Sometimes , I wonder if teachers are blind ? Are they blind , or are they not ? Whenever I am writting , I can clearly see the pinched marks on my left hand . I am a left hander and it was so ugly , so mortifying . It was healing , yup , it was ... there were brown scars .. During Ms Ong period , I was seated right in front of her . I was rubbing my red - brownish , healing scars and doing my organic chemistry mindmap . Ms Ong never notice ... Last year , during the end of year exams , I got caned and the cane marks were at my upper left arm . My sleeves were pulled up as the weather was very humid . Mr Goh never see the cane marks too . When Ms Ong talked to me last year in November , she never see my wrist too . Hm , stayed back for English . English teacher was reading Lee Zhen's letter when she suddenly said , " right , Mu Jie ? " I woke up ... Gee , I was sleeping during lesson time . Hm , went to Hui Min , Boon Ya , Mandy to the Nanyang's girls performances ... However , the choir and band can't hold a candle to National Junior Collage's band and choir .

Nothing much today . Mum woke me up . She shouted at me for not setting up my alarm clock . I procced to the kitchen to have a drink while waiting for Mum to come out from the master bedroom . I waited and waited and waited . Suddenly , Mum got tempestuous . She came out of the master bedroom and pinched my left hand and slapped both of my cheeks , which turned redder than round red apples ! It turned out that Mum was inside the master bedroom waiting for me . She was applying cream as her muscle ached . Mum wasn't going to use the bathroom . I went inside the master bedroom and cried . How was I to know that she was not feeling well ? She shouted me to get out of my warm comfortable bed ... she's alright . She knows how to scream , nothing wrong's with her ! HOW WAS I TO KNOW THAT SHE'S UNWELL !!!! I checked my left hand which she pincked so cruelly . Red liquid was flowing out from my new wounds ..... Poor me . Ms Ong came back to School .... I went home after School and made instant noodles and hash browns . Ai Hui called and invited me to eat with Mei Qi and her . I turned down the offer as the food was already cooked . Wasted ! I really want to join them .... Me , Mei Qi and Ai Hui . How we usually joked during our lunch . Anyway , quite disppointed with myself ... The past is still repeating . I slept and woke up . Mum was home . I was about to pour a cup of water when Mum took out a packet of milk for me . Brother was around during dinner , lucky ! I was the last person to eat finish . I was about to put away the dishes when Mum asked me , " whoese's going to eat that fish ? "

After flag raising , we were told to stayed back for the GCE O Level Mother Tongue Oral brefing . It's quite scary to knoe that I've sat for the Chinese paper , and the English and Chinese O Level prelim . Argh , nothing much . Went School ... Haiz , hanged around with Ai Hui . Rushed to complete the English Compo , it should be okay , not too bad . Went home and found out that Brother was at home too . He had called my handphone , which I did not bring to School . Anyway , I went home and did some tuition homework . Howevwer , I felt sleepy and went to sleep . I woke up for dinner and Mum was nagging ... Should ask him to come later , why your room so untidy , don't you know that he complained ? You better eat faster .... blah blah blah . MIGHT AS WELL DON'T ASK HIM TO COME THEN ! Tuition ... I'm a very clever girl . Homework not done ? Nevermind . Ask him about Ot\rganic Chemistry . I was still sick , down with flu and he was there , " ethanoic acid , pentanoate , ethyl ... " Please ! I'm sick and my throat just got better ! He was late . Futhermore , I was angry with him . Mum nagging at me all because of all those tuition thingy ! Anyway , I dropped a lead inside his cup of water . Since he claimed that my room is dirty , well , I shall prove it to you then ! So , here you go , a lead in your cup of water ! he realized it and asked , do you know what's that ? " Huh , nope . " I lied . " It's a lead ... Nevermind , you do your work . " He instructed . He went out of my room and came back again . Bro came and delievered another cup of water . " Lead is Pb , right ? " He asked . " Yar . " Crazy ! He's my Chemistry tution teacher and yet he asked me what is the atomic symbol for Lead . Tuition ended . I counted the number of tissue papers I used - 20 ! So now , you can imange how sick I was and yet he insisted me on pronouncing all those ethanoic acids ... etc ! Oh , when he reached my house , he came and said , " Can you set up the fan ? , don't you feel hot ? " "I've got a cold . " I've already told him about my cold and yet he still want to pronounce the words ! Hm , Realized that Brother gave the tutor tap water instead of boiled water ! Haha ! Well done , Brother !

Today , went to School . I felt very sick . Temperature ? Nopefully not ! Dizzy spell , nose was running , throat was sore ... Is this how I am going to spent the rest of term 3 ?! First period , Ms Ong was not around . Some other teacher came . I felt very ill , felt hot and cold at the same time ... dizzy ... can't breath and swallow saliva . I slept , then the teacher came and woke me up , saying it's just the first day of the term ! Stupid ! I'm sick and I can't do my work , might as well make use of my time sleeping , right ?! During recess , I went with Ai Hui , Mei Qi , Zhi Hui to the computer lab and slept . During Physics , Mr Khor helped me with the experiment . I don't know how to do the experiment . I was feeling slightly better by then . I stayed back with Ai Hui and Mei Qi to do math . After that , we went bookshop . Then went back home . I searched for my bank account book from 4 pm to 6 pm but in vain . Brother came back home then I stopped the search . At night , I made soup , fish , rice and otha .

I board the SBS bus to Centrepoint . I was bored , thus , I slept on the bus . When I woke up , I though that I had missed my stop ! Luckily , I did not .... I woke up one stop before my actual stop . Nothing much . Attented the lesson . Brough MacDonalds' for lunch . Oh , we got to write an essay on " how successful are your parents ? " Played game .... Lesson ended . Leo let me see his photos on the way home . It's nice and fun ... But I got to go to the Cold Storage to buy things ... thus , cannot really chat with Leo ..

Mum has some coupons which enables both of us to have a free haircut . However , when we reached the shop , the shop assistant told us that we should go the the tranning school instead . Disppointed , Mum and I went to the Centerpoint . We shopped a while and ate ice cream . Then I went back home and Mum went to meet my Godmother .

I bathed , packed my bag , combed my hair ... etc ... etc And when I finally opened the door and planned to leave the house , I then realized that my dear Brother had licked the door ! I had lost my keys some time ago and Brother licked the door ! I kicked and slamed the door and cried . I was so angry . I actually planned to go to Cousin's house with Mum ... I was all ready and set .... !!! I called Mum and told her the situation , she laughed at me and told me that it's my own doing ! Brother , it's all your fault ! Okay , okay ... I'm asking for it . Who ask me to lost my keys ?!

Hm ... we had curry chicken at night . I went down to the void deck to meet Mum and get the curry chicken . I'm totally fustrasted with her . She took me as an idoit , thus , she came back home and announced to Brother , " You Sister can't understand instruction . Put the curry chicken inside the glass bowl and heat it up - it's so smple and she can't understand . " Yar right ! Why don't you admit that you don't trust your one and only daughter ? If you love to come back home so much , why waste my time and energy going down to the void deck to meet you ?! And please don't act as if you are so clever ! Different people have different ways to heat up the curry chicken !

I spent the day together with Brother .... And I got scolded again ! By why ? By Mum . Who else ?!

It was a very lousy day for me .... I don't want to say .... I'm back to my old habits .... the so - called " past " ... I'm sorry ..... Just can't help it . Just when then can I break free ?!

Enrique's message woke me up . He asked about me , it's so nice of him . He even encouraged me to work hard ... I am touched . At night , I got beaten up by Mum because I refused to hand her the letter which I wrote during the Empower U progamme . I don't mind the punishment , serious . I just hate it when she doesn't take into account of my feelings !

I went for my ALW class and went back home . I saw a letter on the table ... it was the letter which I wrote during my Empower U programe ... No way ! I took the letter from the dinning table and kept it inside my room .... I tore opened the envelope and ... Yup ... it's the letter .... There's no way Mum is going to read it . Period !

Argh , my legs still hurts ! Hm , I was at home doing my work when Yu Xuan messaged me ... he asked if I would be attending Service today ... Hm , I looked at the clock ... then I dailed Diana's number ... Blah blah blah ... I ended up going for Service today ! I mean .... I though .... I don't know .... Why would I want to go ? I mean ... of couse I should go ... But why ? As in ... I though .... I was planning to go back after my ALW course ... If so , then why was there an urge to attent today's Service ? I don't know .... Argh .... So confuse .... Anyway , I met up with Diana and we went for Service .. It was so nice of Diana . I just called her and she agreed at once ! Futhermore , I don't know for what reason , I never bring any paper or pens , Diana lent me hers and she never write anything ... Diana even accompanied me to eat dinner at KFC ... Her bus came first and yet she waited with me for my bus ... Before we parted ... Diana told me that she would be going overseas to study ...

I received a messagwe from Steve 2 daqys ago , asking me to ice skate with other Empower U people . I agreed and there I was , inside the ring , enjoying myself . It had been some time since I skated ... However , it was very fun . I enjoyed it . Hehe , I ended up with 2 bristle on my legs . 1 each ... It was so painful until Hafiz got to buy plaster for me ... Hehe , I limped home and went to buy McDonald's for Brother and I .

There was Social Studies remedial today , and I never attend . Went for Literature ... it was quite boring . Anyway , I went back home after I was dismissed . I went home and bathed and went to Somerset to meet Hafiz , Zi Wan , Lionel and a few other guys from Empower U . We went to watched " Moster - in laws " Hehe ... It was quite funny ... After that , we shopped around a little and went to Plaza Singapura to eat and we went back home after dinner .

Woke up by Ai Hui's message asking me if I am going for the Social Studies remindal . I replied her that I nver sumbit the edusave form . Went for Chemistry . Nothing much , just some practical . Hm , I can't be happier when Ms Ong told the class that English remedial was cancled . I went home and slpet on Brother's bed . I was too tired . I empited my pocket and let my Handphone by my side . I was abotu to doze off when someone called my Handphone . I though it was Mum . However , when I looked at the Handphone screen , it was Ai Hui . I answered . " Hey , English remedial was cancled , right ? " " Yes , Ms ong said so . " " Um ... if your home don't have any lunch ... or if nobody ... do you want to join us - Mei Qi and I ? " " Huh ... okay . " I was to sick to think about lunch . Actucally , intented to skip it ... " Um ... okay , see you are the old place . "

Pris did not come today . She went overseas , I think ... I hang out with the rest . We went for lunch at McDonald's . It was so borning for me as I usually go for lunch with Pris ... Not very close to the gang ... Anyway , everyone clapped when I step inside the room . And I heard our instructor sayign something about dancing ? Hehe ... it's that pole dancing thing again .

Hm , I went with Mum to the Esplanade for some free show in the library . At first , I was very angry with Mum . It was raining when we wanted to go out , thus , Mum said we leave later . I mean , what's the big deal ? We have shettles and everything , why do we have to wait ? Anyway , Mum and I slpet . Mum woke me up some time later and we went to the Esplanade . The show was fine . It was by some Primary School kids . There was a Chinese Dance item . Well , their costume was the same as us ....

I received a message from my ALW friend in the afternoon while I was making my own lunch . It was Shu Hui . She said that the Empower U speakers would be leaving today and we are invited to sent them off . I checked out with Steve and Enrique . Both guys would ne going too ! Haha . Not bad . I am able to see them again . Before I go to the Airport , I went with Mum to the bank and made an ATM card for me . It was still early and Mum asked me to accompany her to the Hawker Centre and have Tea . Fine . I went with her ... For some unknown reason ... she got angry with me , once again ! She don't let me go even though I was 15 minutes late ! She dragged and dragged and dragged ... I took the train and bumped into one of my School Teacher . I finally reached the Airport ... Thank God that the Empower U speakers haven leave yet ! We hang around at the Burger King . It was so boring with my own ALW classmates and I wished that I can hang around with Steve and Enrique instead ! Well , I did chat with them a few times , bu I went back to my palce after that ... We took some photos too . Well , Enrique helped me to take ... Haha ... So good ! Well , I should really thank him ... Anyway , 3 of us from the same ALW class , decided to stay and have dinner with the team ... but somehow , the 3 of us were being " chased away . " I don't know if I was allowed to stay and have dinner . I tried calling Mum ... She never answer my call . To tell the tuth , I was quite scared of calling Mum while the rest of my friend were around ... I was frightened that Mum would shout over the phone and blah blah blah and I would end up crying . Luckily Mum didn't answer her call . Anyway , the 3 ALW classmates ended up having dinner at the Buger King and we went to Bugis after that .