All my love is for you and I will never let you go .

::Truth of me::
::The hidden me::
::Have I got my speech across::
::So you really want to know me::
::Since when did you comprehend me::
::Can you grasp my true emotions and mindset::
::Do you know about the dark truths I'm hiding::
::Confessions of EVERYTHING
on Monday 30 June 2008 .
Title of my post : Wake up .

I knew that I should start preparing myself . For failure . Hey , to tell the truth , you don't have much confidence , do you ? You expected everything . Your self-assurance was that every other person walked though that path , before . It sucks ! The day is drawing nearer and nearer ... you are still deceiving yourself . WAKE UP !

I am tired . I want my break . I miss you .

Holidays came and went . The 2 weeks of my well deserved break flew pass right before my eyes . What had I done ? Nothing . I did not touch my books . I've forgotten all about the projects I was supposed to do . Lots of things happening .... I am so stressed up and tired . Tired .. Of everything . I got nothing to say . I've got no feelings .... It does not matter to me . I still get what I wanted . There's no loss for me . The only comfort was retail therapy . I splurged . $100 just flew off . Yeah . It felt good . The substitute of you .

I hate you ! Have you ever thought of how I feel ? Of course you don't . How could you do this to me ?! It was supposed to be us ... in the end ? I hate you !

Yeah !!! Our presentation is over !!! There's only MY project left . Oh dear ... I'm not sure what should I do , either ... What am I suppose to do . I just hope that we're on the right track ... I hate it !!! ARGH !!! Teach me , how should I lead ?

I though that by making my life extremely hectic ... Busy with School and such ... It will make me forget . I have something to do . I have things to be done . There's no time , totally no time ... for misses . Too busy to think . No time to miss . But why ? Why was I proven wrong , time and time again ? In the end , it turned out ... my heart was still strangled by those unexplained emotions , together with those wonderful memories . Screaming for me to release ... it felt as if it could have exploded . I was too weak . The tears still appeared . The were like rain drops . Just that it only made Brownie wet and there was still no relief for my heart . It made me wonder , time and time again ... Who am I to you , and who are you to me ? It's a wonder what you had done to my life . Who are you ? Why are you so special ? So important ... to me . Your last words ... It was like a magic ... Why ??? Why is it that the only person who hurt me is the only person who can mend my wound ? You last words ... It was like magic ... " I love you . "

Please ... don't make it difficult ... don't leave ... I knew that it's hard for the 2 of you ... there's a lot of things to be done . Mails to fold ... forms to file . I had been sent over ... for Thursday and Friday . I got my NAFTA Slip back ... Disappointed ... but well ...

Short break ... Watched DVD ... Yeah .. together with my favourite Ee Mian ... How I wish that everyday is like that ...

I'm so tired . Went there , School , to the centre and finally back to square 1 again ... On a happier note ... I've finished everything !!! Yeah !! Bit I still got to wait .... Boring !!!

Hm ... It felt strange . There was the omnipresent sense of guilt . Oh well ... Stayed back till 8 pm . God ... Tomorrow ... I got to skip .