down and talk . Wanted to go in and look for Brother .

Finally managed to go in . Brother came ... Waited for the debrief . Ken left . Brother and I went to get the car . I drove . So , I was on the center lane , wanted to turn to left lane to get into the split lane ... when I saw Vic on my left . He smiled at me , slowed down , and let me turn in front of him , while he changed to my lane and continued riding straight ....

Zzz ...

I drop by Esso to top up petrol . Frequent riding these few days . $4.50 .

I was early . Soon , Mia and Kan came . Took over .

Saw her !!! Then she said she got NEWS for me !!!!

Study .... too bad Ken was not in , if not it would be fun ! So , parameters , bloods , parameters , bloods . I don't know I did how many rounds .

Bernard was around , till 12pm . We ordered KFC . Thought of having it with her .... but she had it already .

So , KFC with Kan , Yas and Mia . Mia had Korean food . Oh ! So , I just went in to the tea room , when Kan came in as well . There were only both of ours left . He took out the original ... another box was crispy , which I don't want . So , the BRAVE me snatched the box from him , right in front of everybody ! What the hell was I thinking ! He said I don't need to report for work tomorrow . I was fired . I think he hate me forever .

Everything was settled ..... She was updating me about the news and this Kan kept on printing the time points and ear dropping on us !

We only managed to chat half way .

I re winded the CCTV to tracing the " missing " wheelchair . CLEVER confidence me ! Was saying so proudly and loudly that the wheelchair I last used belonged to SGH since there was the pole .... and hey there ! The CCTV shows no sign ! I actually let the subject took / push our wheelchair out right under my nose ! Everybody saw the stupid me inside the room . ARGH !

Tomorrow got to go wheelchair hunting with Mia ....

Oh , tomorrow the same trial ..... with Kan . Die ! Hoped I did well today ....

So , I trained down to meet Sok Ee . Was so late !

We shopped at Jcube .... Saw this cat pouch , $8 .

Sticker , $3 for 1 ... but 2 for $5 . So I added on some clips to make it 2 for $5 .

Saw a few nice clothes .... did not get any .... really ! I have total self control over myself .

Till I saw this T - shirt of a girl wearing a kitty cat hat . I knew that I simply got to get that ! $15.90 .

So , we had dinner at this Kung Fu Paradise . The pasta was nice . I tried some of Sok Ee's share as well . YUMMY ! My treat , since I never give her anything for Birthday , Christmas , New Year . $28.00 .

We had a great chat .... talking about love . How that guy is coming back ... and me badly wanting to experience road trips .

She and her QQ is very sweet also . Tomorrow going for anniversary celebration . So good .

We went to the NTUC as Sok Ee need to get stuffs for tomorrow . Shopping . I got some things as well . Was at the cashier when I realized that I left my NTUC Visa card in my riding jacket this morning ! I actually felt something when I was keeping my jacket ! ARGH ! $18.25 .

So , I paid by cash . And we took 99 home together . He called . Hehe . Scolded me for shopping without telling him ....

Just admit it if you miss me .

I love you .

I woke up after don't know how many hours of sleep .

Rode slowly to the place .... I managed to reach . He was having frequent diarrhea so he said he would shower in the afternoon . And he asked his wife not to call the PT to come . He was too tired .

Some painter came . Time passed .

The maid went down to gee Mee Rubus for him . I ordered Mee Siam . It was almost 1pm when I ate .

I just used my ipad for the whole day . I offered twice to bring him to toilet to shower . He refused . He even shouted at me when I opened the door when he was inside the toilet with his wife .

Okay .....

It was drizzling when I left . Got to ride home . Actually was messaging with Sok Ee .... she was at Jcube . But we did not meet in the end .

Messaging with Andrew as well . He was telling me about bike racing .

I watched another DVD . Some stupid show .... Mum made some western for me again . I wanted to go and shower but she said we got to go downstairs at 8pm to book the flea market . So I just had a " nap " till 9pm plus ....

Opps !

So I woke up .... Face book .... and slept ....

Managed to Skype with him ..... I complained to him ... GUYS ! He was saying about pride and all ..... But I was just trying to help , that was all !

Tomorrow , 7am ....

So I slept throughout the night . Rushed off once Kan signed  in . Really sorry .... but I doubt anybody / nobody can understand . Last night , but not sleeping day .

Sorry Mia ... Really thank you ....

Kan asked me to be careful / safe . I rode to the Heights . Oh , the staff actually messaged me the report at 6am plus !

So , he was sitting in the living room when I reached . Very early ....

Brought him for assisted shower . Actually , I just assisted him to the toilet . Done . Dressing of the tube . The tube over the right abdomen was out , but the left feeding tube was still around , so I flushed it .

Time dragged on . The maid left the get McDonald's for us . Yummy , fattening !

The PT came .... He seems more cheerful . Anyway , he was really very different from when I last seen him . More energy , more strength . I hardly even assist him at all .

He was sleeping when I left . So his wife said she would do the second flushing .

I crossed over the bridge and met Ken . He went to the NTUC Income . We walked back to my bike and he gave me the directions home . Out to the Science Center ..... to the usual route Brother and I used to take after my afternoon shift ....

I miss those days with Brother ..... When I was still a very new rider where he accompanied me ..... those days . Night riding . It was fun .

So , I rode home . Showered . Watched DVD . Scooby Doo !

Did not plan to have dinner .... But Mum made some western food for me . So I had it .

It was around 8pm plus when I finally slept . I woke up again at 12mn plus , or 1am .... I checked my Face Book .....

When he finally called me ....

I give up .

Mia went down . Hot dogs , Siew Mai , Chips , bread .... YUMMY !!! So , passed over to Kan and we left !!

It was a very smooth ride home . I love it ! Still getting use to my new helmet and gloves . But I managed to reach home in one piece . Safety .

So , I slept . Mum and Dad was at home . Brother was still asleep . Mum just got home from getting breakfast . I had chee chong fun with milk tea . Mum got some pau . I took one bite of it and Mum thought that the person sold her eaten pau !

Brother woke up ... I slept .

Ken called at 1.10pm , just shorty after I woke up . Zzzzz !!!

He hung up and I woke up . Called back but I was busy . Called him back again .

Did my stuffs , cleared my room and table .

Left home with Brother and had chicken chop downstairs . Our usual hawker centre . Brother brought along Mountain Dew as well .... those days ....

So , he walked me to my bike and I showed him my new helmet and gloves . Rode .... he was still walking . Horned at him . He ran , trying to overtake me through the block .

I reached early , safe and sound .

Kan and SN . We were talking and laughing so much ! So much fun ....

I miss my smile .

The laughter .

I requested / begged Kan to grant my request tomorrow .

He said he's going to DEM !

Argh .

Night came ....

Checked my mail .

DVDs are due on 12/01/2013 .... National Library sent me reminder mails .... So fast !

It's reaching .

It's coming ! It's just ONE more week ... and less .

Mixed feelings ....

I just want to hug and kiss you like never before .

Sometimes , I miss you so much that I just wish I can grab you from my dreams so that you would be there . I can't just simply dial / contact you as and when I like . You were missing , disappear in action when I need you ....

But on the other hand . I don't want to be too dependent on you , like what I was when we first met . I'm scared . You being so close to me ... one phone call away , but so far away . So busy , too busy ... It will be back to square one . I'm scared .

But you're coming home . You're coming home . To me ! MINE !

You are MINE !

Was walking home when I saw Chueng .

I did not eat anything . Just had 1 grape which Mia gave it to me , from the subject .

Slept .... Was totally knocked out .

So I woke up . Messaged Ken . Mum and Brother was around .

But I got to leave . I got to go for work .

5 night , 5 days of not seeing Dad and Brother for most of the time .

I was about to leave when Mum told me that there was noodles . I ate . Nice ... and left to collect my bike . Took bus from Boon Lay Interchange .

$148 .

Aunt gave me a very huge and large helmet ! I tried riding .... I was told to turn right and right . But I need to top up petrol ! $5.92 .

So I went another direction . I did not pass by the ITE as instructed . I went another way . Surprising , I recognised the route !

So , passed by BBDC .... Went up to PIE and AYE to work .

Tired ....

" Chatting " with her from work ....

Face book messaged Andrew , when we ended up Whatappsing .

I'm interested .

Ken called and talked for 1 / 2 minute . Made sure that I was not lost .

He called ... He was always missing in action . Faster come back !

Just one more week !

Shift ended and Mia passed over . I carried my new helmet home , together with my new pair of gloves . I saw Hui Chueng !

Happy happy !

I slept a little and woke up ... Ken called few seconds later . Prepare and got ready . Ken rode his Class 2B bike . There was box for us to put our thing .

We went down to Ubi area . He smoked and the guy came out . We went in to have a look ....

He tried on a few gloves ... but can't seems to find what he wanted . So we made a turn . There was another shop . We made one round and went out . Went to another shop . He showed me the shop at Basement , since I never go there before .

He got his boots , gloves and liner . $272.00 . Went to Ikea where he treated me the Ikea meatballs and chicken wings .

Yummy .

It was raining , so we walked to the bus stop . Took the bus to SGH . Was walking to Block 7 when I saw Christy .

Worked ....

Aunt called , asking me to collect my bike .

Ken called . So we agreed to meet tomorrow ...

He called as well , for a short while .

I woke up at 1.30pm plus ... Thought there was no message when I checked my hand phone in between my sleep . But there was .

5 nights .

I just slacked a little ... Mum came home and made noodles for me .

It was time to leave . I left . I got down from the bus and saw the Slurpee cup - panda . Got it , together with another 2 panda anti dust caps . Was walking up the slope when I saw Eve . chatted with her a little . She helped me submited my timesheet already .

1 subject . On t he phone with Ken . Mia got instant noodles over the night . Mine was Chicken favour , hers was seafood .

He called . We chatted a little .... oh , about half an hour .... about the plans and all . The money . The repayment , the installment . The future .

Was planning some really cool bike trips as well .... Just hope that it come true .

Brother did not have his breakfast as he was running late . I waited for Ken at my car park . Tried / failed to  kick start . He came , rode to Aunt place and we wrote down a list of thing which need servicing . Passed it to aunt and he got some drinks .

Rode further down to some helmet shop and got my helmett ! Nice ... But was sad to see my old helmet inside the dustbin . Served me well . I managed to took video of it before it went to trash . $85 .

Went further .... to some motors ports shop . Tried on racing jackets ! Armour in front and at the back !!! LOVE IT !!!

I want to do racing !

Tried and tried and tried a few racing jackets . Some were nice , others were too big for me . Managed to get a XS gloves , with the knuckles protection . It was $55 , but discounted to $50 , and it fits my hands .

We sat around and had a drink .

Since Ken did not manage to get his birthday jacket , we went to another shop .... it was more " high class " , but no as crowded . He tried on a few and finally got a $400 jacket . I tired 2 jackets as well and Ken agreed to bring me back to get one for me !!!

Shopping done . Wanted to have dinner around Redhill ... but can't find any place . We ended up at SGH Kopitiam . Have vegetables rice and he brought drinks . $8.00 .

Went for work . I just tap in and saw Kan , who greeted , " happy to see you . "

So , one can go home after 7.45pm blood taking , about 2 will be staying in . Mia took the blood and went to spin while I took the vital signs and the subject left .

No more time point from 7.45pm .

Was on the phone with Ken up to ... 3 / 4 hours . Talking .

Making plans ... I think I will be very busy this year .

I wanted to go ... I got so many things I want to do and experience ....

We talked about her and Him as well .

He gave me advises ....

Well , if only money drops from the sky .

Zzzz ...

Mum already went out , I had chwee kueh and left home . Missed the stop !!! Walked all the way .

So , he went toilet and sponged . Family came and we went to the dining area for Indian Lunch . Yummy .

Another family came later , they ate .... shortly , they all left .

PT came . I was about to leave when I was told to do a finger prick . I did .... Error .

I left . Don't know why , but I just called him . We chatted over the phone .

Love you .

I went home and just just the laptop . Mum went out for exercise .

Dinner was nice , western food . Bacon , hot dog , potato , salad .

I wanted to do tomorrow as well .... but I promised Ken . And I had already canceled our outing before ....

Too bad .... They said that they like / request for me .

I hope that I live up to their expectation .

We skyped .

I love you .

Happy Anniversary .