All my love is for you and I will never let you go .

::Truth of me::
::The hidden me::
::Have I got my speech across::
::So you really want to know me::
::Since when did you comprehend me::
::Can you grasp my true emotions and mindset::
::Do you know about the dark truths I'm hiding::
::Confessions of EVERYTHING
on Friday 31 October 2008 .
Title of my post : Walk .

Watched " Mirror " with Mum at Chua Chu Kang ... She headed home herself while I went with the guys for some concert at NYP . I suggested to take the longer route , to try my luck . But nope , there's nobody there . Nobody's training there ... So sorry for making them to walk the longer route . Haha . It's okay , practice for their NS . NS , NS , NS . I miss you ... LOTS !

And so , I am still surviving , without him . Went out ... Facial , shopping , spending money . I miss you !

It did not help at all when I read my novel .... A thin line between life and death .

Please , I am missing you right now , what about you ? How are you ? What are you doing now ? Did you keep your promise ? Have you taken your meal and drugs ?? Had a good night rest yesterday night ? Can you just come back now ? Even a " Hi " will do . I am addicted to you just like smokers to tar , tobacco and nicotine .

So ... you did met me . Your promise . The first step I took , I want to run back . The second step I took , I wish to hug you . The third step I took , I never want to let you go . The fourth step I took , I knew that it's all useless . You got to go ... You have to leave . Good bye ...

It seems that nothing is ever enough . Please ... remember our promise .... You are making me worry sick . Are you sure that you are alright ?

I want to hug you ... and never let you go .

Can you don't go ?

He was so sweet ... So nice ... Oh .... now ........ How can I ever tolerate our imminent separation ....... Especially when I am missing you so much right now .

I totally detest going back late after work . Imagine staying for an hour and twenty minutes after your knock off time . There's nothing special there .... Nothing interests me . I'm simply too lazy to learn up all the stuffs .... Adding on that he actually wanted his Itocuh today . Come early , go late .... I hate it !!!! Loathed it .

I managed to observe Lower Segment Cesarian Section . Dumbfounded ....

I managed to scrub one case today . Stayed back for half an hour more . Oh well ... I am still surviving ...

I reported for my Operating Theater posting . The thought of submitting / presenting a case made me yawns . I hope that it will be a spectacle posting .

He's such a love . Maucks . I love you . How I hope that everyday ... it will be the same .

Hospital's Accident and Emergency does not interest me at all . Basically ... what I've experienced over there are minor cases .... Oh well ...

I am still having my birthday mood ... I hate attachments ... I was lost . I miss 9 ... where are you ?!?! What about cloud and coke ?? It just drags on .... Nothing much ....

I am 19 ! My proudest moment in my 18th years is my driving license . Now , what should I do for my 19th years ? Every year , I would look forward to this day .... Met him . Had fun . He he . I love you ! Had dinner with my family ! Yeah ! It's so seldom ....

Yeah ! Tomorrow ! I was all alone in the evening , having my dinner . Getting excited for tomorrow . I've booked a place for dinner . I will have having dinner with my family ! But I am still not sure about the plans with him ....

I left , not knowing that this will be the very last time I will be back . I left , not knowing that I left .

Went down with Mum for the free trial . Met up with Brother . Had my favorite Pepper Lunch for dinner . Brother had his hair cut ... I want mine too ! If only I am having my attachment now , I want a longer holiday !!! Tired . Zzz ...